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你到底知道了多少？真与假？

2009-05-14T23:30:00.004+08:00

听到了，知道了，原来我们就只是这样的结果。。这几个月，一直不把自己的主观看待你，但却用另外一种客观的想法来看待你所做的，你所想的。。但。。原来，这只不过是自我的欺骗。。

当真诚真心的对待时，是否曾经真的有感受到，还是有怀疑过？

一直相信时间能证明一切，但。。听到的，感觉到的，是否真是那么样。。是真的吗？

把假当成真，把真当成假，事实的真到底知道的有多少？

或许我已经不想多说了，我会带着这一切的真，伤感，失望以及绝望。。沉默的离开。。

不会再多说，不会再多问，不会再多坚持。。。

或许这样是最好的结局吧。。。

妹妹怀孕了！！

2009-05-12T09:47:00.008+08:00

上周三，10pm plus, 和妹妹msn。。。改变了我的心情。。

当时，我正在肯书，准备那讨厌的考试。。一整天的心情很差，好郁闷。。好显！！

妹妹：我已经有十三天还没来月经了。。

我：你怀孕啊？

妹妹：我的腰现在酸酸的。。每次酸酸后的几天就会来月经了。。

我：那你有没有用验尿的。。

妹妹：有。。

我：THEN。。

妹妹：POSITIVE。。

我：那你有了啊！！

妹妹：不知道。。

那时的我，心情从郁闷变成兴奋。。但因为不知道到底妹妹是否真的怀孕，也觉得有点紧张，心不能平静。。后来，妹妹和妹夫一起到附近的诊所检查。。我告诉妹妹不管什么结果，一定要打电话来告诉我。。。

我开始心好不定，没办法专心读书。。哈哈。。。因为脑子里都是妹妹是否真怀孕了。。希望听到的结果是好的，是我在这几个月所期盼的。。

那时参加学姐孩子的满月后，一直希望妹妹能快点生第一个宝宝。。

在等待消息的那个时候，真的好紧张。。心好乱。。原本这些心情应该是妹夫所感受的，但我还是真的无法平静我的心。。但我还是尽量的去复习我的方剂，突然，我感觉要吐，胃气上逆，在咽喉部能尝到吃过的食物及胃酸，结果我还是把它吞进去了。。这时，我告诉婷说我的感觉告诉我妹妹怀孕的几率很大很大。。。

我会这么说，那是因为我觉得我和妹妹有一种不可思议的感应吧。。虽然妹妹每次觉得我想太多，但经过几次的事情发生后，使我非常相信我的这种感觉，也许妹妹不像我那么细微的感觉到我的的事情吧。。

例如，以前。。。我在踏脚车时跌倒，膝盖周围流一点点的血，而那天那个时候妹妹和妹夫（那时还是她的男朋友）好像发生了小小的意外车祸。。又有一次，我突然感觉很不对劲，很怪的不祥预感，我的肚子有点阵痛，但无缘无故的发生，那时我想到我的妹妹，结果，后来才知道那一整天她在男朋友家的时候，肚子好不舒服，好痛，也上吐下泻。。

其实还有好几次类似这样的事情，但我也忘了，但这两次的经历让我比较有深深的感触吧。。妹妹一直觉得这些只是碰巧罢了。。但我不那么认为，我相信因为我们是双胞胎，所以有一种不能解释的心灵感应吧。。你相信吗？

后来，我等到凌晨十二点，妈妈打电话给我。。说我要做大姨了。。我很开心，很高兴。。但我还是叫妈妈叫妹妹亲自打电话给我告诉我这个喜事。。后来妹妹打来，说了一下霞的话，当中，我哭了。。因为觉得妹妹和我长大了，时间过得很快，小时候的我们经常在一起，很亲密，但现在她嫁人了，现在她怀孕了。。不仅有点感伤，再加上我也很想我的妹妹。。

我好高兴，好开心到我边读书边笑，甚至到那晚都睡不着觉。。因为妹妹的怀孕，也让我感觉自己怀孕。。兴奋到我没办法平静我的心，不能定下来。。

兴奋，期待！但也感到悲伤，不能看着妹妹怀孕的过程，不能见到宝宝出生。。啊！真的好难过。。但愿妹妹能一切顺利，一切平安！

好想我的臭阿妹。。也突然有股冲动，好想回家。。怎么办。。郁闷。。

情绪的起伏-考试

2009-05-10T21:13:00.029+08:00

09/05/09

若有来世，我看我不可能再读中医了。。。

[读书读死死读书，死书死读读死书！越读越死脑袋空，越死越读快要疯]

四大中医基础科目，真的读不完，实在太多。。虽然去年在新加坡中医毕业考试有十科，压力比这里更大。。Hy 还说过既然我们都能过这十科的毕业考，相信我们在南京也能过关的。。但是，我们只知道要考中基，中诊，中药，方剂，也没给任何范围，真的很广。而且是在两周前才通知我们这场考试的。。我们还要上课。。还要准备这第一关的南京中医药大学毕业考试。天啊，都不知道该从何读起。。

老实说，这次的考试，我比去年的毕业考试和卫生部考试还更认真，用功，也很仔细的读。。虽然，最近的心情起伏不定，但认真的时候还是会努力读。。虽然结果有两科没办法读完，但也比去年读得更多。。。嗐！！

但就是到了一天前的考试，读了一整天，直到9pm左右，我在也没办法再读了下去了。。我放弃了。。头好重，胸痛，郁闷，胸闷，胃脘也闷闷的。。我关书了。。准备睡觉。。

起初，婷一直叫我起来，读书。。但我真的无法再读下去了。。最终，婷也放弃我了。。我知道我的这个举动，一定会影响到她。。真对不起。。她11pm 左右关书了，关灯准备睡觉，但我也还没睡，我们开始聊天。。我们聊到2 am 。。谢谢她，我的郁闷也慢慢消除，但也对她不好意识，因为我，她没读书。。

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10/05/09
6am左右，起身。。心情放空。。但还是再继续读，复习要读的科目。。

8.30am, 开始考试。。考完后，我确实很郁闷。。我确实很不开心。。我怪我自己很没有用，原本我最自豪的方剂，既然能记不得，显掉。。我怪自己没有尽心尽力去考试。。因为。。啊。。也许心目中真的放弃了。。

因为好不开心，好郁闷，所以根本不想多说。。虽然婷怎样逗我，和我讲话，但我还是保持沉默。。或只有说几个字而已。。请原谅我。。我知道她看到我这样也好郁闷。。后来，婷，君和我一起去新街口走走。。

说真的，逛街对我来说，还是没办法使我开心的。。还蛮抱歉的，我这两个好友还得看我这个显样子一整天。。我也不想，但是在那段时间，真的很。。。嗐。。

现在心情也比较好了。。请不用担心。。给我一些时间我一定会好。。经过这次，不管怎样，要在努力读书了。。不管是为了补考，还是明年的第二，第三关的毕业考，我一定要加油，努力的。。。

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君，谢谢你在这几天当我和婷很压力时，成为我们的逍遥散。。

还有，很感谢我未来干孩子的妈。。下午的午餐我没什么吃，她竟然偷偷的买了Doughnut，而她也知道我晚餐也应该是不会吃的，哈哈，她太了解我了。。谢谢你给我的晚餐的dougnut.. 我真的很感动，因为真的是没有想到的。。好好吃。。甜在心里，也甜在嘴里。。真的真的，这几天虽然很压力，但是因为你的陪伴，也还蛮减压的。。　你说你看到我难过，觉得自己没有用，无法帮我，无法让我开心。。　我听了，有点难过。。因为也不是你说想得这样的。。　When you accompany me when i am down, my mood actually change slowly from bad to good.. But I need more times...对不起。。　Anyway, 干孩子的妈, 谢谢你。。 ["^U^"]

难过 ---> 开心！！

2009-04-25T17:08:00.017+08:00

考试要到了，但也没办法读书，真的读不下去。啊！！
这几天，好不开心。。好没心情。。
你知道吗，看见你伤心，看见你难过，看见你哭泣，我真的也为你难过。。我确实吓到了。。

昨天，知道你很难过，又再次见到你流泪，其实我的心也很难受。。因为我真的不知道要如何让你开心起来。当你出去走走，静一静时，还真会担心你。。虽然你是很理性，不会做傻事，不会怎么样的。。但是你的情绪在这几天起伏好大，自然而然，我还是会担心你的。。

你回来了，我也弹了一首歌给你听。。但你听了，觉得没有Feel。。SobSob。。我知道我弹的不够好，不能让你感动。。但我还是想要让你听这首歌。。我从来没听过，是第一次听到的。。但是觉得歌词很有意思。。。你问我在sms谁，原本想打好歌词，在发给你的，但还是算了，决定打在我的Blog。。我不是很会说话，安慰别人。。

But I will lend my Ears to you, I will lend you my shoulder, and I will be there for you... 对不起，让你觉得你每次在说话，而我不讲话。。因为我真的不知道该说什么。。也许我不是一个很细心的人。。但是，无论怎么样，我都希望你能天天开心，幸福快乐。。

希望你能了解各词的含义。。
Again.. Times will Heal Your Wounds!!! You will be Fine...

《朋友别哭》

有没有一扇窗，能让你不绝望。
看一看花花世界，原来像梦一场。
有人哭有人笑，有人输有人老，
到结局还不是一样。

有没有一种爱，能让你不受伤，
这些年堆积多少对你的知心话，
什么酒醒了，什么痛忘不掉，
向前走就不可能回头望。

朋友别哭，我依然是你心灵的归宿，
朋友别哭，相信自己的路，
红尘中有太多茫然痴心的追遂，
你的苦，我也有感触

朋友别哭，我一直在你心灵最深处，
朋友别哭，我陪你就不孤独。
人海中，难得有几个真正的朋友，
这份情，请你不要不在乎。
人海中，难得有几个真正的朋友，
这份情，不要不在乎。

今天见你回到“正常”的状态。。。会笑，会闹。。哈哈。。。 ["^U^"]
但愿你能天天都像今天一样。。。。。。。。。。
开心。。。

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明天要努力读书了。。。加油恩！！！

喜欢对方，一定要有结果吗？

2009-04-22T21:23:00.007+08:00

喜欢的人，若能和他（她）常相厮守，永远在一起，过着幸福美满的生活，当然是很好的，也是每个人都盼望的。。但，若不能与喜欢的人在一起，虽然是一种痛苦，折磨。。但只要能看见对方过着幸福快乐的生活，祝福彼此，那也未必不是一件好事。。

因为喜欢他（她），所以会很关心她（他）。。
因为喜欢他（她），所以会要保护她（他）。。
因为喜欢他（她），所以会更加在乎她（他）的感受。。
因为喜欢他（她），所以会不让她（他）受到一点的伤害。。

不是吗？

喜欢他（她），真的一定要和他（她）在一起吗？一定要拥有他（她）吗？很多时候，不是我们能选择的，能控制的。。

当异性朋友不能够在一起时，因为某些原因，难道一定非要在一起，非要给对方一个结果，非要有目的，才算是真的有爱过对方吗？异性朋友难道不能够成为很好的知己，很好的兄妹，很好的朋友吗？只要关心，在乎着对方，只要他（她）天天都开心，虽然不能在一起，但只要能见到对方开心，快乐，自己也会很开心的。。有着彼此的祝福，那也是很幸福的。。不是吗？

虽然不能在一起，但也可以互相关心对方，互相支持对方等，是以一个很真很真很真的友情对待，对他（她）不一定要有目的，不一定要有结果，只是想要拥有着美好的异性超友谊关系，缘分。。不行吗？就是这种感觉，不要求多，但愿这种美好的感觉能够长久，到老。。相信吗？明白吗？

在这世上，能找到非常好的异性友谊，真的不容易，不是每个人能找到的。。若身边已经找到了，就请珍惜这段非常真诚，难得的异性友谊吧。。

总而言之，异性朋友，不一定要当情人。。也可以当知己，家人，好友的。。不是吗？
珍惜这段缘分。。。倘若失去了，就再也不能够回头了。。再也不会找到当初的感觉了。。

郁闷，身体健康出现小毛病了。。

2009-04-12T20:26:00.007+08:00

最近没有更新Blog了，因为忙，又真的很懒得写。。

抱歉，让家人，朋友们担心了。。尤其是Watermelon 弟，他还从新加坡那发短信给我，问我发生什么事，很少上网，没更新blog。。。没回他。。。谢谢你，watermelon弟。。

其实我还好。。只不过这几个星期，身体不是很好，差一点在冲凉时晕过去，又干呕，见到的是一片黑暗，幸好来得及回到房间，躺在婷的床，休息了，比较好。。。

过了几天后，到仙林的新学校去参观，又与婷去找学弟们。。用完茶点后，就在校园走走，看看。。又去爬山。。结果，上山时，不到五分钟，就感觉心率跳得好快。。胸闷。。好不舒服了。。但我也没和他们说，只好慢慢一步一步的往上爬。。楼梯好多，已经不知到爬了多少了，但我终于爬完了，很开心，但我知道我已经气虚了。。幸好没晕。。但声音变得好沉。。我就静静的跟着他们的后面，走回学弟的Hostel。。自己拔脉搏，发现跳得很快。。被他们发现了。。回到hostel后，学弟拿了一包洋参，后来拿了几片，含在口里。。吃了晚餐，也好很多了。。谢谢两位学弟的晚餐。。

隔天，从仙林回到了汉中门。。大约八点左右，一下车，结果，只见到太阳的颜色，周围却是灰暗的。。用右手档着眼睛。。站在马路那有五秒多，恢复正常了，就走了。。婷很担心我，也问我有没有事。。但还是谢谢她的关心。。。

其实，我真的很不懂为何会这样。。不只有身体问题，现在又出现令我非常郁闷，不开心的事。。那就是。。我的体重增加了。。 3kg。。。现在，58kg。。 ArgZ... 我真的不明白为何。。。我的食量又不是吃非常的多，是我的正常平时吃的分量。。在加上自从21st of March, 我就开始每天跑步。。跑30min。。都没停过。。况且有打羽毛球，走路(三十分钟以上等等的运动。。都做了阿。。。

真的不明白为何一直增加体重。。已经很久没有那么重了。。以前，只要我有运动，体重要码是不变，或是慢慢的减轻。。但是现在，不断的增加。。

是否身体出现了毛病。。五脏六腑阴阳失调？冬天转为春天，身体不适应？

若是我吃多，隔天的体重就会减轻，若是我吃少，隔天的体重就会增加了。。

为何会这样？身体健康出现问题。。体重的增加。。真郁闷。。

说真的，来了中国后，我本来在新加坡不吃的食物，如莲藕，黄瓜，南瓜，茄子，番茄等等，但来了这里后，都学会吃了。。也运动了。。也开始早晨起身, 有时6am, 7am, 8am..等。。然后就去跑步了。。回到家后，冲凉。。再去上学。。原本这一些都是很健康的生活，但是我的身体健康却不是理想的健康。。

到底哪里出了问题？？

伤心也伤心了，难过也难过了，郁闷也郁闷了，哭也哭过了。。

但，我不会放弃的。。。我会坚持运动，吃多一些有营养的食物。。吃多蔬菜水果。。下周也会去找中医师，调理我的身体。。我也开始做针灸减肥，一周两次。。

我不会放弃的。。虽然婷说不要把一件事看得太重。。我明白，但我真的做不到，尤其体重。。因为我不能接受体重超过55kg的。。。我需要时间，我会耐心的治疗，但愿身体会健康，体重会下降。。现在不敢每天量体重。。今天没量体重，因为会害怕，会影响我的心情。。下个星期六才量。。

Jiaen, 加油。。

我的2009生日

2009-03-21T18:06:00.003+08:00

三月十九日，12am 多，来了一个很大的意外间接生日礼物啊。。好朋友的朋友醉了，需要我帮忙，好朋友叫我拿护照，钱等，去到靠近苏果那里，帮她。。在等电梯时，因为手上有护照，皮包，钥匙，手机等，刚好好朋友打来，结果手机掉了。。啊。。外壳也摔断了。。但也没想那么多，赶快跑去那里。。他，真的醉了。。但也醉倒很可爱。。一直说。。拜拜。。拜拜。。好朋友决定去宾馆找人帮忙。。而我把我的脚靠着他的肩旁，以防他倒地。。结果。。他抱着我的脚。。说我爱你。。

天啊。。其实他是好朋友的追求者。。他喜欢好朋友。。却把我当成好朋友。。幸好他没对我这么样。。因为他真的醉了。。
好朋友说宾馆的人不帮忙，就算我有护照，但需要他本人的才行。。结果，我很好朋友决定扶他回到我们的家。。他真的好重，我的腰和脖子酸死了。。过后，他睡在好朋友的床上。。但因为他一直会掉下床，我们决定了，把两个床合并，让他靠里面的床。。忙了后，发现三点了。。天啊。。又迟迟睡了。。本来已经冲好凉了。。但身上又有点酒味。。臭臭的。。
和好朋友说。。今年，你真的给我很大大的间接礼物啊。。真难忘的一天。。

下午，我的几个朋友到素食餐馆去吃。。。谢谢你们的礼物。。我最爱的巧克力蛋糕。。
感激宇瑛，因为要去买我的礼物，结果她逃课。。学业，读书对她来说很重要的，却因为我，牺牲了两节课。。真感动。。谢谢你，宇瑛妈咪。。谢谢你的运动衣和库。。
五点过后，回家和婷一起收拾房间。。忙到晚上。。我的生日就这样过了。。其实我已经很满足了。。谢谢你们。。

我也要谢谢妈咪，妹妹，弟弟，朋友们，Miss Wong，给我的生日祝福。。有些是发短信给我的，有的是在Facebook.. 不管这样，我很感动。。谢谢你们。。我很开心。。

（我有一个非常难忘的生日，败给我好朋友所赐。。电话机掉，脖子腰酸，被他抱我脚把我当成她，刚冲好却变臭臭的，又三点多才能睡，最后还要收拾房间。。命好苦啊，这是我好朋友给我的间接礼物啊。。但我很喜欢好朋友送我的真正礼物—Mickey!! 谢谢你，好朋友）

我其实很想妈咪。。。冲凉时，哭了。。第一次生日没有妈妈的陪伴。。第一次生日部和妹妹一起庆祝。。但，我在这里，还过得不错。。很好。。开心。。

March 17th 2009

2009-03-21T15:50:00.024+08:00

三月十七日，其实有点伤心。。上轮理课时，有点想哭了。。老师讲到心理的东西，说道。。放下。。那时。。我的泪在眼睛打滚。。因为，两年前的三月十七日，Tiger 来到我家，也成了我家的其中一分子。。我想起我的宝贝。。那天，也是我的Motor驾照1 年了。。特地选那天考试，就是为了纪念Tiger来到我家。。时间过得那么快。。到现在为止，Tiger还是没给我梦。。我也是很想宝贝。。但我还是要学习放下。。不能再做傻事了。。

三月十七日，也是宇瑛的生日。。叫了几个越南同学，一起到餐馆吃晚餐，为了帮宇瑛庆祝。。玩了，闹了，真开心。。看到宇瑛那么开心，我的心里也很开心。。因为她压力很大，一直考试，没怎么休息到，再加上她没回新加坡，没能见到她的家人，知道她其实会有点难过。所以，我和婷决定不管怎样，一定要帮她庆祝。。要让她有个难忘的生日。。原本，她都不要庆祝的，我们苦苦哀求她，五分钟也好。。但最后，她还是把书放一遍，答应让我们和她庆祝。。

后来也做了视频给她。。只是想要让她回忆她2009的生日。。让她开心。。快乐。。我想。。她看了我做的，是有感动吧，虽然没见到她哭。。哈哈。。。她很喜欢，我也满足了。。

三月十六，星期一。。放学过后，我们去买礼物给裕城学弟后，经过Mangoo店，结果我们叫了三种不同的芒果甜品。。好好吃啊。。可惜宇瑛没来。。

["^U^"]

2009-03-17T00:20:00.038+08:00

On the 14th and 15th of March, Ting, Tang and me went for a 2 days trip at乌镇 and 西塘 with other Uni Students in Nanjing organized by Malaysian Organization Group.. Cost about 390RMB.. Jun was sick, couldn’t join us.. sobsob..
About 19 students including me all together.. 2 from Japan, 1 from Taiwan, 2 from Singapore (Me and Tang), while the rest from Malaysia.. I enjoyed the 2 days trip even though was really quite tiring.. This 2 days trip was actually my bday gift from my mother… she gave me $200sing which is about 900RMB, and asked to buy anything I like.. so I spent part of it on this trip, and I think is worth it..
From Nanjing to Wuzheng took 4 hours travel time.. which like from Sing to KL distance.. Next time hope to go there again, or other places with my mummy , family, and my friends..
Lazy to write about the description @ WuZheng and Xi Tang… Pic below will show… the places are beautiful….

Who Is He? He is Bi Gan Da Xian...

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On the 13th of March, my Chinese Bday.. Qiaoyun jie actually prepared Mian Xian for me, and also bought a cake for me to celebrate it.. Wow, I was so touched.. but the truth behind was that actually my mum wrote a letter to Qiaoyun jie to ask her cook Mian Xian on that day for me.. I knew this on the first week when I came to Nanjing.. when I knew it, tears really roll down my cheek.. argz..mummy actually planned in advanced.. In the letter, mummy also put 100RMB inside.. But she didn’t know that QiaoYun Jie will buy a cake for me.. I missed my mummy… Thanks mummy… Thanks Qiaoyun Jie too..

Wanna Thanks Ting for the Surprised Cake... ["^U^"]

Wanna Thanks HER.. She actually planned to do Mian Xian for me too..even though nope.. cos she din know that day was my bday.. but I appreaciated.. Thanks.. ["^U^"]

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On the 6th of March, after had our lunch, went to Zhong Shang Lin to see Mei Hua with Ting, Jun and Tang… This was my first time seeing real Mei Hua…I felt normal lor.. cos I don’t really likes flower anyway.. but at there, really looked nice… now then knew that Mei Hua also got white in colour… I always thought Mei Hua is pink in colour…hehe.. I enjoyed taking pic with Mei Hua and with my friends….

Happy Birthday my dear Friend...

2009-03-03T23:07:00.003+08:00

WaterMelon,
Happy Birthday... haha.. Nearly forgot abt it, only till u reminded me again... Paiseh.. haha.. anyway, all the best in ur study and exams.. gd luck.. take care.. BOI... Hehe...

开心

2009-03-02T20:14:00.003+08:00

昨天四五点多和我的室友们一起去跑步。。只跑十五分钟左右。。回到家门，没人带钥匙，而在屋里的那个瓜，在冲凉。。在无聊的情况下，我们玩二零五。。那是童年玩的游戏啊。。结果，我和他们没默契，被打的是我，发现她们的力气好大啊。。打了三次，那个瓜才开门。。如果她早点开门的话，我就不会被打了。。sobsob... 哈哈。。虽然手是有点痛，但是 I Enjoyed playing with them... 感觉回到从前的童年。。能玩，能闹。。是一种幸福。。谢谢你们。。

今天又下雨了。。真讨厌。。下午上课时，收到他的短信。。说。。今天又下雨，小心感冒。。心中有种甜甜的感觉。。谢谢他的关心。。

same。。开心。。

心情不错。。开心。。

2009-03-01T00:08:00.006+08:00

回来后，感觉变了。。心情也好。。气氛也好。。开心。。(谢谢)。。唯一不喜欢的是一直下雨。。好讨厌下雨。。因为会很冷。。地上湿湿的，好不喜欢。。。

今天，星期六，没雨。。和 Ziwen 一起吃过早餐后，去银行处理一些时候，回家。。过后，觉得天气不错，决定和婷一起去新街口逛街。。好久没有单独和婷出门了。。好怀念。。钩着婷的手，边走边看，有说有笑，感觉好好。。
后来，和婷一起到兰韵去吃晚餐。。感觉那个地方好romantic.. 婷说情人节都过了。。我回她说就当作Belated 情人节吧。。哈哈。。

这次更加了解婷，她最喜欢的食物，水，颜色等等。。因为三年多的好朋友，真的不了解她。。她的喜爱。。因为她总会说，你拿主意。。随便。。还好。。 ok。。可以。。一直认为她喜欢紫色，原来不是。。现在。。试着慢慢多认识她吧。。因为觉得自己有够失败的，自己好朋友喜爱的都不知道的。。除了她，还有中学好朋友，理工学院好朋友，和中医好朋友等，Religion朋友。。真的不知道他们的喜爱。。也许以前比较在乎云的一切，渐渐的也不去管别人的事，也没多想要去知道其他朋友的喜爱。。慢慢疏忽了他们。。虽然我们还是好朋友。。

This time after I came back from China, I felt alot of Loved by my dearest friends.. you know who you are.. Thank you very much...

婷，谢谢你陪我度过这一天，从那时很渴望的这一天。。 ["^U^"]

开心。。

busy recently... back nanjing liao..

2009-02-25T21:02:00.009+08:00

20/02/09

Day 34 cant remember wat i do..

21/02/09 Day 35

went to Jurong Point with mummy to settle her bank thing..then went to pizza hut to have our lunch.. she said that wanna even though dont have alot money, she able to treat me with this pizza lunch... Thanks mummy.. went collect my hp again... sian half.. still the same problem... met up with weiyao.. went to deli vege eat... i know why he wanna asked me if i am free on that day, actually i knew that that day is his bday.. brought a pen for him, and treated him dinner.. bec he had been spending his time on me for the past few days, and i really dont wanna owned him thing... then he brought me to labordo park.. my first time going there.. we just chat chat only..

22/02/09 Day 36

Thanks giving teacher Day..谢师宴.. saw Diao Lao Shi.. very happy.. but din dare to greet her.. din see her for the past 8 months..very grateful to her.. bec of her, i really like zhen jiu, and from her practical, i learnt alot.. but also very scare of her too.. actually wana wrote a thank you card for her.. but too bad.. i dont have time to do so... next time when i back from china then do her the thankyou card ba... Wana thanks those TCM friends, and especially ailun..she gave me a hug, cos she wanna me take care in china..i know they are worrying for me.. thanks tcm friends...

23/02/09 Day 37

went to service my hp again... rode bike there, on the way to orchard, raining so heavily..hai.. all wet... abt 30 min later, got back the phone.. luckily the hp still ok.. no more rebooting.. wat the.. 5 times of going down to the center.. so pissed off by then..

then went to ps at 4pm.. wait for Jufang Senior at 6pm.. bec my shirt so wet, had to buy a new one.. thanks him for buying for me..but actually me wanna buy myself..

Senior so gd.. she actually give me some advice on my future tcm road... is a secret.. haha.. thanks jufang senior.. and thanks her for the drink treat..

then 8pm plus meet up with Tingting.. my dearest niece.. very very long time no see her, abt 2 years? or more... this year is her 21 bday.. really dont know wat to get her.. she kept said nvm.. then i asked her wanna seat on my bike.. drove her to east coast park.. we chat chat.. chat abt her feeling with a guy...just happen that the next day is the guy bday.. she wanna go his hous blk to give her.. then later rode back to her hse... after took the gifts, immediately went to his house blk at bukit batok.. after that send tingting home.. she told me she no need any present, and she really enjoyed the riding.. cos also was her first time... she said that was enough.. is her bday present liao.. hai... Thanks ting ting for my bday gift.. i appreaciated... I love you gal...

24/02/09 Day 38

went to deli vege again.. but this time is with miss goh.. cos she wanna treat me before i left... Thanks miss goh for the pen gift, chocolate... enjoyed the time with her...

went back home packed my stuff.. then dinner time, went to mummy stall for my poly gathering steam boat.. thanks guys...

25/02/09 Day 1 Nanjing

feeling a bit sad.. bec when mummy send me to airport, her tears flowing out.. me saw that.. also sad, but i know i cant cry out infront of her... but when im in the plane, i still cry out.. will miss her alot..

Thanks watermelon.. he purposely took a cab to aiport to send me off, and also to pass me a card which my jue de de shu do one.. they sent me their best wishes.. i am touched.. thanks my fellow QSN, and Ban Yuan..

reached nanjing.. very very cold.. perhaps not used to the temperature, the cold cold weather.. hai..

"谢谢你。。" ["^U^"]

ting cooked 汤圆。。 going to eat liao.. Thanks ting..

Tiring Days...

2009-02-20T00:57:00.005+08:00

18/02/09 Day 32

weiyao accompanied me to the nokia service center for my 4th times repair for my N85.. nvm, give them one more chance... then went to STUPID TY there to settle those TERMINATION thing.. actually wanna do that last year before i LEFT sg... but the MANAGER said cant... no choice had to wait till now then settle.. and WHAT THE... the staff said they tried to help me APPEAL for the TERMINATION.. but USUALLY WONT SUCCESS.. BUT THEY TRY THEIR BEST.. I had prepared for the worst, I will either close down my bank acc, or ask Jie to help me to take out all the money from my bank..

Anyway, they are cheaters... I know i so stupid to join last year... but really, who knows i will be going to china.. all so last min...if i knew i will be going to china study, will i be so foolish to sign up the TY.. and somemore, i din attend any of the course yet and still deduct my giro for 4 months.. WHAT THE ... Argz...

the whole day just to print out my china studying document.. went to niece house, went to wen house to take my letter, my document.. then went back to the STUPID TY.. just to give them all my document to prove that i not in sg for the past 3 months.. and wanna them to stop deduct money from my bank..

even though the staff asked me to send them through email, or fax to them, and they will help me settle the termination.. BS... i really dont believe in them anymore.. no choice, went around to find those document, then went back to pass to them directly.. if email can settle, i wont be doing all this liao...cos at china during nOV, i had been email to the manager to settle this... but.. see...

more sian half compared to my nokia hp repair.. more tiring.. HATE TY... LIERS, CHEATERS... anyway thanks weiyao for accompanied the whole day..

19/02/09 Day 33

11am woke up, then weiyao fetched me again at around 11.40am.. went to outram there to get my TCM license.. Finally got it.. went to Tiong bahru market to have our breadfast.. met Jie at the TB shopping center until Jiefu came..

accompanied him to do his bike service... sadded.. no Honda sport bike.. only yamaha one... prefer honda bike..

then went to slim lim square there.. to look for music keyboard that can plug to computer.. cos really have the urge to buy, and bring it over to china.. cos china music keyboard damn expensive then in here... finally found it... price about $180..some sell $200 plus... hai.. still need to consider.. if buying will use all my cny anbao money to buy.. see how ba...

anyway thanks weiyao again.. after that, he went home, while i met up with huiwen, shiyun, xiuting, zhengnong, zhengbiao, and yeeting di for dinner at bugis, YUAN XIANG VEGetarian Stall... after had the dinner, they actually planned to watch movie... but no nice show.. in the end, we walked to SIngapore River, merlion there... sat on the staircase and talked talked... how relaxing... to me, they are like my younger slibings, cos Im the oldest among them, they only age 18, 19, 21 plus only..and is nice to meet up with them, chat with them, and know how have they been recently.. especially yeeting Di... (opps...he actually reminded me of something which i haven do before i left sg.. i haven go and visit his mummy.. cos that time Fu tz asked me to go and look for her... ) ..... and we took the last train home..

6 days more to go back Nanjing... hai....

Am i not fated to have N85? Sobsob...

2009-02-18T01:02:00.004+08:00

16/02/09 Day 30

went to nokia service center at wheel lock again... again, they reinstalled the software.. this time need not wait for 4 working days, just had to wait for 30 min to 45 min to get back the phone.. I thought the problem shd be solve liao..so went home... but then again same problem.. sometimes when there is a incoming call, the phone will auto restart.. i realised the problem had not solved.. so sian sian sian... i tried to use my house no. and call to see how many times it will auto restart.. My result i got : 17 times of calling, one auto restart, 4 times of calling, one auto restart, 54 times of calling, one auto restart, 7 times of calling,one auto restart and etc... signz....

17/02/09 Day 31

met up janus, mengna, huanying, pujue and wenjun at toa payoh... and i was so late, as i woke up at near 12 pm.. then rushed there.. thanks hy for the half slice of bread... haha that was my breadfast..

then went to the nokia center again... this time miss wong accompanied me.. after did some changes to my hp, i thought it shd be alright liao... the person said that if still happen again, they will do a high service repair for my hp..

but then, the problem still there... hai... anyway, wanna thanks miss wong for accompanying me, she asked if tml need to go with me, but i replied her no need.. cos i know she will be very busy this few days, dont wanna trouble her again..

tml will be going there again.. 4 times... really tired of this... give them one more chance.. if after doing the high service repair, and the same problem happens... i will give up.. i will sell it off... cos really wasting my time, my bike petrol, my coupons, my mrt transport money...
Tired Tired Tired... siansation..

I really like N85.. but it caused me so much problem.. hai.. sobsob...

My Graduation Day..

2009-02-16T00:20:00.013+08:00

12/02/09 Day 26 - 13/02/09 Day 27

Went swimming in the afternoon.. went home, online... Do nothing...

14/02/09 Day 28

Went Swimming.. I was sunburnt... wanna myself to be more darker...haha.. after, went to mummy stall to eat... and also ate durian.. is her V day gift from Uncle.. haha..

Went to nokia service center to get back my phone..cos send to repair the day before.. went to grandpa hse to visit him... when driving, Yao msg me... he wanna give me something.. I guessed was Vday gift... but I told him i was outside...

Around 11.30pm, he came to my house to wait for me.. He gave the the Gifts.. Actually I was touched, bec those gifts were made by him.. he made a chocolate with green tea, did a card for me with all he wanna said to me, and also the wrap the flowers himself.. this my first time to recieve so many flowers, 20 roses.. and bec of wanna made those gifts for me, he did not sleep the day before... and worst sill, he lost his hp bec of buying the chocolate ingre....

Really very sorry abt that... and I am very touched.. i told him i am touched, thanks alot.. he replied, he did not feel that im touched, bec he felt that i looked so cool... hm.. to me, i may look cool even i am touched.. really...

then later accompany him to East Coast Park... he rode there, and i sat as pillion... 3 am then reached home sleep... but again, wei yao.. thanks alot.. thanks for u effort... and ur everything.. I appreaciated...

15/02/09 Day 29 - Graduation Day

Finally graduated from Singapore College of TCM.. Very Glad that my 2 motivators came, first was my mummy, then next was my FAV teacher Miss Wong.. and of cos my Mei Fu and sis were there too... but really sad that my Di unable to come, bec i couldnt find extra more ticket more him.. sorry bro..

when I saw miss wong, I was damn ["^U^"].. and she gave me a tight hug... n congrats me.. the feeling was.. yeap, I graduated.. she gave me the strength, she gave me the jiayou... this reminded me during my O level, that day went back to sch to collect results, after knowing my science Got A1, which i thought i wont got Distinction for it..and when saw miss wong, i knew that she was very happy for me, she gave me a hug, and congrats me...of cos I wanna myself to be her top student, and so i would workhard.. but now, even though I did not do very well in my tcm, i wasnt the top... but whenever wanna give up, will think of her, my motivator, i will then try my best, and move on..

Felt very happy, cos finally.. 3 years of TCM stuying wasnt easy.. sometimes would want to give up especially first and sec year of TCM.. like wat miss wong said, she glad that I had persevered on to finish the whole course... Yeap... Thanks mummy for the financial support, and thanks mummy and Miss wong for the motivation support in this 3 years.. of cos this is not the ending, but also the starting of my next level.. still have this degree to go...

and this means that I will be going back to Nanjing liao... time flied fast.. Really dont feel like going back.. but... no matter wat, bec of them, i will jiayou.. carry on...

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Congrats to all my TCM FRIENDS.. We graduated.. and still not the ending.. Some start working, Some continue studying just like me, anyway, all the best to our future...

Jiayou.. ["^U^"]

My New Composed Song...

2009-02-11T18:21:00.003+08:00

11/02/09 Day 25
Uploaded my 8th Composed Song to imeem... but the sound.. seemed to be so.. argz.. background is so noisy.. using mp4 to record those songs, and it sound so alright when I played in the computer.. but now.. in the imeem, is not as gd as what i think... forget it.. in future, then use better equipment to record my songs again...

this 8th composed song is for a guy who I secretly admired him for 4 years... thus this song is called Secret... lyric haven done yet.. but once lyric finish, is time for me to close my heart on him.. ["^U^"]

some of my friends like this song, some like other songs.. asked me which is my fav song from all my composed songs.. haha... hm... all of my composed songs actually describe my feeling of hims and hers.. different feeling.. cannot compared.. thus all are my favs.. ["^u^"]

Tiring days...

2009-02-10T22:14:00.006+08:00

09/02/09 Day 23

9plus am, junior Ziwen called me.. she in singapore le... met her at abt 11 am at CCK.. saw her "BRO'..not "bro".. had my breadfast aka lunch at the food court... OMG.. So ex... had to wait at CCK. BO Bian.. who tell who was late... haha.. ya.. is she... wen jun... but bec she had a stomach pain... so met her later...

then we went to Sentosa in the afternoon... went to beach.. played, and took some pic... quite fun... actually i wan to swim, but in the end.. nope.. cos both gals dont wanna got wet...

Very tired after that.. we enjoyed well.. wenjun went home, me brought ziwen to my mummy stall to eat... wanton mee.. my fav... haha... she also felt that this was nice.. haha...

After our dinner, we went home..

10/02/09 Day 24

at abt 11am plus, went to wenjun's nearby market to have our breadfast... then later we sent off ziwen at chinese garden mrt... she only came to sg for a day plus.. and then went back to malaysia again.. anyway, hoped she will feel gd...

went home, watched tv, online... then at abt 5pm plus, went swimming.. cos really need to execrise le.. now 56 kg.. haha.. hai.. jiayou jiayou en....

Thanks my friends...SEC, POLY, RELIGION FRIENDS

2009-02-08T23:16:00.011+08:00

06/02/09 Day 20

sleeping... resting... Do nothing.. staying at home......

at night, went bian nian with mummy to 2nd uncle house, then later went to meifu house...

07/02/09 Day 21
My SURPRISED ADVANCE BDAY CELEBRATION!!!

went to Amy's house to bian nian... me, sherry, jacey, meifu sean reached there by 2 pm plus... then we played majiong... me and sherry tag team... the first round, we won, abt $1.60.. but in the end, me and sherry lost $1.60 each... and the winner goes to Jacey.. cos she pro.. she is already our gamble Queen... then later, Cy, Waileong, yizan, and guangtiong, juan came... in the end we played black jack... cos they wanna win back the money from cy... who tell cy won alot last year and this year..

at the end, i also dont know who won.. cos i left early... as i have another gathering with my poly.. and i was in hurried, as i need to use my mum car... but juan told me to wait a while till they finished their last round.. so i waited... to my suprised, they were celebrating me and sherry bday... i thought was only sherry one... so i din expect it...

I was so touched.. really very touched... they celebrated for my advance bday... and they brought a Baby G watch for me.. I really loved it alot... Thanks, my Secondary sch friends, and my forever sisters... Thanks for the gift and cake... that is my fav cake--Chocolate Cake... but i only had the first bite... paiseh, cos had to go by then...

went to Kor's house for CNY gathering... Kor, Dao Sao(Michelle), Justin, Apple, Jie (Irene), Jiefu(khenghow), yanhao, yanhao gf(adeline---abit look alike cheng hui ling)... and weiyao... they were so niced, prepared some vegetarian foods for me... then after i came out from the toliet, the house was dark.. and weiyao hold the cake with lighted candle in front of me... and apple, jie, yanhao, kept using their camera and took the pic.. I was so shocked.. i immediately covered my face... so paiseh.. so stunning.. i am not prepared, and that was my 2nd suprised.. so coincidentally.. how on earth happend to be my 2 advance celebration from my different group of friends... too stunning.. too shocking.. too surprised...

Thanks kor and Dasao for choosing the gift--adidas black cap... this is my 2nd Cap in my life... Thanks guys and gals for the gift and cake too... I again, also very very touched... actually thought of bringing my white cap (from my 3rd ex) when i back to china..cos summer very hot one... but now i will bring this black cap here.. hehe...

then later da sao left early, in the end we played black jack... when is my turn to be the banker, my first round, i won.. cos i got blackjack.. they all paid me double.. but later, mostof my money lost to Irene, and Apple when they were the banker... cos this little little mouse was surrounded by these 2 pigs... argz... but overall i only won $6.. haha.. one year one time... just only have the fun... playing only..

eh.. where is Da Sao Michelle? opps.. at apple's camera... and where is my dear dear apple?

[will upload again when i get pic from her]

(My dearest sec and poly friends, u know who you are... I am very fortunate to have you guys and gals as my very good and best friends... for this past few years, i am very touched by whatever u all have been planning and celebrating my Bday.. especially my 21st bday.. till now... in my heart, i really appreaciated alot... you all effort had shown.. and i am touched..

thought that I wont be happy bec my little bday gift - tiger has gone... but you guys, made me happy again.. Xie Xie Ni Men... Thanks again for the BDAY GIFTS - adidas CAP & Baby G Watch I love you, my friends....)

08/02/09 Day 22

8.15am ...wokeup late.. the jue de bus left... no choice, i had to ride my bike to tian guo.. Bec today is our Qing Shao Nian Tuan Bai.. finally back to Tian guo.. feeling good as like going back home... saw many of our brothers and sisters.. my first and only hug is from my jue de 班员.. i cant remember her name.. feeling sweet.. some of my 班员 asked my why go china, when i will be back.. haha... they are so cute...

saw 4th shenshen, then later saw my cousin shuhua, chatted with her for a while.. nice to see her too... from the conversation.. din know that she actually visit my blog and see my happening in china... thanks gal.. thanks for the concern...

watermelon, sam, miaoshi also asked me when i will be back to china.. thanks my religion friends.. sam also quite care and concern of me, my love relationship, and also if i have enough winter clothes not.. haha...

sent huiwen to peiwen's bf house... huiwen first time seat on bike.. can feel that she abit 紧张。。 haha.. but i think she enjoyed the trip.. haha...

after that, went to mum stall to have my lunch... ate my fav food.. wanton mee... then later went home sleep.. too tired...

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fat fat fat fat... sian... next week graduation day le.. hai.. tml need to diet le.. jiayou en...

(juan told me to put what are the things that i would want to have in my blog.. so that next time when they wanna buy me present, they can choose from it.. haha..LOL.... hm.. i will think of it.. hehe.. thanks gal...)

Nearly had an accident (05.02.09)

2009-02-06T15:52:00.003+08:00

03/02/09 Day 17

met up with miss goh at lakeside mrt at abt 11am, then together took mrt to Tao Payoh.. senior's junior was waiting for us too... cos we had our lunch at quality hotel, Lian Xin... then later senior's seniors also came... in the end, miss goh paid the bill... she treated us lunch...

04/02/09 Day 18

send senior to T3 with Miss Goh too.. abit miss her... her purpose of coming to SG, was not for holiday... but was to CHENG QUAN her HXs... wow.. at least she had done her Misson...

When i was driving home, chat with Miss Goh alot too... when she and mrs Tan EK talked about NA students, they will think of My batch... haha.. cos they felt that nowadays NA students did not perform as well as my batch... thus Mrs Tan EK always remembered us...

but now, most of my teachers left JYSS, left a few only, less than 5.. if oneday, all my teachers left, i think i wont be back to JYSS anymore... signs... this year teachers' days cant go back school visit them.. hai...

05/02/09 Day 19

Afternoon，abt 2.30pm, I was on my way to 云's House at Tampinese... I rode my bike on the PIE, heading east side... I saw the infront cars was slowing down, but I was riding fast on the first lane, when I started to react, I know it was late... I had brake so hard, and the bike start to wobble.. I was going to hit the taxi which was in front of me.. I knew that I wont be able to stop in time, as a result, I immediately moved to 2nd Lane, and yet I din look behind me on my left side when i change lane.. somemore i was so near to the taxi on my right... my heart beat was fast.. hai...

signed... even though I avoided this accident, I knew something will happen later... cos I had a bad feeling after that..
After had KTV at Pasir Ris with Yun, accompanied her to her religion meeting.. it was about 10 pm, then felt abit hungry, brought her to circuit road market to have our dinner... i then turned into a side road carpark, but bec i thought of parking it at the side of the market, in the end, i wanna made a U turn on my right.. but bec i wasnt concentrate on where to park, as a result, i din manage to control well, my bike fall from my right...

My first concern... Yun ok or not... was she hurt? I was not injured at all, but she... her left leg had a minor injury... OMG... ARGz... I was so guilty of it... I rather myself to get hurt than to her... Even though she is ok.. and told me that actually she had a feeling that something will happen, and perhaps this happened was to teach me a lesson..
I din ride fast, my right U turn was slow.. just that I din concentrate well enough to handle it...

During my poly 2nd year, when a group of my poly friend were cycling near kallang, also bec of me, Yun fall from the bicycle... That time, I was so angry of myself and so gulity, in the end, when meeting up with them again at night in a pub, I start Drinking alchocolic Drinks... That was my first time when I was sad, i will start to drink...

I told Yun, this time I wont... perhaps there are always a reason of why things happens... wanna let me learn more and be stronger... I promised her I will ride or drive safetly in future... bec she also said that, if in future, anything happen to me, she wont forgive me...
Yun, very sorry about it...

最不想伤害你，而却被我伤害的人。。是我的不小心，是我的疏忽。。。对不起，云。。

Busy days...

2009-02-03T00:17:00.023+08:00

30/01/09 Day 13

accompany senior to Zhong Hua Yi Yuan to find her friend... then brought her to Chinatown.. saw yuxian there too... brought some medicines... after sent senior back.. rode bike to Yun house... finally saw her.. wait for so long... miss her alot alot alot.... we went to her nearby house park.. sat on the bench and chat chat...

Took alot pic with her... hehe.. long time din take photo with her le... wanna accompanied her, wanna her to accompany me long long long... time flied so fast... hai...

miss her again....

31/01/09 Day 14

Went to Liqing's house for my tcm gathering... wanna thanks her alot.. she sponosed all those food and drinks... very nice to meet up with them.. thanks liqing again....

evening went to Tian hui, got i need to play Gong Xi Gong Xi on the keyboard for our JUE DE Gathering event... then having steamboat with all TZ, all QSN friends... miss them alot too...

01/02/09 Day 15

went to hualing house... with amy, huijuan, chengyou, waileong and steven... they played pool there.. wow.. hualing is already 2 children mother... then went to my mum stall for awhile to let my friend bai nian to my mother... then brought them to my house.. cos cy and steven din come to my house b4.. then later sherry, jiaxi and sean joined us.. and we together went to miss goh house.. i also brought senior to miss goh house to let them know each other.. bec they are from the same group.. Fa Yi Chong De...

After sending senior back home, went to Juan house.. cos this year we wanna revenge back.. played the 21....cos last year steven and chengyou won alot... wanna thanks miss wong for the GD LUCK she sms me.. after receiving her wishes... in the end, i won $16... but juan,sherry lost about $20... jiaxi lost $14, Sean lost $2.. and waileong lost abt $40... and steven, chengyou won $30 each... last year they won $60 each... cos steven la.. so heng one... we all decided next year not to call steven out.. haha.. jk....

02/02/09 Day 16

Went sentosa with Senior.. brought her to those scenery place... hope she enjoyed.. then brought her to Fa Yi Chong De temple... is nice, and quite honoured to have the chance to view their temple... even though quite different from our Bao Guan Jian De.. Tian Hui and Tian Guo, Tian Jue... thanks to senior.... haha...

my recent days...

2009-01-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

27/01/09 Day 10
Stay at home.. played keyboard...

He.. asked me if i am free the next day, cos he has two tickets to flyer... I am shocked... i rejected him... recently seemed like my 桃花运 still there... at china is xun.... now in sg... is yao.... to me, everything happend too fast... we only met up during CNY' eve eve, with kor they alll.. and he is kor's friend... accompany him on sun to buy clothes only.. and tues, he asked me that... really shocked... cant accept yet... slowly ba.. takes time to know each other...

28/01/09 Day 11
went to Ah Gong, Xiao Yi Po, and San Gu house with Sis and Meifu... then later went to Meifu's friends house.. played majiong... Meifu guided me, cos i am not gd at it... in the end, i think i lost near $30 plus... sis won quite alot... then had a dinner at a nearby coffee shop, ate my cheesy spagatti, and chocolate mousse.... then went back again to his friend house... but then meifu took over me, cos i really not interested in the majiong, and they played with real money one... so i used their eletric keyboard and played my song... in the end, sis won $80 plus, and meifu lost $10 plus.. but actually meifu help me won $20 plus, if not is $30 plus.. since sis won more, she covered our loses... haha.. went home at around 1am....

29/01/00 Day 12
went to mummy stall to have my breadfast... then went to IMM to buy C905 hp... using $300 voucher.. in the end, paid $38 more for the N85.... actually wanna buy the sony C905 one.. but too big, too heavy... and nokia phone more easy to use... and my niece just bought the C905, after trying it out, wasnt as gd as what i think...

went back to mum stall again, accompanied her and uncle to a funeral, cos they ordered food from my mummy... then after they ate finished, went home, took a bath, and mummy and me went to T1, bec my senior, QiaoYun Jie, know her in nanjing uni... she first time come to sg... she saw me, the first thing is.... wow, u seemed to be a bit fat le... round face...

hehe..Yeap, i know, eversince came back, just within a week, my weight increased 2kg... total increased 3 kg le....

then we went to marine parade there, fusion vegetarian to had our dinner... ate spagetti again.. then 10 plus pm came back.. now mummy and senior chatting and chatting in my room.. hehe...

Sleeping day...

2009-01-26T21:33:00.002+08:00

26/01/09-Day 9
7 am plus sleep.... and 12.30pm woke... after bathe... accompany my uncle to my tcm friend, Yuxian house, cos she ordered buffet from my mummy... haha.. she represent her family gave me an bao... i din bring any oranges.. so paiseh...

then later went home, online for a while, then watch tv.. long time din watch the movie channel.. Ch 62... watched till sleep.. then again sleep from 4pm plus till 8pm plus... woke up again.. went jogging... preferred jogging in short and t-shirt... 30 min jog.. feeling gd....

Really fat le, weight increase 2 kg since I back to Sg.. just within 8 days, increase alot... compared to sis wedding time, total increase of 3 kg... to me is alot sia... even though my ywlk(w) said that i am not fat... but... i know recently i have been putting on weight.. rounder face sia... sobsob... 20 days more to Graduation Day... really hope to slim down more by then... Jiayou en....

not much mood to go family house to bai nian... performance coming soon... going to practice the song le... if not... hai....

Happy Chinese New Year...

2009-01-26T04:33:00.006+08:00

25/01/09 - Day 8
woke up at 10am, then later...played my keyboard, and recored my songs...

1.30pm, weiyao came to my house blk to wait for me.. Cos the day before, he asked me to accompany him to buy shoes... I agreed since I dont have anything to do... when saw him, he passed me a bottle of Liang Cha.. which is Ma Ti Shui... OMG... I dont drink Ma Ti water one, cos i dont like... but bec he specially bought for me one, so i also very paiseh to reject him... in the end i still drank it.. still ok with that.. but anyway, thanks weiyao...

Again, he is the rider, and I am the pillon.. we went to marina square.. he brought a long sleeve shirt and a gift for Kor.. then went to city link to buy his shoes... then went to a cafe.. he treat me a cup of mokca, and a slice of orea cheese cake.. wanna return him the money, but he dont accept.. next time then treat him back ba...

Anyway thanks weiyao again.. for all these...

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Day 8 & Day 9
start praying at abt 9.15pm... this year, jie and jiefu came... and of cos every year, Lifen and Duquan will come my house to pray, and 守夜。。。 after those praying things finished, we had our lao Yu Sheng...

After that Duquan accompany me sending Jie and Jiefu back home... later Duquan, lifen and me went to my nearby petrol station, bec he wanna send his car for washing.. and we chatted alot.. and also about lifen love relationship.. as duquan and me also quite excited to hear from her, and her things... she is my long long friend, since pri, and once same class in sec before.. she was quite busy since working... only met her once a year or twice, cos she will come my house every year this time.. once a year.. haha.. is a one year one time Dao Qing.. same as Duquan too.. haha... but I am happy as i still have these two Hou Xue, can say quite sincere.. still remember LM, and remember temple..

Thanks, Lifen, Duquan, Jie and Jiefu for coming.. at least I still have you all as my Hou Xue.. I am really glad and happy...

7.03am, they are sleeping now... mummy woke up le, going to work later.. I am going to sleep in half an hour time... Gd Nite...

Anyway, friends....Happy Chinese New Year...

shopping...

2009-01-24T23:00:00.003+08:00

23/01/09 Day-6
Woke up early in the morning, around 8 plus am again.. online,surf for some websites.. looking, findig the Graduation Friends Forever Music Sheet.. Cos really wanna learn and play that song.. meanwhile played my keyboard the whole morning.. at abt 2 plus, rode my bike to sis house, cos we were going to bugis to buy for CNY Clothes...

Really dont really like to shop for this.. so tiring.. and CNY.. Hai.. no mood... when growing older and older, dont really like CNY.. dont have the feeling at all.. cos to me, is just an another day... bo bian... still shop with sis... This year clothings were not as gd as last year.. I really dont like this year clothes design.. but still, bought it... cos watever sis buying, just count me in...

Actually planned to meet apple.. but bec our shopping havent end, so in the end i cancel the meeting with her.. really very sadded... cos hope to see her.. but... hai...

24/01/09 Day-7
Today went bugis again... but this time with my Kor, Jie, Jiefu, WeiYao and Yanhao...
feeling quite gd to be with them.. after the shopping, we went to a place, seat down, and chatted... we were waiting for yanhao's gf to come.. cos haven seen how his gf look like... hm... finally came... looked abit like Cheng Hui Ling, kelly... nice to know her....

weiyao is kor and yanhao sec friend... knew him when we were in the cycling club in poly...Then later he send me to my aunts vegetarian stall at pasir panjang...Wu Jia You Bao, cos we are having dinner there... my family gathering... weiyao was riding his scooter.. cool scooter... enjoyed as a pillon... he rode abit fast sometimes.. but quite stable... he is the 3rd guy who i seat as a pillon.. first is my bro.. then is Iman.. haha..

Thanks weiyao again.. paiseh cos wasting his petrol..

as a rider and a pillon feeling is totally different... but i feel that i prefer myself as a pillon..

wondering in future, will i have the chance to sit as a pillon while He as the rider???

Then after dinner, mummy, sis, meifu and me went to Kallang CC, cos my bro having his singing performance there.. is like a ming ge can ting... ordered drinkings, and enjoyed their singing.. is a gd place for us to gather with friends, chat chat and also hear gd singing...

Tiring day again...

["^U^"]

2009-01-22T23:22:00.006+08:00

Day-5

Woke up very early, around 8am plus, online..surf facebook, wrote on Ting's Wall.. Wanna wishes TIng Happy Birthday...

then later online, doing blog stuff, and also played my keyboard..

1.30pm plus, went to sch, passed the medicine to senior, which i brought it all the way from china, as i bought it before i left Nanjing..

I rode my bike there.. Sian half.. how come my bike become like that.. i knew the engine got some problem.. hai.. suan le.. next time when i start working, then i will buy a sport bike... worst still, my helmet, hai.. dont know wat to say.. anyway bro say will buy me new one.. hopefully ar...

5.30pm... met up with ywlk(w).. she drove there..had a dinner with her at Deli Vege.. chinatown.. She ate Baked Rice, and I ate TomYam Fried Rice (I feel that mummy one better, hehe).. We chatted alot, laughed alot.. I really enjoyed every moment with her.. she made my day... ["^U^"] Thanks, miss wong...

She said this.. "to know the future is to create it"... hm... yeap.. perhaps i still dont know wat i want, or i still dont really understand myself... if I able to know myself more, know wat i want.. then i able to create it for my future... give me times...

now from sick to sore throat.. hai... Tired.. Going sleep soon... nite...

Boring Day...

2009-01-21T18:36:00.002+08:00

20/01/09 - Day 3
Slept til 12.45pm then woke up.. too tired le.. the dinner was canceled, cos many of my tcm friends couldnt make it.. hai.. no surprised... nvm... next time... then went to mum stall at around 4pm plus.. ate my fav food... Wantan Mee.. I still love my mummy wantan mee.. different from other stall.. cos feeling sick.. monday din ate anything much.. but i still manage to eat finish my wantan mee, as i gave my mummy half of it.. cant finish all.. ate half curry puff too.. not that i dont like to eat, just that no appetite...

wanna ride my bike around.. but bro using.. sian half.. next time ba...
["^U^"]

21/01/09 - Day 4
stay at home, surfing net... dont wish to go out.. moodless...

going to ride bike again, but again, bro need to use it to go sch... co he has appointment.. hai.. lend him again.. no bike again.. sobsob...

Cannot watch tv, the player spoiled.. hai.. so boring.. going to play piano.. and keyboard.. ["^U^"]

Back home le... Finally...

2009-01-19T20:18:00.008+08:00

18/01/09 - Day 1
So sian half at the nanjing airport, bec my gift for my 二姨丈, a lighter, 整人的。。 being confiscate by the custom... but luckily met a SQ staff.. he will keep for me, when i back to nanjing, he will return to me... bec i forgot to put that in my lagguage... as a result, which is in my hand carry bag...

Chat with ting half of the time in the plane.. Yeap, finally can communicate well... I missed our chat.. Yeap, we are doing gd... Thanks ting...

when reach T3 airport, so hot, my whole body, face, and especially hands, very very red.. too use in the zero Deg C plus minus enviroment.. met my sis and mei fu.. then come my mummy, bro, and Chao Tian Shu Shu (my future sponsore) haha.. maybe need his help, maybe not...

Then we went to Lao Di Fang and have our dinner there.. I missed the carrot cake... i missed the fish ball.. and prawn.. haha all vegetarian..

On the way back home, bro gave me see tiger pic and video which he is still alive... went i saw video of Tiger, 10 min ago before he passed away... His eyes so big.. he seems like so pain.. I again, cant control my emotional, cry out... eyes very pain, and yet tears keep flowing out... Tiger.. Tiger... Tiger...

19/01/09 - Day 2
In the morning, sis, meifu, bro and me went to the whithely road, animal hospital... 10am, is the schedule for tiger body to be burn... i saw his body, i finally so Tiger... but now, he cant play with me, he cant saiyang me... I saiyang him from his head to his body, and to his tail... hands, and legs... every part of him, i used my hand and go over it, saiyang him for the last chance... again, still bursting out my tears... chat with him, telling him if got chance become man, must do well, must do gd deed, must be enlightenment one day too.. Tiger is our vegetarian cat, so kind hearted, at least his heart is pure... his body is pure..

3pm then collect his ashes... meanwhile, meifu send me to taopayoh and meet my TCM friends... miss them alot..first met jianming, mengna, you ying, suxing, then later come the rest of them... like huanying, zhiling, yuxian, wensen, daniel, xiaozhi ( Thanks XZ, thanks for u concern, only now then see it...), then basheng, liqing, zhongshang... and some more, cant remember... i gave them a hug, and i recieve everyone blessing... have lunch with some of them, as most of them having practical at AMK and other places...

then meifu come back and send us to the clinc again, to take the ashes... bones already 碎掉。。 Cos the uncle use hard object and hit the bones into pieces... hai.. actually wanna see my tiger got She li zhi not, cos taiwan dog, 7 years of veg and xiuxing in the temple, got 7 she li zhi... sian half, when i see those bones, instead like powder form... but his bond is white, very clean... i am sure he will be doing well in future, and future life.. I Miss Tiger... ARGZ... (going back home is like very kong... cos tiger not around... no more meow meow, no more play play, no more saiyang..)

Then went back to Taopayoh again, meet up with ting and we go see zheng yuan zhang... chat for quite long...

meanwhile, feel very very cold.. cos going sick le... whole bodyaches... since morning till now.. going sleep soon in 30 min time... Going meet Tcm friends again tml nite for dinner... and a suprise for.... haha... wait and c...

friends, me back le, sms your no. to my 81610XXX... ok.. take care.. cya soon...

第一次的醉酒。。永生难忘。。。

2009-01-14T23:31:00.007+08:00

隔天，我问婷，那天我是怎样被发现我喝醉了。。因为我记得最后一次我还是清醒时，我是和妈妈Msn Video Call的。。我知道我快要不行了，但一直勉强的撑下去，对这Laptop的银幕，哭着很伤心，看着妈咪。。但后来头还是掉在键盘上，没力在台起头，就过后不记得了。。直到四点多早上才醒来，又吐。。当中，在醉的时候，直到YuYing一直叫我，跟我说话。。这就是我记得的。。。

但，当婷和我说后。。我吓倒，也觉得有点搞笑，也觉得有点恶心，内疚。。为何。。
婷说。。。她回来后，进来房间看我有没有事，但，我是很激动的和家人VideoCall.. 那时的她，不知道我已经喝了酒。。她以为我哭了后，就没事，所以也没有太大的担心我。。婷在客厅和HJ在吃，看电视。。后来，婷觉得不奇怪，房间里的我没有任何的声音了，以为我睡着了。。但突然我开了房间的门，走到客厅去。。她们觉得我走路的样子不对劲，像喝醉的。。

我告诉他们我要去厕所。。婷说我看起来好像要玩刀，还是什么之类。。不清楚，看其来很吓人。。后来走也走不了，HJ扶着我，婷进房间才发现我床旁的小桌子上有一瓶酒。。婷也很快的敲Yuying的门，但，其实Yuying正在睡觉。。后来，她们一起把我扶回去，因为喝醉的人，体重增加。。比平时的重很多。。回来房间后，我还会和妈咪说，我累了，要睡觉了。。我也这样和她们说。。妈咪也叫她们好好照顾我。。婷关了电脑，放在一边。。

过后，我躺在床上后，她们离开房间。。不到一下，发现我吐到我的枕头，床，等。。在我快要跌下床，婷用我的被，扶着我，让我慢慢下去，以免我受伤。。我也不懂怎么样，躺在地上，不肯起来。。Yuying一直叫我起来，睡在床，但我一直跟她说我已经睡在床。。

Yuying要跟我换衣服，但我说不要，我会Paiseh。。就这样，没办法，拖了一个钟头后，她又在问我。。问我要不要换上衣，但我说我没穿。。。嗯。。她又在说那要不要换下面的库。。我说不要，我已经冲凉了。。。也许我对这个很Paiseh，我的潜意识还是比较清楚的。。

但是最终还是Yuying帮我换了。。只有她。。我被她看光了。。真是的。真Paiseh啊。。

若婷，Yuying 没有告诉我，我真的不知道。。也难怪，我隔天这里痛，那里痛。。尤其头部。。和肋骨那而。。

真的谢谢她们。。尤其是婷，她因为我破财，打电话给我的妈妈。。她不要我还给她，要我内疚一辈子。。嗐。。。

但我以后不会在这样。。真是不好的经验。。酒是不能解决问题的，反而让我跟难受。。带给我朋友麻烦。。家人，朋友们的担心。。真不好意思。。对不起。。。

难忘的醉酒的我。。

miss Tiger。。。

宝贝离开了我..

2009-01-10T09:17:00.013+08:00

昨天, 6.52am,接到弟弟的短信.. (Which vet u bring tiger go last time?)

但是我只有在8am plus的时候看见手机的信息..我马上打给弟,他没接..我在打给妈妈问宝贝发生什么事.. 其实, 前几天宝贝就已经病了, 很少吃又很少喝水.. 前两天它咳嗽..昨天它又瞄瞄叫,又不吃.. 自从我离开新加坡，到南京后，它整整瘦了1kg..从3.6kg瘦到2.5kg...

我马上打给妹妹，叫她一定要带Tiger去看医生。。。那时我的心情很差，因为我想到WenWen,它被人毒死的。。那时我才中四。。爸爸带我和妹妹,wenwen,去看兽医。。医生说太迟了，结果它留院观察的隔天就走了。。我有预感，感觉好强好强，我怕我的宝贝Tiger会是这样里开我。。所以我不管怎样，都要妹妹马上带它去看医生。。结果，Tiger被诊断没有发烧，要住院观察。。医生也抽它的血，进行化验。。

8.26pm, 那时我正在跑步，跑了20min plus...结果，我看到是弟弟发给我的短信。。
(Jiejie... Tiger die le...)
我快要崩溃了，我哭了，好伤心，好难过。。我继续不停的跑，眼泪不停的流。。。我发短信告诉婷，我知道她担心我，但我真的无法控制我的悲伤。。我回家前，去了苏果，买了巧克力，也买了酒。。高粱酒，50%酒精。。。

我在冲凉前吃了一条巧克力，喝了一点酒，，但真的无法把我的难过放开，放下。。后来和家人Msn, Video Call..见到宝贝Tiger的尸体。。弟弟说医生告诉他宝贝病死的原因。。

起初，他们验Tiger的血后，它的血细胞里的某一种细胞的血，是黄色。。怀疑它的肝功能有问题。。但是最后察到是肝的问题，而是肾。。是由病毒感染。。最终，怀疑是那时，带Backie回来时，它把外面的细菌，病毒，传染给Tiger。。因为Tiger从小，眼都还未看清时，就在我的家了。。自从Backie来，Tiger的嘴巴，有点肿，因为它们打架。。结果，Tiger那时也不吃不喝，当我Camp后，马上带它看医生，它发烧了。。。

是我害死我的宝贝Tiger的，如果当初我拒绝妹妹，不把Backie带回来养，Tiger就不会有这个病毒。。。

真的好伤心，好难过。。。

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Tiger，你为什么不要等姐姐回来。。那时我飞之前，跟你讲过我会出国两年，但新年会回来，叫你等我不是吗。。你那天也很反常，不像正常的你，终于躺在我的胸前睡觉。。你之前都不会这样的，你不喜欢被抱的感觉。。但你那天听完我讲的话，看着我那种眼神，然后还会Saiyang我。。我知道你是听懂我的话的。。Tiger。。你是姐姐的生日礼物，因为你，我考Bike的那天，也是特意选那天的，17 March..

1 Years 10 Months，你带给我们家多少的欢乐。。你带给我多少的开心，陪伴我难过的时候。。还有毕业考，卫生部考试的时候，当我读到很显时，你都会跟我玩。。我追你的时候，你会跑到二楼那里，但你见到我跑去客厅的时候，你会下来追我。。 Tiger。。。

50 Days 没见到你，我有多么的想你。。你知道吗？就差九天而已，你为何不等我回来。。。我只能从VideoCall的Msn见到你。。不能摸你，不能SaiYang你，我只能用手指动着电脑的视频。。见到你的尸体，我真的崩溃了。。宝贝Tiger。。 Tiger。。 Tiger。。。

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我喝了3/4的酒。。我醉了。。昏昏迷迷的时候吐了。。枕头，电热毯，床单，被单，都有我吐过的痕迹。。四点多钟醒来，第一件事，就是吐。。吐在我的床旁边的地板。。我知道我的室友们帮我清理当我是昏昏的时候。。谢谢你们。。酒，好难喝。。这是我第一次喝那么浓度高的酒。。好不喜欢。。不会有下一次了，真的好狼狈。。好难受。。。

我不知道我会伤心难过多久，不会很快吧。。我真的。。不行了。。我无法开心，我无法快乐，但我会好好考完试，因为不要更对不起妈妈，Ywlk(w), 和自己。。加油恩。。

妈妈一整晚没睡，知道我喝了酒，对不起妈咪，让您担心了。。

心好痛.. 心好累..心好难过..心好伤..

突然之间的离开

没能见你抱抱你

非常伤心好难过

真的好想好想你

宝贝... Tiger...Tiger.. Tiger...

雪。。我好想你。。你知道吗。。

2009-01-06T23:31:00.005+08:00

11.05am, 当我正要准备要去冲凉时，我的手机响了。。

“打开窗外看一看。。”他说。。

“不是下雨吗”（在我刚睡醒的时候，婷告诉我--我这么想的）

“看一看阿”他又在说。。

我打开看了我房间的窗口。。我看到了。。。又是小雪泡。。再度见到雪。。

这几天一直下雨。。但今天除了下雨，还下了小雪。。

9pm, 还在下下雨。。毛毛雨。。但我还是坚持的去跑步。。我在跑步的前十分钟，我又见到小雪泡。。这是我人生第一次在雨中，小小雪泡中慢跑。过后的二十分钟就没有见到小雪泡了。。当寒冷的雨点，打在我脸上，感觉是冰冰的。。好凉爽。。好喜欢这种感觉。。

朋友也许会担心我会感冒，但，我还是会坚持的去跑步的。。因为我知道，当我一停，我就没有动力去继续了。。朋友，别担心。。若下大雨的话，我不会去跑步的。。我会照顾自己的。。谢谢关心。。

这三天，没读到书，下个星期三考试。。生物化学(BioChem)..之前有努力的在看书。。越读越显。。因为对我来说，是很难很难的。。因为全部都是华文。。Process, reaction, oxidation, reduction, hydroxyl，carbonate..等等，是多么的熟悉。。但是现在是羧基，羟基等的化学名词。。真的，看了，读了，好不顺眼。。有时读也读不懂。。自己也太笨了。。Hai。。我华文功底不是很好。。所以怎样读，我其实不是很明白它在说什么。。没办法，还是要死背。。明天又要开始努力了。。我会加油的。。暂时不会上网，写blog了，直到考完试(14/01/09)后。。。

加油。。嗯！加油。。正在考试的朋友！

今天，见到了雪。。很开心。。因为我又想起她了。。她。。最近还好吗？过得怎么样。。真的好想好想她。。。她知道吗？？？

今天是谢恩日。。

2009-01-04T23:41:00.006+08:00

今天我比以前还更早起身，自从课时结束后，我都是11am才起身。。但今天，我8.30am起床，洗脸刷牙,整理好。。做准备。。因为今天是谢恩日。。以往的这个时候，妈妈和我都会在早晨六点多起身，然后驾车载大姨和Nyssa一起到天国去谢恩。。到了天国，都会有很多很多的同修们一起拜拜。。如果没记错的话，去年的谢恩拜了7000plus叩首。。接近8000叩首。。

但是今天，我却独自在我的床上拜拜。。虽然一个人，但我知道我并不孤独。。因为在新加坡的天国佛堂的他们，也在拜拜。。也在谢恩。。我不知道要念什么，但我感谢LaoMu, 以及诸位仙佛们，让我们在这一年里(老鼠年)在新加坡过得平平安安，让我们的道务鸿长。。恳求明年，牛年, 道务更鸿长，国泰平安，世界和平。。但也和新加坡那里一样，谢恩以及恳求。。

8.45am开始进行拜拜，当我拜到500-600叩首时，我的脚开始发抖。。也许已经有两个多月没跪着拜拜了，又加上这几天跑步，腿好酸。结果大腿开始没有力，一直得抖。。没办法，我最后只好把双肘关节靠在我的床上。。双手不停的拜。。 9.35am, 我停了，拜了5000叩首，真的累了。。但决定去吃我的早餐后在继续。。10.00am, 我又坚持在拜多3000叩首，直到10.33am.. 然后继续烧早/午香。。。

真的好就没有跪着，好久没有拜拜。。真的受不了，尤其是腿。。抖抖抖。。但我很开心，我终于坚持拜完8000叩首了。。也不懂为何我这次拜得很慢，感觉好久，也许是一个人吧。。没有同修们的互勉互利吧。。但我始终完成了。。。谢谢LaoMu慈悲。。

拜完后。。我又睡觉去了，睡到12.30pm。。如果我不是在中国，现在这个时候我是在听课。。是林前人的课。。我最崇拜的人，我的偶像。。怀念前人的课。。。 hai.. 不知何时才会在见到林前人。。不知何时再能听到他所讲的课呢。。

加油，恩。。

1/1/2009

2009-01-02T00:21:00.005+08:00

今天1/1/2009，新的一年，新的一天，新的希望，新的开始。。（Frm Ziwen)

又来了不速之客。。这次，它更厉害。。来时让我不知不觉，真吓倒。。它又提早来，我真的不知所措。。有点郁闷。。但还好。。因为它没有让我觉得不安。。也没有带给我不方面。。只不过。。有点累。。。

接近11am, 我起身了，和婷聊了一下。。然后12pm多才去冲凉，因为真不想起身啊。。好显。。冲好后，自己煮炒饭，边吃边看电视。。从1pm看到3.30pm.. 有累了，去躺着。。结果，睡到七点才起。。原本5pm要开始读书的。。但是，睡着有破坏了我的读书的计划。。因为考试的前一天，我一整夜都没法入睡。。。严重的失眠。。真是的。。也因为那不速之客，也让我真的好累好累。。。

后来，Ziwen陪我去我家楼下的一间店吃晚餐。。我想吃完后去走1hour..因为想要减肥。。想要回国时瘦下来。。但走到wenjun家，等了她好久，我们又到了SHU GUO Supermarket 和蛋糕店，买了一些明天要吃的东西。。。就这样，我知道我没有办法走走一小时了。。所以我开始，慢跑。。最后，我慢跑了30分钟，而她们就在我身旁走着。。真的非常感激Ziwen和Wenjun 的陪伴。。 ["^U^"]

这种感觉，真不一样。。在新加坡时，我会穿着短裤，T-shirt就去我家的公园跑步。。但现在。。是在冬天，那么寒冷的天气，穿着一件长袖衣，一件Jacket，还有我妹妹的那件粉红色的类似羽绒服，穿着卫生裤，和Jean,就这样在路旁。。慢跑。。那时大约9pm了。。好久没跑步了。。这种感觉真好。。好舒服。。

希望待会儿能睡好。。。

也许我的朋友都觉得我有毛病啊。。干吗在冬天跑步。。嗯。。因为我的动力来自于他。。。去年的今天，也是一月份会见到他，所以我早在十月份就积极的减肥。。但这次，我是在一月一号才开始。。。。以前。。因为他，我开始游泳，和跑步。。因为他，我有动力的去运动。。如果不是因为他。。我才懒得运动啊。。不知道这次会减多少。。但我觉得慢慢来吧。。因为冬天，很容易饿，就会更想吃多，这样就容易胖。。我会照常吃我的早，午，晚餐，就只能靠运动来瘦下来吧。。不能吃巧克力，不能喝跑泡茶。。绝对不能。。恩。。要加油。。 ["^U^"] 这来临的一月尾，还是在二月份，会再次见到他。。真的好期待啊。。。["^U^"]

1.07am了。。晚安。。明天要努力读书了喔。。加油。。恩。。

A Year Ending... A New Year Coming...

2008-12-31T18:55:00.005+08:00

First of all, wanna wish all my friends, and my loved ones Happy New Year...

My Rat Year is coming to the end in less than a month...Times fly fast.. very very fast.. What had I done during year 2008? I seemed like riding a roller coaster... ups and downs... I had experienced the worst part of my whole life, especially my graduation exam, and friendship... forget about the friendship thing, as for my graduation exam, that is also my first time that i experienced it..

I was not prepared for the outcome, in my whole life, my exams were like quite easy to get through, cos whatever I studied, it will be tested.. and I always believed my god always will help me with that since sec till now... but this time round, it was different... Whatever I studied, or which I was very very gd at, it did not come out... or even I could say that this time round, my god did not support me at all... I was going to give up that time.. I cannot accept the fact that my god was not be there for me... I knew i could not think that way, but i was blaming here and there... But of course, I knew that was a 考验 for me.. I knew that there were always a reasons behind it.. I thanks GOd for her arrangement on me, for letting me to become more and more stronger person, more and more 放下，看开... and able to overcome all those Obstacles in my future...

Year 2008, I actually had achieved quite alot.. I got my Bike License during March, I also graduated from my TCM and also from my REN CAI CLASS, and also I got my TCM License...Wow, I did quite alot of things... I am so satisfied and proud of myself.. During Jan, I was thinking that will I be able to get all these Licenses, or even be able to graduate from my TCM and Ren Cai Ban? It wasn't easy for me.. all my TCM friends started to focus on the TCM Graduation Exam since the year beginning whereas I was busy learning my bike lesson, attending my Ren Cai Ban for every one or two times per week...

But I am very sad and regret to say that for this year 2008, I did not join any of my QSN activities.. I could not find time for my weekly Sun Tuition... I missed my QSN friends and those BXBY especially secondary Students... Hai..

Tommorow, the beginning of a new year... what i will be wishing, looking are hoping for are...hm.. my mummy will be staying healthy, and also for my Ahgong too.. hm.. hoping my sister and my 花小弟（妹夫）, Jiayou jiayou, 真的好想抱外甥。。hoping that my brother will be doing well in his UNI... hm... hoping that all my family will be healthy, 平安。。 and hoping all my fellow friends, achieve what they want, do what they want to be, and be happy always... hm... hoping my ywlk(Y) and most importantly, my ywlk(W) will be 幸福快乐。。 hehe...

Lastly for myself.. hoping that I will be more independent, more stronger person... Hoping that i will be doing well in my studies... hoping that I will be losing weight till 49kg.. cos recently fat alot..abt 3 kg... hai... No more chocolate, no more milk tea (bubble tea) from 01 Jan 09 onwards until I have reach my target.. hehe... hoping to get a digital camera for myself... see how... hehe..cos sometimes quite paiseh to use Ting's camera... but thanks to Ting, cos she always agree to lend me... hm... and also hoping for...what i am not hoping for but now i am hoping for...haha...

Good bye my loved 2008 which is in about less than 3hours time...

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Yesterday Yan TZ (also my tcm senior) came and looked for me.. She gave me box of Chocolate(but i think i will be giving to my friend le..cant eat chocolate le..hehe..), and a bag... Today she is going back to Singapore.. I think now she must has reached sg airport already... Thanks Tz for the gifts, care and concern of me... Really very happy for her, she stayed here for 2 months for the Practical, and now she backed home...

3 days ago heard from my mother that there are quite a numbers of my Deshu TZ concerning when I will be back.. alot of them and even my 大姨 also thought that I came back during Dec 28... rumours... haha.. nope....not dec 28... is jan 18.... Looking forward to be back home...

Thanks all my family, Tz and fellow friends, i know u all have been concerning of me over here.. I really very touched and appreciated.. Today just finished my last test... Left with one more exam paper to go... Jiayou En...

still left 18 days... Going home soon... Looking forward... ["^U^"]

我是海吗？

2008-12-30T00:14:00.004+08:00

我想你是海，冬天的大海。活得虽辛苦，却烦乱..
From LEE..

I like this.. Yeap, it described my feeling... but..

我想我是鱼，大海的小鱼。活得虽自由，却自在..
From Me..

Haha.. but this also described my feeling living in Nanjing now.. no more control from family, so much more freedom... but then must be independence.. and must be lively here.. when is play time, must play.. when need to study, must study hard... thats is me...

Thanks CHER.. LEE...

T.JIE Thank you very much!!!

2008-12-29T22:23:00.002+08:00

在我最需要的时候，T.Jie给了我一个Hug。。。这个Tightly Hug的感觉，让我的心里好感动，心里差一点要哭出来了。。我们没多说什么。。 T.Jie 给我的感觉像我的家人，认识好久的朋友，很亲切。。很舒服。。谢谢你。。JIE。。

地震！！！

2008-12-27T14:59:00.003+08:00

26/12/08
9.59am, 我的手机响了。。。我正在睡觉，还没醒，因为今天没课。。迷迷糊糊中，我听了电话。。
因为号码没显示名，也不知道是谁打过来的，我第一句话是“你是？”。。。

“我是那平安夜的小伙子。。”

“噢，老师。。你好。。”

“你听着。。你们马上离开你们的大楼。。听清楚没？会有地震。。”
我呆了。。不知道要怎样反映。。“啊，哦。。”

“你知道到什么是地震吗？，地震，地震。。你懂吗。。”

“我只道”但我不知道我要如何做。。我傻了。。那时的我还没睡醒，原本想也许老师在骗人。。但是又听到他说的很认真。。也开始相信他说的话。。。但是，我心里想，我又还没冲洗，又还没刷牙。。就算了。。就算真的地震，楼塌了，我还是会躺在我的床上。。不想逃。。
“地震将在30分钟发生。。快离开。。。 ”

这时，婷起来了，见到我愣住，不知所措时，她问“发生什么事”

“老师说30分钟后地震，要我们马上离开这里”

婷大笑。。 “骗人的”

老师和我正在通话中。。 “股市震，到1800点。。地震了”

“老师，真是的。。为何骗我们。。。”

“谁叫你们骗我在平安夜” 老师好记仇阿（哈哈）。。。

哈哈。。那天我真的没参与啊。。真是的。。但我知道老师也只是和我开玩笑的。。我也不介意。。放下电话后，我又去睡觉了。。。

11.15am, 我睡醒了。。我想着老师所说的地震的事。。

我跟婷这样说。。

“如果我是清醒的，如果我已冲好凉，刷好牙，我会听老师的话，离开这栋大厦。。。因为我相信他。。因为他是老师。。因为他是我的长辈。。也因为我相信朋友。。 ”

婷说她曾经遇过5/6级地震在台湾。。分享她的经历。。。但如果我真遇到这样的地震。。我真的不知道我会怎样的做。。如果天要我命，就拿去吧。。我不想被困，不想受苦。。不想留在这世上，因为这种阴影很大。。我知道我不能承受。。我宁愿马上得离去。。婷也是这么认为。。

哈哈。。在说，老师也真是的。。他也叫我不要相信他。。不要把他当成老师，把他当成医生。。哈哈。。我能理解。。因为他是神经。。。神经外科医生。。哈哈。。。

谢谢老师，给我那麽难忘的一天。。。哈哈。。。

老师谢谢你的西安的礼物。。陶（魔笛） A kind of instrument… I like it very much… Thanks Cher…

平安夜。。圣诞节。。。

2008-12-25T17:39:00.035+08:00

24/12/08- winter...Cold....

Went to 韩国小店----梦 for our dinner with Ting, Hui Jun, Jun, & Ziwen(Our junior)... We took cabs there.. before we ordered the food, we were busy taking pic using Ting's camera...after we ate finish, ting, ziwen and huijun went out to take a short walk.. only left me and Jun... so we just chat for a while... suddenly her tear came out... I was shocked.. but i also got the feeling of crying out...

Perhaps to me, this is my first time away from Home, away from my loved ones... is not that i not used to nanjing life, but i just feel so alone during this xmas... even though I have my friends here accompanying me.. but.. the feeling is different.. I was sad too..

When they came back, Jun was going to leave... she took cab home... @ around 11pm... We are not leaving, cos we wanna wait till 12am for xmas to come.. @ about 11.40pm, we ordered Drinks.... 酒。。

The only reason I will DRINK, is when I am quite down... sadded.. I know i shouldnt.. but.. Huijun helped me mixed both black and white one, cos this will be more easy to 醉.. The black one is only 5% alchocol, while the white one is abt 4% alchocol... I hope to be drunk, maybe not here... not now... I know I wont drunk, cos I am capable in drinking.. I think so.. cos I am well trained... haha..kidding...

I remembered the first time i start to DRINK is with my poly friends in a open pub.. I was so moodless, sadded that time, and i tried to drink abit each,like bloody hell, graveyard... cant remember... but i knew i drank the black beer more... the feeling was like the throat, stomach were burning.. but still ok for me..

But this time, I drank alot, this is my first time drank so much... 4 杯.. but i dont felt any burning.. just that wanna vomit.. cos ate too much during dinner and also drank a can of coke...too much gas in my stomach..felt that so full...

12 am.. is Merry Christmas.. We called Cher... at first Cher din ans the call.. thus they came up with an ideal to bluff Cher... so they kept callng Cher hp for several times, so that it seemed to be an ugent call.. then finally Cher answered..Ziwen told Cher that 3 of us Drunk.. asked him wat to do.. Cher asked Ziwen to call Markov for help.. haha.. or Jun.. but actually in the end, Ting or Huijun told CHer that we were just kidding... He actually was enjoying his Ktv with his friends @ Xu Zhou..

After that we continued chating.. drinking... But during that period of time, i was quiet.. thinking... feeling sad....so I composed a poem not poem... It says

平安夜里不平安
心里其实好想家
孤单的我好悲伤
难过度过圣诞节。。。

I sent this to Cher and Jun...

After my 2nd cup, i really cant take it anymore.. dont wanna take somemore.. cos really very full.. but bec HJ say something, cant remember.. is abt lier or bluff.. anyway this made me change my decision..So I took the 3rd cup over, and placed in front of me...

I rest for a while a drank it like drinking plain water... Before we left (at abt 1 am), we still left slightly more than half bottle of 青岛。。(3.5% Achocol)... Huijun wanna gives Ziwen drink.. then Ziwen drank 1/4 of it.. Ting was unhappy with it as she dont wanna Ziwen to drink anymore, so I took over and drank finished it..

I drank the most，四杯 (2-Mixed, 2-White).. Ting only 一杯(White)。。 Ziwen 三杯(White)。。 Huijun 两杯(Black)。。

Am I really Sad.. Am I really Down.. thats y i drank? Hm.. i think that is a mixture of both sad and happy... but i really felt so alone... I missed my family, and friends, loved ones... missed till very badly... another reason is bec of friendship.. hm... recently.. sian.. moodless...

Ting said that this is just a 过渡期。。 I hope so...

@ abt 1 am plus reach home... Cher replied: 内心的平安才是永远。@有朋友，不孤独。。

I smiled.. and went to sleep...

I never sleep well since a month ago.. always sleepless night, or hard to fall asleep.. but Yesterday, I slept well in this cold winter.. Sweet dreammn.. and Sleep Tight...

25/12/08 --- Quite COLD..

Had dinner with Ting, LiXun, Jun and PJ.. again.. red wine... but is free... very small cup...very happy and enjoyed tonite dinner...

Wanna Thanks Jun (my first xmas gift), QiaoYun Jie (my 2nd Xmas gift) and Lixun(my 3rd Xmas gift)

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Will I changed oneday?

One of my friends become more and more less 公德心。。。 another friend said that must 入乡随俗。。 haha... how come.. cos that time we were eating Pop Corn.. I dont know wat to do with the seeds, while we were walking on the streets.. then my friend say throw on the floor la.. since everyone also doing that... she said eversince she came here, 她越来越没有公德心。。。 haha.. another friend said.. 入乡随俗.. Haha.. I kept laughing.. they are so funny...

however, my 良心 told me that I still cant be like them, i kept the seeds, till i found the rubbish bin then threw it away..

I will be addicted to DRINK... I will learn to Smoke...I will be addicted to GAMBLE.. and I will become... 没有公德心 or 入乡随俗...

No Way.. I wont... I have my own 原则。。

I will Drink, but I wont be addicted to it.. I will learn how to play Nanjing Majiong, but I wont played with money... But I will not smoke, no matter wat, even is a 应酬 from...

道德 will always remind me in my heart, and as for 入乡随俗... hm... Depends.. like 应酬。。 but i will never go against my principal... hopefully... I will keep on reminding myself...

All lesson will end by this week... Still left one test (next wed) and one exam (14/1/09)... weekend need to start study hard le... ["^U^"]
Jiayou en...

Does he look like WeiXian?

2008-12-23T19:25:00.004+08:00

When I first saw him in our class, he reminds me of Weixian... He is our class chairman, he is very helpful.. He is a korean while xian is a singaporean... I feel that he and xian look alike... just that he has smaller eyes, longer hair, rounder face, & much more taller than xian...

Have you ever wonder there is another person who look alike with you in this another world???

I miss my twin sis... hoping that she will be doing well.. both in studying and in working area...

臭阿妹。。。姐姐好想你。。

He likes me...

2008-12-21T19:08:00.007+08:00

In China, the best way to look for a rent house is through agents.. but once everything done, eg.. those contract signed, the agent will not be bothered with the customer... watever we need help, or thing happen in this rent house, we shd find our house owner to settle, or we settle ourselves...

But our agent is different... he is very helpful to us, even our house owner warned us to be careful.. bec she told us that she din see so gd agents before... cos those agents will not be so helpful once they earned their commission...

He younger than me by age 1... same year as my bro... younger than my bro by 10 days... He... very care and concern of me... He... always worry of me... He... treat me quite gd... in the first place, my friends, ting and yuying they all already feel that he treat me so gd, bec he likes me... they told me, but i choose not to believe...

Actually, from my feeling and senses, I knew it.. but i choose to avoid... I just wan this feeling of me and him, in the of friendship to be continue...

When i lost my hp, he will come to my house to visit me.. when i sad, he will call me, he willing to spent his money on this hp bill... but i sometimes really very paiseh of that..

a few days ago, he QQ me.. but in the end we dont have thing to talk... as a result, he asked me a question..

He said... Jiajia, why are you so beautiful..
I smiled and replied... haha... I am not... since young till now, i just feel that i am normal me...
He said again... your inner heart (内在美).. You are too kind...

suddenly i thought of wat Jun told me, she said, that time when she and Pj at the agent stall, He... so happy to recieve my sms, and show to Jun... Hence, Jun alo feel that he likes me..

so I am playful, i asked him... will u woo me...
he replied... no... bec in china... must 门当户对。。
again he said.... If you are china person(中国人), i will woo u...
I then said... Yea, i am what.. I am chinese... haha...
he replied... no.. is if you are born in china...

To me, I feel that he is a gd guy, and thinks alot.. he know that even if we are together, it will be very tough.. we are from different background, different education and more... he is attracted by my kindness...for me.. i am attracted by his thinking， who will think for the sake of me...

I suddenly think of my previous ex.. a china guy, peng... peng is different from HIM.. cos peng always think of wat he wants, and just do.. like he woo me just bec he got gd feeling of me, but he din care or bother other thing.. such as are we fit to be together.. our education, our thinking... and alot.. watever his feeling now, he will want it, he dont care.. he is so impatient.. he dont like to wait.. that is wat i really dislike, cos he always think of himself.. not me..

(my sis dream of me and peng getting marry... haha.. i think my sis miss me too much)

but Him... totally different.. if he appeared before peng, I might consider him, and fall in love again.. even though i said that i wont be in a relationship who is younger than me..

Before i going to sleep.. i sent him a sms..

I said... li xun, thanks..able to know you as a friend who care and concern of me, think for the sake of me, i am really very happy.. I know, and i believe that you wont hurt me at all.. i believe that you are a gd bf, who really love your partner..and whoever gal be with you, will be having a gd happiness.. i am glad to know you as a friend who also think of my happiness..you will find a better, more kind hearted gal than me as ur gf.. gd nite..

He replied back.... pls la...I am ok.. pig... if i think we are suitable initially, i will have woo you already.. from the start i already wanna you to be my galfriend... but we are impossible..thus only can keep u in that pure relationship.. you are very kind.. i have been away from my hometown for so long, you are the only gal who i seen so kind hearted gal.. gals like you are going hard to find...see you like see myself in the past....

I really very appreaciate watever he did for me... but we both know that we are not suitable.. he give me the feeling of falling in love again.. really.. but... for now.. not yet.. he feels that i have been closing my heart so tightly that i really cannot believe in any relationship.. there is no eternal.. he really hopes that i can find a gd guy, who love me and give me happiness.. thanks li xun...

for me, i am happy with my life now.. maybe when the only guy in the future appear, able to change my thinking...

but for her... my promise.. i will remember... age 29... ["^U^"]

今天心情差。。。

2008-12-16T22:39:00.010+08:00

在南京生活已有61天。。。

自从十二月起，特别想念我的新加坡家，家人，老师们，朋友们。。拿起娟亲自作的书，仔细看了那些照片，看了他们的祝福(Miss Wong, Amy, Juan, Sherry, Richie, Chengyou, Boonhaw, Steven)，心理面很不好，很想念。。。告诉自己，要坚持。。再过33天就可以的回家了。。　这是我第一次在外国生活,好想好想妈咪,妹妹,妹夫,弟弟,Miss Wong,中学老师，中学朋友，理工学院朋友，中医朋友，佛堂朋友，佛堂活动。。青少年。。也好想念我的猫咪Tiger，我的摩托车。。 SobSOb。。。

在这里，过得还不错，有那么好的朋友（婷，宇英）那么疼我，那么照顾我。。当然少不了文君，我聊天，又关心我的好朋友。。还有我的中介，李训，他，小我一岁，他很关心我，当我难过时，他会来看我，会打个电话慰问我。。马克，我班上的新加坡同学--他也不错，也是很好的朋友，一直很照顾我们，关心我们，给我们一些家用的东西。。认识一些越南朋友，她们教我一些越南话，其中一位，送我豆奶粉。。但我没喝，还留到现在。。还有另外一位，借我，给我一些当时我需要用到的东东--毛线等。。。还有印尼朋友，借我他的电子琴在我很需要的时候。。。我也认识了一些台湾朋友。。 Tina。。。很高兴认识她。。要和她学一些算命的东东。。学姐们，黄荣，JuFang 学姐。。。表妹，都很疼我。。关心我。。谢谢你们。。。

还有。。刚刚最近认识了南医大的邱副。。他很高笑。。很高兴认识他。。谢谢他带我们到处走走。。带我们认识南京一些地方。。。明天(17/12/08)是他的生日，在此先祝他生日快乐。。昨天，因为赶着做一只姓名的笔给他，做为生日礼物，因为他在一点下午左右要离开南京。。到徐州去公干。。所以我在朋友家，跟她借了剪刀，毛线（她给我的），很快速的做这份礼物，花了我1.5钟头左右完成。。在一点之前，送给他。。但那时我才发现写错了他的性，应该是Li，但我做成LEE。。真Paiseh。。但还是送了。。等我回去新加坡，在做给他。。他说很久没收到生日礼物了，他会好好保护的。。我笑了。。但愿他会喜欢这份我小小心意的礼物。。、、

今早，天都还没亮，我被我的闹钟吵醒，然后发现南医大的邱副发给我一则短信，关于徐州坠床现场第一时间的报道。。真高笑，起初蛮担心他的安危的，但读到最尾的信息时，被酸了一下，他还很介意LEE的。。（Paiseh 啦），也觉得他没事就我就松了一口气。。。看完了，发了短信回给他，但花了45分钟的时间打的华文短信。。约七点，又睡觉了，因为早上没课。。真是的，忘了把闹钟关掉。。他真的很高笑。。但愿他工作平安，苦衷作乐。。。

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真影响我今天的心情。。好烦。。。闷。。。显。。。差。。。

What is pro·té·gé???

2008-12-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

pro·té·gé - a young person who receives help, guidance, training, and support from somebody who is older and has more experience or influence..

Haha... Thanks Miss Wong, I am your dear dear protege....["^U^"]

Feeling Bad and Feeling Gd...

2008-12-09T21:54:00.008+08:00

Tues, Sunny, Temp is abt 10.3 Degree C...

Yest night I was very very happy, but it turn up as disappointed and sad... Wasnt sleeping well.. 4am plus then fall asleep, and 8.30am woke up.. Wasn't feeling so gd... not like the previous day, Dammed feeling GOOD for the whole day... But today, no mood to do anything... Went to sch in the morning, but really feel so siansation...

During Lunch time came up with this...
诗非诗，见非见，喜非非喜，悲非非悲：
(想)见云儿却未见，(见)到云儿非真见，(不)如不见心不伤，(见)面还是梦里见!!!--->想见不见!!!

Planned to do 老年病学 test assignment, but really no mood.. Ting asked me if wanna join her and CHER to BookShop to buy books.. I was like.. Hm.. OK... Since I dont intend to do assignment, might as well go out and to see around...

CHER walked from my house to take bus, meanwhile, he will tell us those location place (whether the shop is gd or not, whether we shd buy thing from there or not & etc...), and we also passed by his school, Nanjing Uni (南京医科大学), and told us some story of his in this uni...

Later we took bus 13 to 山西路.. On the bus, Cher keeps introducing us about the place.. and he also asked what he had for our Lunch and Dinner.. I replied him saying that got aunt cook for us, cos we 包伙食.. (but of cos mine is vegetarian, different from Ting they all) and as for dinner... we cook Maggi Mee..Haha.. Then he said cannot, need to learn cooking...haha...Then after reaching, we went place seems to be a park(forgot the name of it), where a lot of elderly will be going there for execrise walking... Is a gd relaxing place... see below....

Then we went to this Big Book Stall Center... is like suntec city having bookfair every year during june holiday... but is like a shopping center with many different bookstall... is huge... alot... Ting bought a 西医诊断 books and a book introducing Nanjing place... Perhaps I will be going there again to buy books before I back to Sg...

Then we took bus back to 莫愁路.. On the bus we took pic of ourself (but the quality not gd, cos from 1.3 MP Handphone)... Haha... Below shows the Nanjing Bus Stop... surprised? really different from Sg Bus Stop...

Took a pic of Cher back after alighting the 莫愁路(Secretly one, hope he dont mind..), while we on the way to 朝天宫。。（Really thanks to Cher, he is like our tour guide...)

Finally reached 朝天宫, but we din enter into the place.. cos need to pay money, so we only walking outside of it, and seeing around... Is a gd place to come here.. Below shows a Statue of Kong Zi in the middle..

That is Cher Foot... (Hehe...)

Then Cher brought Ting and Me to our nearby market... Cher asked if we know how to do 泡菜？ of cos I dont know.. so he immediately replied to us saying that lets go buy the ingredients.. I was stunned... Cos was too fast, cant react.. Then we brought two Carrot (0.50 RMB), and a type of green vegetable, forgot the name, but is like yansui (0.80 RMB, CHer paid for us, cos i dont have the coins, very paiseh...), those that put on the soup one... We also bought a white vingear and 山椒. a type of chilli from supermarket.. but i dont know how much, cos Ting paid for that..

On the way home, Cher told us how to do this 泡菜。。 and we separated after that...

I was so frustrated cutting this carrot.. cos the knife was not sharp... Haha, quite 期待 how the taste of this 泡菜。。 cos i know that normal 泡菜 is using Cabbage one, but Cher said that he is not gd @ the Cabbage 泡菜 dish.. So we see how, tml will be tasting it.. haha..

Actually wanna thanks Teacher for all this.. cos spending his time on us.. and I also hope that CHer will be feeling good too.. cos he was also moody, not feeling well today, cum he keeps coughing... Hope he will recover soon...

["^U^"] I enjoyed myself today...feeling better after that, even though is only 3 hours of going around in nanjing, really make me feel so gd.. Thanks Ting for bringing me out, if not, I will be siansation, moodless the whole day... ["^U^"]

Jiayou en...

Finally got Her Reply...

2008-12-07T23:56:00.005+08:00

Very Very Happy too, Miss Yong(my sec maths teacher)finally replied me.. She wrote in my Facebook Wall, saying that:

Hi Jia Jia,

Yes, I have received your well wishes. Thank you so much! Have been incredibly busy at work the past few weeks...working almost till midnight. I'm glad it's over now. I'm now on holiday at Maldives. Enjoying myself and taking a break for the routines. Have also seen your sister's wedding photos. Goodness, you all look so pretty and grown up. I must be growing older?

Good to know that you are doing well and is in Nanjing now. Must be very cold and dreary there now. Do take care of yourself and keep warm. Persevere and push on...am confident that you will do well!

["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]

I replied her saying that..

My Dearest Miss Yong,
Haha.. You are not old, you are always my pretty, beautiful, young teacher... Maybe you dont know that during sec time, I am attracted by your look.. Cos you are really very beatiful to me.. Haha... I still keep the drawing of you @ my house(shoulder hair length one), got chance then give you... hehe... Me now pretty?.. Haha.. thanks... me still the same.. just normal me....

Yeap, Nanjing here very very extremely cold.. last time wish to go to winter country, but now, hate it... really very scare of this coldness.. dislike it... shiver all the time... especially during bathing... Thanks Miss Yong, I will Persevere on... You Taught me this persevere during my sec 3.. I always remember... Thanks for your care and concern of me, I will take gd care of myself..
I really miss you alot, really hope to meet you up in future... I really hope to date you out on 14/11/2010 in advance.. treat you lunch or what.. Can I? ["^U^"]
I stop here..Enjoy your holiday..

["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]

She is another teacher who change my life too.... She is also one of the teachers who I wanna composed for... but.. perhaps not now, the feeling still not there, hopefully I can compose song for her by 2010 during her Bday.. ["^U^"]

I wishes is that once I composed to 10 songs, i will burn it as CD, and give all my loved one, and friends... wanna share with them my music.. But i think i will only do this once I composed abt 15 songs...

Cos I still need to compose for my mum, my sis, my bro, miss yong, amy, juan, sherry, all my teachers in a song, n my secret admire... This is what i plan.. I am not pro in composing, cos i din learn those tech, but songs which i composed is truely from my heart, my feeling, for those who i have composed... I love composing.. different feeling, different ppl... Half way to go... This is my dream since age 15... plan to finish all this by age 30.. Hopefully...haha..

Happy Happy...

Wanna workhard le.. need to focus study le.. 2 weeks from now test test test, then exam.. Going back to Sg soon, 好期待。。。

Today staying @ Home Do Nothing..

2008-12-07T21:51:00.003+08:00

Actually wanna do the 老年病学 test assignment, but still don't have the motivation to start doing... My two friends went out with juniors and seniors to play majiong with this BioChem Teacher.. Ting asked me if I am going or not, but I dont like this entertainment... Just stay at home whole day, surf net, listen to music.. My both friends just back home.. Heard that one of them gamble (manjiong), Drink, and smoke with the teacher... Diao... No wonder the junior now also know how to smoke, drink, and gamble.. I am lucky that I choose not to go, bec I really dont like this.. Is not that I dont know how to drink.. Is not that I dont know how to play simple majiong, of cos I dont know how to smoke.. But I choose not to.. Just that I dont like this kind of entertainment...

I also worry for my biochem exam 14 Jan.. But... Just try my best.. Really dammmed Hard.. especially in Chinese Chemical term, cannot understand what the teacher teaching.. Too Fast... Sian...

Yesterday QQ with waike teacher, He is not like normal ppl... thinking wise is far away from a normal ppl too.. He is specialist in Brain, Wai Ke Doctor..But he is also emotional person, but when dealing with paitient who passed away, he said he will go do sport, sleep, and next day do work, to overcome his sadness.. and he will listen to songs too.. Yeap, life is unexpected, Wu Chang, really dislike the feeling of Sheng Li Shi Bie..(I think of my dad.. I miss him..) Really need to learn from teacher... I am very emotional type... hehe...He is a gd teacher... He teach different from others.. His teaching is special... attracted by his teaching...["^U^"]

Fri (5/12/08), meet up with Iman at sch gate.. But he is late, I have been waitng there for more than 20 mins.. Too Cold.. I din wear Thermal wear, I forgot to wear the kneeguard.. REally Buai Tan Han... No choice.. cos wanna use his electric Piano to record my song... then he rode bike, and this is my 2nd time as a pillon.. haha.. this remind me of my bike.. i miss my bike... Stay at his house for 2 hours... finally record finish... then play those pop song.. cos miss my piano and keyboard.. Then Iman invite me to have dinner with them.. So gd of him.. But i am vegetarian... Walk back home.. all the way shiver back.. cos fri 7th, the temperature was like minus 2 degree C... Diao... But luckily I din Gan Mao... Really wanna thanks Iman for the help..

["^U^"]

《因为有你》

2008-12-06T14:16:00.003+08:00

词/曲：梁家嘉(Jiaen)

Specially For Miss Wong Weidee...

冬天的季节
走在寒冷的路边
想起你的一切
让我继续前进

七年后的今天
写下这一首歌
好想对你说一声
Happy Birthday To You

你是我的朋友一直支持着我
你是我的推动力给我前进不给我后退
因为有你才有现在的我
我会为了你努力下去

七年后的今天
写下这一首歌
好想对你说一声
Chuc Co Sinh Nhat Vui Ve

你是我的天使永远陪伴着我
你是我的老师指引着我生命的方向
因为有你才有现在的我
我会为了你坚持到底

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Miss Wong wrote on my FaceBook Wall (6/12/08, at 3:29am), saying..

[thanks, jia jia.. for the video.. for the song.. for the lovely lyrics...for the way u have encouraged me with what u have done all these yrs, always remembering me every trs' day, birthday, CNY, etc.. evrything u have been doing these 8 yrs since graduation has fuelled my passion for this career i have chosen.
thank you for everything.. i am really speechless! no one can ever boast of having a song specially written for her! and you have done just that for me! WOW!
con yue ban]

["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]["^U^"]
Miss Wong, CAM ON BAN RAT NHIEU... (meaning: Thank You Very Much)

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Miss Wong, Happy Birthday!!!

2008-12-06T00:36:00.005+08:00

Today is my Fav Teacher, Miss Wong Wei Dee 2008 Bday...
I have been patiently waiting for this day to come....

Thanks Miss Wong for delaying her sleeping time, as she really feel very very sleepy before 12 am, but I really want her to wait till 6th Dec 12am for the sake of Me.. then she replied that I am very cute..hehe.. am I?? And Yes, she did wait for 12 midnite in the end... ["^U^"]

I have made a Composed Song for her.. Yeap, She felt that the Song is Lovely, & after watching the video, she really very Touched.. Hm... Really?

Dont have the time to send her the Song in wav format, which is played in the electrical piano... & dont have the time to send her the song which i sang for her... Sob sob.. nvm.. will send her other time...

I really do hope she will like this song..

Sis and Juan feel that this 7th song is not as gd as my previous 6 other songs...Cos not as catchy as before... But.. I feel....

When you see a beautiful gal, the first look will be attracted by her in your mind... But if you see a normal gal, the more you see her, you will also feel that she is also beautiful... why... bec she is Nai Kan...

I feel that my 7th song is like the 2nd one, the more you hear, the more you will like it...

I have done my best with this composed song... Cos initally I dont have any music keyboard or piano when doing this.. This is the most difficult part... I only able to sing out the melody, then use harmonica to play with it.. But in the end, I went to music sch and rent a room to figure out the Whole Song, Practice it and Record it.. luckily the renting is not so EX..
(I miss my piano and my keyboard)

I dont have gd recorder.. when i will be back to Sg, i will record it again...

One of my friends said that this song is very addictive.. Haha.. Actually I gave my senior and her cousin to hear.. Her tear flowing out.. Yea they are touched by my song.. & one of my roomates also after watching the video half way, tear came out.. I am surprised...

But will she be TOUCHED by whatever i did??????? She said she feel so LOVED.. Hehe...
Before we end our msn conversation, I told her... Con Yue Co.. Which means I LOVE YOU... and she also replied the same CON YUE CO.. haha.. I replied tat she cant use CO, must use Con Yue Ban.. cos in Co refer to 你， in 长辈，最尊敬的人， whereas Ban also refer to 你，in Friends, 同辈分的。。 Hehe.. Wondering what is this language? Guess.. ["^U^"]

I love this song 《因为有你》 alot.. is unique... will be puting the song in my Music Library later... Friends, comment on this 7th Song...Tell me how you feel once you hear that melody... Just doing my composed survey.. ["^U^"]

Nanjing...

2008-11-26T21:47:00.004+08:00

41 Days in Nanjing... Tml 3 ℃ /8 ℃, 北风5-6级... Fri----1 ℃ /11 ℃, 西北风4-5级转西风3-4级.... Very Cold sia... my classroom heated still haven install.. Hai.. hope tml it will be ready.. if not, jialat.. cannot concentrate the lesson...

Below is my Cell Biology teacher... I feel that he look quite handsome.. will very concentrate during his lesson... secretly taken this pic during one of his lesson, when he teaching half way, he walked to the back of the classroom, where i seat on the last row,and he seat infront of me, looking on one of the hongkong student, asking him question..

Sometimes very fed up with those classmates, esp year 1 and year 2 students, cos they kept talking during lesson.. as a result, cant concentrate well... Thus my bio chem teacher said before that some student came here and learnt nothing,quite Pathetic... This teacher actually suan them, but they still dont know what happen... Always keep talking during his lesson...Now the teacher din bother them at all, but we know that the teacher is unhappy with it.. Signz... and they want to have this Bio Chem exam on the first week of jan, so that they can early go back to their country, the actual Bio Chem exam is on the 2nd week of jan, I dont wish to take this exam so early.. cos Bio Chem exam is one of the top 4 courses. which many students fail one... Hai.. Actually I am afraid of it... but see how.. as usual, just try my best... ["^U^"]

I really miss my family, my mother, my bro, my sis, my brother-in-law, my tiger, my teacher miss wong, my sec friends, my poly friends, my tcm friends, my religion friends, and my religion activities... Hai...

If i didnt come here, i wont be so stress, at least there only go practical, attend class, do reports, no need exam... But here, i heard from senior that other than now we need to take those western medical course, we will be having our 4 basic course of tcm exam, (Zhong ji, Zhong Zhen, Zhong Yao & FangJi) next year May... then on our 2nd year (which is year 5th),other than practical in hospital, we will be having western medical exams , chinese medical exams on those practical one (Ling Chuang Course)... Hai.. After hearing that, really feel hai... cos really hate exams... I hate stress...

No choice, I have choose this le, I have to continue... I will jiayou, cos I believe I will learn more, and gain more experience in here... Cannot give up, Jiayou En...

I like living in nanjing.. but dont like the coldness here... At least now I am sleeping well, now dont have sleepless night.. and alot of vegetable dont eat in singapore, but i eat here... eg the Lian ou, huang gua, qie zi and alot... I alot of thing i din do in singapore, like housework, but now, i have to do myself.. (i miss my maid)... cook myself, wash my clothes, first time wash my shoe, and tidy up my bed every morning..

and the biggest change in me is that i need to put lotion, moistureliser cream on my face, hands and legs.. Bo Bian... cos when i came here for 2 weeks, i din put any lotion on my both legs, as a result so dry, now so itchy, abit pain, like snake skin... hai... din see doctor, only ask my teacher abt it, she said is sensitive... but till now haven ok... see how first.. ["^U^"]

[Daddy, your Jia really missed you alot, Daddy, I got my TCM License Le, Daddy, I know your wishes is that you hope your children will be studying in Uni, and get a Degree... Now at least 3 of us studying in uni, we will fulfil your wishes... Daddy, no matter how tough it is, i will Jiayou one... Daddy, Jiaja really very very MISS you...)

Nanjing...

2008-11-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

This few days very extremely cold... cold until i can shiver... Argz.. my classroom dont have heater, i hate to enter my class classroom, so cold.. other classroom quite warm and so comfortable... luckily they bought the heater already, hopefully by tml or next week they can install in my class..

Really like the life in Nanjing, like the school system.. is really like studying in a University.. walking from class to class.. also can go and listen to other subjects which you are interested...

2 weeks ago went to see dead human body, is Jie Pou lesson.. So excited... but in the end, the teacher quite irresponsible, came for less than 5 min and left, as a result, those students also left.. we didnt learn much... after seeing the dead human body, I am quite disappointed.. I thought is those freshly one, but actually the one i saw, is dried human body.. quite long, and alot of chemicals... I actually got take photo of it stomach, can see those intestine one, but in the end i forgot to save.. so sad... next time got chance will still go there and see, hopefully other teachers are gd and responsible one...

2 days ago, the psychology lesson ended.. only listen to 4 lessons, as we came here late, bec of the TCM Ministry EXAM.... At first the teacher dont allow us to take the test or the assigment, cos we absent for more than 75% attendance.. after explaining to her, she allows.. We only do 6 questions of Assignment, and last day she give us another assigment to do.. but need to do on the spot.. Her teaching is very gd.. really hope in future, she will be teaching those junior, then i will go for her lesson again... really very interesting, and i learnt alot from it.. eg. how to maintain your heart healthy (Xin Li Jian Kang).. I admit my heart not healthy.. also negative thoughts... haha.. will learn..

stop here.. next time then continue...

最难打的仗。。完结篇

2008-11-11T21:51:00.002+08:00

经过了一番苦战，最后，我打赢了。。真的很开心，很兴奋。。无法用任何的形容词来形容我的现在的心情，感受。。我觉得自己是很幸运，很幸福。。是上天给我的保佑，是家人们，老师们，朋友们给我的祝福，我真的赢了这场仗。。。真的好像在做梦。。无法相信这是真的。。感恩感恩再感恩。。。谢谢上天，谢谢你们。。。

等了好久，终于注册医师考试成绩出来了。。终于苦尽甘来。。 Cheers!!! 恭喜各位新新医师们，但那些没能过关的朋友们，不要放弃，加油！！ ["^U^"]

My worst day...

2008-11-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

Oh my God, 2 days ago, my classmate bring me and yuying to eat, cos is dinner time.. then he said that sure the food I can eat one..which is Shui Jiao... so I ask the person in charge if the food suitable for vegetarian like me, especially no onion, no garlic, no animals, and also the oil must be in vegetable.. then she told is is only veg, carrot, egg, and mu er inside.. so in the end i order 6 shuijiao... then, the serving waiting time is quite long, so i took out a tcm book to read.. when the order came, i din count how many shui jiao inside, so i used a chopstick and took one of it and bite a small portion, i realised the taste was so weired.. i know is meat.. i took a look at yuying shuijiao, is the same lor.. so i ask the serving person what is this.. but he said is the veg food, no meat.. i dont believed, so i ask the person in charge to come.. in the end wat... she said that actually is ur friend one, they put extra on my plate.. Wat the... yeap, there were 7 shui jiao on my plate.. and i was so lucky sia, 1/7 chances and still got that meat thing.. i am lucky that i din put all into my mouth, only eat very little, but still... eaten the meat.. argz... i immediately ask my person in charge to give me plain water, and i immediately vomite out the food... sian.. feel so uneasy... feel so uncomfortable... reahed home faster brush teeth, and then quickly Pray for Can Hui, 500 kou shou... then i told my friend, she keep laughing, and asked me is the food (MEAT) nice... diao... me dont feel nice lor, is so disgusted... me never ever go that shop eat... hope god will forgive me... Sobsob.. this is my first time in my whole life, eaten meat...argz.......... hai...

Today still very tired... after lunch, me and yuying go to study room to revise our Biochem, while ting accompany huijun and her family shopping... feel so tired, study from 1 pm to 6pm, just only one chapter===enzyme... is hard.. din finish in the end too.. wondering other subjects how... just try my best ba... jiayou en...

Sian Diao....

2008-11-01T23:08:00.002+08:00

My bro just told me that my bike fall on the ground.. how come... he said when he going to ride bike the next day, he saw 4 bikes already on the ground.. cos the last night raining very heavily... but confirm is bec of the first bike, his stand is so short, so he put a block one it... bec the stand is unable, it fall on the 2nd bike, and so on.. in the end, my bike is in the 4th position, and also kanna.. wat the...argz..so stupid de... now my bike got so much problem... owned for only 4 months... and now.... Sian half...

Argz.................................................

Contact me @ +8613851774174

2008-10-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hi friends, if you wanna contact me, can msg me or call me this china no. +861381774174, or call my sg no.... take care... friends...

Hp lost again.. :(

2008-10-26T18:54:00.003+08:00

:'( My Hp stolen again.. at DA Yang Shopping center... REally very sad sad.. cry le.. ARGZ... my hp was in my jacket pocket, left side, infront of me one.. when i was buying Icecream, i open the zip, and took out my small wallet to pay the icecream, i know the hp still inside, and there is weight one, so i know.. but when me and ting go to buy bread for tml breadfast, bec i need to choose which bread, and also help ting take the bread she want, when i as going to pay at the cashier, i suddenly feel that the weight is lighter, suddenly in my mind is .. HP.. i quickly check my pocket, the zip is open, i couldnt find my hp... at the first thought, i know it lost, the ppl stole, cos the place was crowed, but i cant remember how they steal.. but there is alot of thief in nanjing, they are pro...

i really cannot imagine the hp is right infront of me, just in my left side and still can be stolen.. ARGZ... Wat the .... Argaz.. In my whole life, this is 2nd times that ppl stole my hp, the first one at bugis.. and now at nanjing Da Yang SHopping center.. last time my hp lost bec i careless, i drop it, or forgot to take, but this year, my hp lost bec of stolen one.. ARGZ...

This hp is 6288, i brought from starhub using voucher.. even though is free, but i still very very sad, bec the hp is brought for my mum, and also all my contact gone again... hate it... argz.. and also those msg which is impt to me.. hai~~~ :'(

ARGZ.................................................. will update the no. again soon...

I am....unhappy...

2008-10-24T23:43:00.002+08:00

I really feel so unhappy.. just bec of wat you said, I waited for you.. I can sleep early, but i still so eager to chat with you.. but.. even if u cant online, at least tell me, but in the end, i msg u.. i really very moodless.. argz.. forget it.. :(
Maybe i din understand you, or so call ti liang ni, bec i always wondering am i so important to u.. even though u said that i am, but i always dont feel tat.. watever u said, i will always do, or wait, or accompany, not even a sec of thought, i will, just for ur sake.. but.. argz!!!! u always put me aeroplane, do u know how is my feeling... do u know tat i am very very very SAD.... i shldnt take ur words so seriously... :( let my carebear sub u to accompany me... gd nite...

Now at China..Nangjing..

2008-10-23T16:45:00.004+08:00

Wanna thanks my family (Mummy, MeiMei, MeiFu n Di...My Yi Po, Da Yi, Dayi Zhang, Xiao Qing Jie Jie, Nyssa, Er Jiu, Er Jiu Mu, Peilin, Er Yi, Er Yi Zhang, Kang Kang, ChengCheng, Si Yi, Wu Yi and Future Wu Yi Zhang), my other friends (Ah Tiam Uncle, MiaoShi and her parent, Chao Tian Uncle), my sec friends (Juan, Amy, Sherry, Richie, Boonhaw, Steven, Chenyou), my poly friends (Justin, Apple, Jie, king, Jeehoe, Alan, Kor), my tcm friends (Lianshi, Wenshen, Liqing, Huanying, Yuxian, Joyce, XiaoZhi, ZhengTao, ShunCang, Nanhui, Daniel), and also my fav Teacher Miss Wong... Thanks for the gathering.. I have enjoyed, and very touched.. very happy... :)

Wanna Thanks Lian Shi, Wen Shen for the dinner treats, wanna thanks Yuxian for the gift - Glove, Wanna thanks all my uncle and aunties for the Hong Bao, wanna thanks Poly friends for the gifts (Coat, Hat, Glove), wanna thanks my sec friends for the made-gifts (Pens with my name, and Book with our pic)... Really very touched.. Thanks Guys..

Wanna thanks Ah Tiam uncle for Bag, thanks Ivan Uncle for Laptop.. Thanks Miaoshi's mother for hong bao。。 ["^U^"]

Wanna Thanks my family, and also Miss Wong, Apple for sending me off at T3, Wanna thanks my mummy and Miss Wong for Hongbao, Thanks Apple for Cutie Blue Bear and the Card.. ["^U^"]

6 Days at Nanjing le, now staying at Apartment。。。 Call me at this no. +861381774174... If can use hello card or other prepaid card, can call me anytime, Cos my incoming call for Local and oversea is free.. ["^U^"]

Recently very tired.. Settle sch admin thing, sch fees, Bank, Body check up, police station for visa thing, and shop for the bed things.. and the worst part is go around and find flat...Very very very tired.. cos walking is like from bugis to orchard.. very far.. yesterday still clean the house.. so smelly and dirty.. but now quite clean... Today finally settle every thing.. go sch in the morning.. very cold.. alot lessons we have missed, so we need to buck up..

Wanna thanks senior to.. Ju Fang Xue Jie, if without her help, i dont think we can so fast settle down...

Tml is sport day, no need go sch.. in here, need to learn alot of the western stuff.. like this sem, we need to study 组织胚胎学，心理学，细胞生物学，生物化学，西医外科学，老年病学。。 the time table is flexible, maybe if still got time, wanna go to listen to some chinese stuff, like 温病学，妇科学，儿科学。。 luckily no need take those exams, only take those we din study before.. ["^U^"]

Lastly.. Jiayou En...

最难打的仗。。

2008-10-14T00:27:00.005+08:00

今天终于结束了，这场仗打得很辛苦。。第一天的仗，派了一百五十的兵士们去仗场打仗，只有六十八个兵士们会来，有十多个兵士们当场放弃。。但这场仗是要有九十个兵士们会来才算是大赢。。其他的兵士们，生死未卜。。

第二天，第一局，跟第一天一样，要就九十个士兵们会来，但这次我担心有士兵们放弃，我决定派那些不会退缩的士兵，以他们的毅力来决定，决定很快，但是没有考虑到他们的身体体能，是否三他们适合吗。。就是怕时间不够给我考虑，我才很快做决定的。。因此，死亡的士兵们很多，无法估计，但能确定的是，只有五十八个士兵们回来。。 Hai。。最惨的是，不到里两小时又要打第二回的仗。。那时的我无法在坚持，很想放弃。。无法入脑。。头很重又有点痛，因为为了第二天的仗，只睡一个中头。。所以放弃了，就豁出去吧。。但很庆幸，在这第二局，我拍出的五个将军，都回来了，随然有一些伤痕累累，但终算是80%打赢这个第二局了。。。

第三天，休息。。第四天，很紧张，派了十个将军，四位将军平安回来，其余的五位带伤回来，一位将军则不醒人事。。但应该还不错吧。。算赢吧。。而到了第二局，派出五位将军，但只有四位带着伤势的将军回来，而省下的一位，但场死亡。。但，也算不错了。。。到了第五天，也就是最后一天，今天的最后一仗，则是全军覆没。。没希望了。。

我已尽我的能力了。。是否这场仗能否打赢，听天由命。。
我也只能由上天替我安排我的命运了。。 LMCB。。

加油，恩。。。

Graduate from 14th Ren Cai Ban!!!

2008-09-28T16:13:00.003+08:00

Finally Graduate from this 1 year & 8 months of Ren Cai Ban Today.. Very Happy.. It is Omega, but also Alpha.. It seems like we have end our lesson, graduate from it, but is also the beginning of our new chapter.. Hm.. whatever task given, just do the best.. this is wat i always believe... Alot of thing need to be learn, and if can liao yuan, then liao yuan.. alot of things still dont know wat to do, like even being a Fu TZ, i also din really know wat to do.. this 10 months, have been busy with exams, studying, really din involve in youth group activities.. hai...

2 weeks from now is my temple 22nd anniverary..["^U^"]...but sadded, is my exam week also.. watever i can do, i will do my best.. jiayou...en...

谢谢你们。。

2008-09-21T10:08:00.003+08:00

I am very touched by their words, and support.. REally very appreaciate to them.. Wanna thanks to my FAv Teacher Miss Wong, my Sis, and of cos My Mei Fu... and especially my Mother..

And wanna thanks those friend who have helped me b4.. REally very gan ji..

Wana thank to my Jue De De Zhang, he taught me that in LIfe University, 1 + 1 is not = 1... Perhaps in my own world, 1 + 1 must = 1, thus when i see thing, i strongly believe it must be like this, not like that.. I know i am stubborn, very zhi zuo, cannot think of other way.. he also said that no one can tie u up, make diffculty for u, but is only u yourself who tie urself up, make it difficult one.. I think i need to think in different aspect.. it takes time... he said, we xiu tian dao, so tian zhi dao.. dont worry too much..50% is wat u do, but 50% is god arrange.. just try ur best... jin li er wei le.. but really thanks to De Zhang..

Anyway, still wanna thanks Ting, Wen, Huijun, Yuying.. sorry for troubled u all.. Anyway, now wanna forcus on studying.. Jiayou, my friends for the coming exams..

(Miss wong, really xie xie ni, u are my angel, my movtivator.. I will jiayou, and try my best.. I promise...)

(Sean, my meifu, i am also very very grateful to have so supportive, so understanding meifu.. He said that last time he missed the chance, so he dont wish i same like him will regret.. so he really hope that i wont give up.. but really thanks.. and also i enjoyed every msg we sent.. even though in the end he call me hua da jie, cos i send him a love test sms, and he ask what i have choose.. anyway my ans for that test is easy to have Hun Wai Qing.. hm... anyway is just a test, not real, but he take it so seriously, wanna call me hua da jie le.. hai.. begin to like this meifu alot..but also own him too much.. very nei jiu for his beloved car which i have done.. hai.. anyway very happy that sis and him will be very happiness.. ["^U^"])

放弃。。

2008-09-20T01:12:00.003+08:00

我决定放弃了我蛮想渴望的东西，就如大家说想的那样吧。。我回去做。。原本是个简单的事，却变得那么复杂，她都没觉得怎样，又不是大家所想的那样，但我，放弃了。。。我尽力了，天在看，但我没办法在继续。。为什么不一定要明确的为什么，理由不一定是真正的理由。。朋友，不要问我为什么。。就这样吧。。如愿以长。。

谢谢你（她），只有你才会支持我，陪伴我，鼓励我。。

（女孩和男孩的爱情） ENDING。。

2008-09-15T11:59:00.004+08:00

女孩和男孩分手了。。女孩是在平静的夜晚发了简讯给男孩，说明女孩决定离开男孩了。。到了早晨的五点多，女孩收到男孩的简讯，他说。。 “你要是觉得说我不会在改变的话，不会再给我机会，那就好吧，还是那句话，你决定。。。其实这没有谁对不起谁的。。” 男孩也这么说。。“其实我们以前做朋友会比做情人还好。。。” 女孩也认同。。因为男孩也知道女孩和他是两个不同世界的人，文化，思想都不同，彼此也不适合对方。。女孩这次没那么伤心，因为该伤心的那时就已经很伤心了，几次都哭了。。也许对女孩来说，女孩已经尝试着给男孩很多次机会，以为男孩会为了女孩而改，相信他给女孩的每一个承诺，但一而再，再而三的让女孩失望。。女孩认为如果真的有一个很爱她的人，会为了她而改变的。。但女孩错了，这世上是不可能的。。女孩并不怪男孩，因为他们是在不一样的环境长大的，思想上当然不同。。女孩没办法在也相信男孩了。。。男孩之前分手过的女友，一定不可能成为朋友，但女孩很欣慰，男孩和她还是朋友。。这是男孩给女孩的最后一个承诺。。谢谢你，男孩。。九个月十二天的日子就这样结束了。。

女孩在也不相信任何男友的每一句话了，自从第一任男孩给的承诺到至今，已经觉得这世上任何的诺言，都是假的。。不可能会实现的。。。。。。

My Sis Wedding..

2008-09-08T09:45:00.005+08:00

Recently damm busy with my tuition assignmensts, sis wedding preparation (giving teachers and family relatives invitation card), and also applying for Nanjing Unviersity, and also rehearsal, performance..

Hai.. Very sad, fed up, unhappy recently.. cos friend dont understand me n din 体谅我.. Mummy also blame me of not accompany her to relatives house, sis also blame me on not helping her much.. ARGZ.. Actually everything I have tried my very best to do everything, whatever i can do, i did spent my time and effort and go for it.. but somehow still... really very fed up that time, call and scold my sis, cos mummy keep nagging me, saying that she has been going around relatvies hse every nite, as it rain during the night, she gan mao le.. she said why no children accompany her.. I really have no time, i doing NJ thing, going teachers there, tution, so I really dont have other time to accompany her..

Then fri, my mum also said me again, cos really dont have time, still have alot invitation cards, how.. I realy feel sian half.. actually i have accompany her once, on monday, then after i hear liao, really argue with her.. really fed up.. I cried this few days, cos i feel that whatever i do is wrong.. whatever my effort, or i have tried my best, is useless... Why they cant put themselves in my shoes.. Hai.. in the end, i cancel my 2 tutions, and accompany her...

I called sis, and i scold my sis again for not accompany mummy, but she also very busy with her other marriage thing.. Bec of this, we also quarrel, saying y so last min, so troublesome, trouble alot of ppl and etc.. then she said dont be sister la.. then i hang up the phone.. really quite angry...

I told my mother if marriage is so troublesome, wanna trouble my family, especially her, and also my friends, i rather not marry...

Sat, more worst, me and sis quarrel again at jp infront of my sec friends.. of cos they are used to it.. cos sis blame me for not helping her to decide the ribbon colour for the car, cos i saw the pic that sean send me, i think is not nice, cos golden colour, but i need to wait for sis to see that, then decide.. but everything quite late, by the time sis saw that, she start to blame me le.. she angry, i also angry.. she said wat kind of sis, din wana decide for her.. then i said u r the one marry, not me, i cant help u decide..

This few days really very unhappy le, bec of this, then i said i am not fit to be her sis.. and i mean it.. really very moodless.. really dont wan be her wedding sisters, and also dont wish to go for the dinner... hai.. but in the end our thing solved le..

Yesterday dinner really in the mess, as we din arrange who will be sitting here and there.. Really sorry to those, as we din arrange properly... And thanks to my teachers and friends for coming to my sis wedding..

Happy to see sis marry le, but also really very se bu de...really cry out during the tea ceremony... but mummy din cry.. me so paiseh, cos unable to control my feeling, quite sad, as she is like leaving away from my life...

And also really very sorry to sean, as when i wanna park his new Toyota car (just brought less than a month), i din see the wall at tianguo, so i Buang on the wall, as a result, so scratches here and there, although is quite minor, i know he will feel quite xin tong one.. REally very sorry and paiseh.. is my careless... my fault.. Sis and sean din blame me, but i still feel very sorry to them.. hai..

Anyway finally finished... going to study for exam le.. cos this few months i really dont have the time.. hai... God help me...

moodless life...

2008-09-03T21:15:00.004+08:00

Wed, Raining...
Sad day... hen fan.. very stress, no mood.. very sian.. Recently not very happy.. alot of things need to do, no one understand me.. went to sec a few days ago, chat with uncle and auntie who sell drinks at the canteen.. chat for 1 hour till miss wong came down and look for me... we chat alot.. I get her point, I understand why parents will get quite worry for their children, their future...

I am very troubled, I cant get any sercure.. I dont know hows my future life will be.. That auntie said i must listen to my mother words.. I know, maybe they are correct.. I now start to dislike my life.. am i changed, yea, my jie said that.. I wanna be in my past me...

am i wrong... or i really made a wrong choice? shd i give up.. maybe.. going soon.. ??? wat are the things that missing, why i cant find that? something missing in my life.. How... FAN...

I am not happy since past 6 months.. i do not feel any happiness.. I wish i could go back.. I shd listen to my mum? my teachers? my friends? Shd i believe 它... Give up or not?

SobSob....

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This few weeks very cold, and also raining, have been riding.. Wholebody very sour pain, especially shoulder, and back.. and also my right and left hand too.. feng shi quite jiao lat.. I think i prefer driving than riding.. even though riding is cool and fun.. yesterday at cck, going back to Jw, at a juntion, my bike almost skipped..cos i look futher down the road, which is green light, but the nearest to me junction is red light, I quickly braked so hard, and i almost lost balance.. Cos ground was wet, raining abit heavy.. from then, dont dare to ride fast during raining day.. must forus and concentrate.. Hai.. pain here and there...

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Pls sms me your name...

2008-08-30T00:34:00.002+08:00

Dear friend,
Today i go and take my SIM Card at ps.. pls sms to me, and tell u who u r, so that i can add you... thanks... ["^U^"]

HP LOST...

2008-08-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

DEAR FRIEND,
I LOST my HP in BuGIS.. Someone stole it.. SobSob... So dont sms or contact me with this hp no... Thanks...

加油，李佳微！！

2008-08-21T22:32:00.003+08:00

刚才听新闻说李佳微打入了四强。。真的好高兴。。好几年前，因为看过她的乒乓球赛，而开始欣赏她，也喜欢看乒乓球赛。。很喜欢她。。也是我的偶像。。明天她要和中国张怡宁对打，虽然是非常TOUGH的比赛，但还是希望她能够赢张怡宁。。张怡宁太强，太PRO了。。。加油，my Idol,李佳微。。

看了这次的Olympics, 也非常非常欣赏冯天微，虽然她没进入四强，觉得她这次的比赛已经打的很好，觉得她很有潜力，相信她将来会有更好的成绩。。她蛮耐看，也很喜欢她。。除了她以外，也很欣赏Korean的一名球员，Park MY.. 被她的每一个接球的动作，而吸引。。太厉害了。。 Anyway, all the best in their Future, 冯天微 & Park MY 。。。加油。。 ["^U^"]

Lastly, 3 Cheers for 李佳微。。。加油，加油，加油！！！

（女孩和男孩的爱情）

2008-08-18T23:53:00.005+08:00

女孩和男孩在一起已有八个多月了，真的难以相信。。因女孩曾经走过最长的恋情只有九个月多。说真的，在女孩的内心里，她对这段恋情，只是抱着顺其自然的态度。。男孩对她很好，从一开始到现在，所有出门的开销，都是男孩付钱的。。但男孩是个不浪漫的男朋友，也不是很体贴。。女孩生病了，他都不会关心她，也不会陪伴她。。也许时间长了，女孩在也找不到当初的感觉。。有时，女孩真的不知道她对这段恋情到底要的是什么。。是她要找到的幸福吗。。不是男孩不好，是女孩对感情没那么大的期待，渴望。。真的，有时女孩很想回到单身的感觉，自由自在。。因为（她），女孩才决定给爱情机会。。如果没有（她），女孩一定走她想走的幸福。。是否女孩的幸福，是（她）所想要的吗？

对男孩来说，女孩是他的全部，但对女孩来说，男孩不是她的唯一。。男孩曾经问女孩是否男孩在女孩的心理很重要，但女孩没回答。。男孩心里有数。。女孩心里很乱，真的不知道到底要的是什么，现在这种的幸福，是幸福吗？是女孩真想要的幸福吗？女孩真的不知道。。爱情对女孩来说，可有可无。。因为女孩曾经受过的伤害，在也不相信男孩子，不相信他们的任何的话，所以，现在女孩也不相信男孩的甜言蜜语，不相信爱情可以长久。。

女孩周围的朋友都觉得这段感情真的是很难维持，说要离开就尽早，以免男孩对女孩的爱越来越深。。女孩是很容易被他人的话而影响，甚至有想要和男孩分手。。但女孩还是爱着男孩，所以还是继续和他在一起。。女孩跟男孩说过如果女孩已不再爱男孩了，女孩就一定离开他。。到底他们会否在一起，顺其自然，走一步，看一步吧。。

Boring...

2008-07-22T19:24:00.003+08:00

Hai... very very sian... So boring... haven study.. hai!... My schedule haven settle yet... Argz.... Going to study soon ba... Jiayou, en...

Today is Miss Goh(sec one form teacher) Birthday... Happy Birthday, Miss Goh!!!

Recently I have a K2 student, he is very cute and funny... whatever homework i ask him to do, he will do it, but... everytime give him spelling, he din really go and memorise.. hai.. Eversince i give him my hp no, he keep call me.. day and night.. hm... really diao.. maybe he is bored too ba.. sometimes just chat with him for a while... he just call me again.. haha..

This few days, really miss her alot.. hai... dream of her again.. hope to c her.. but... suan le... she is too busy... anyway hope she is doing well... ["^U^"]

Busy meeting up with friends... ["^U^"]

2008-06-29T22:49:00.007+08:00

26/06/08
Went to sch in the afternoon.. at night went to Lotus Veg at Quality Hotel, having Steamboat Dinner with my Poly Friends, got Justin, Jie, JieFu, Kor.. Enjoyed the dinner..["^U^"]

27/06/08
Got my bike, Magic 110 RR from the previous owner, then went to Hualing Hse at bukit batok, cos we are having TCM gathering.. then went to Liping hse, got Huijun, Huanying, Jinwen and me...then 5 of us went to Pa Shan, bukit timah hill.. Long time din go there le, the last time is with my Dad.. Suddenly think of him, really miss him alot...["^O^"] At night went Ren Cai TZ class, ride bike there too.. Quite long distance, somemore i still need to Zai my mum too.. keep wobbling, cos still not used to it.. cos the last time got pillon was during 5.01 lesson... but ok la, we both safe back home...

28/06/08
went to housing board to buy season parking.. then went to nearby motorshop.. brought a $75 IU unit from that shop, monday then they will help me put it into my bike.. cos i dont wish to go LTA to settle those thing, since the bike shop can help me settle all, thus willing to buy $75 2nd hand IU unit...

Then reached mum stall to have lunch, then later drive her to near jurong point there to buy tofu, using my bike, cos mum said car petrol more ex... then send her back, and i went home to bath, preparing to go out.. cos we having chalet at costa sand resort...is my sec gathering..

Ride bike there again.. very safe one... always on 3rd or 4th lane... Anyway, very enjoyed the chalet.. Got Cy, waileong, yizhan, yulong, sean, jacey, amy, huijuan, me.. and.. also Miss Wong.. and also boonhaw and his gf eve, but they left early...Extremely happy that my fav teacher can come to our chalet... Me and her chat alot.. happy to know that she is living well.. she so shock that i now riding.. i know she quite concern of my safety... Really hope that she will oneday find her happiness... :) (actually she is my 2nd reason for me to learn TCM, she is the one...) Really happy that sch graduate exam finish... she is one of my motivation to continue my tcm, if not really will give up tat time.. Thanks my idol teacher miss wong, or i shd also say.. so call my "POLY FRIEND"... haha.. she know why..hm.. I also very enjoyed during the Heart Attack game with Miss wong, amy, juan and jacey.. those guys dont wanna play, they watch the lord of the ring..

Thanks juan for organise the chalet, thanks everyone who come for the chalet, and thanks cy for putting FF8 in my psp.. ["^U^"] finally can play my long ago fav game..

29/06/08
slept for less than 2 hrs in the chalet, then woke up prepared to go to Tian Guo, cos got my ren cai class.. amy worried for my safety, cos scare i not enough Jing Shen.. but ok, reach Tian guo in 15 min time... Very enjoyed in riding...

Really a bit sian half, cos my 5 min dao yi was quite bad... i know i din perform well, cos my topic is EAR, really cant think of wat to say on the stage.. really got stage fright ba.. After class, ride bike home again..

At night went to see my grandpa who is in hospital.. yea he is quite ok now.. tml can go home le.. ["^U^"] just feel that he look older and older.. hai...

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Miss wong msg me at around 7pm plus, she thought we are stil BBQ, but i told her now i am at home..then told her that i only slept for 2 hrs, but no accident when going to sengkang.. she then replied saying that oh, ok, thanks god.. u take care, remember not to ride ur bike. n tmr bring it in to fix e brake... dun take risk...

Actually i did tell her my brake, the one using right foot one, got some problem.. so she really very scare if i got accident.. haha.. but will listen to her, will fix it next week one... ["^U^"] I WILL RIDE SAFETLY ONE.. DONT WORRY.. ["^U^"]

Really Enjoy riding my bike.. so fun...

Next week going to work hard on study le, and also do part time job.. jiayou en..

Busy since Last paper (15/6/08)...

2008-06-25T01:13:00.012+08:00

Went to C camp last week.. Really very enjoyed during the whole camp.. Learnt alot, not just only knowing, but must DO!!! Results also out on last fri, really very nervous, din really listen to our Station IC for the morning activities.. After Lunch, called the sch.. Finally Passed... Thanks God.. Thanks Dad.. Thanks my friends who give me encouragement and wishes..Really very grateful to LaoMu.. Will work hard for the Gov Exam... Jiayou En...

Very Happy, finally got Liao Yuan activities coming up, that is for our Le Ling, Old ages people, an activities.. Anyway, our De shu will be doing a Western and Chinese Instrument Performance again.. This will be our 2nd time... Thinking of playing those song from the Camp.. Such as Qing Shao Nian Zhi Ge, 青少年之歌, cos like it quite alot.. thus after the camp, at home play that song on the keyboard, it took me less than 15 min to figure out the melody and chord.. (On the Left Column, click play on Qing Shao Nian Zhi Ge to Listen..Record and play by me on my Music Keyboard.. Of cos not as gd as the Original one..["^U^"] )

Hopefully Aihua jie manage to get those score for the other 2 songs from Zijian Tz, if not i will try to figure out those song le.. Very excited for the performance.. So now need to plan for the the first meeting thing le.. July ba... Let's meet up.. ["^U^"]

Below is my group performance for the 2nd nite.. We using the Qing Shao Nian Zhi Ge song, but we change the lyric.. but a bit ke xi that we cant remember our song lyric, thus stuck here and there.. anyway is fun.. :) Our performace is abt Yi Nian Zhi Jian, 一念之间.. Is abt whether shd we kill the mosquito???

This is our composed lyric..
欢迎来到C Camp道学营， Camp Fire Show Time
欢迎来到Camp Fire Show Time, 一念之间， Wawh!!

在这繁忙的道路上， by chance or by choice?
有选择，有机会，我该选择哪一个？

我绝不做任何羞惭，不违反自然的定义，
祈祷上天给于的智慧，让我做出正确的决定。。

So, do u have ur ans already? Kill or not Kill????

Actually the whole show ideal from Jing Yong (Malaysia QianXian), lyric change is from Andy and Zhengnong.. Thus our performance still not bad, just that we only cant remember our lyrics only.. So really thanks to them... ["^U^"] Maybe dont know why there is a wawh after the Yi Nian Zhi Jian, that is bec our first day evening activities is Wawh -- which mean WHY ARE WE HERE?? Include 一念之间，一目了然 stations..

Anyway, our Camp Theme is 从零到有，续慧成愿!!

Is also a reminder for myself, not just think think, but also must action.. Jiayou en..

Lastly, finally going to get my first bike.. Magic 110 RR (Green in colour, which i dont really like, prefer blue..)!! To be truth, i dont like the model of the bike, cos is like a scooter, which is a Curb.. I like sport bikes.. Hm.. but still buy that, that is bec is cheap, maintenence, fuel compsumtion, insurance is cheaper than sport bike.. hm.. tml will be doing the insurance thing, then the current owner will also going to LTA to transfer the name.. Hopefully get the bike on thur or fri.. So must looking for part time job.. need to study and earn money for my daily expenses, and also save for the school fee too.. Hai... anyway, jiayou jiayou jiayou.. ["^U^"]

Sick for 1 week le..

2008-05-16T13:29:00.003+08:00

Mon, still having a bit of fever, but have to go to sch for nite lesson.. Reach sch library, unable to concentrate study, so sleep at the sofa outside the library.. wanna that those friends who care and concern of me.. and also a 2nd year auntie, cos she gave me a bag of cold water for reducing my fever temp.. REally very thank u..

Tues, no more fever, but morning going to faint and vomite after bath.. so xinku..wanna sms to wen, but also send wrong to hy, in the end hy replied me, wanna bring me to c doctor.. I am very touched, but i reject the offer, as i told her i eat the chinese med for 3 days first.. if haven ok then c another doctor..REally thanks hy...

Wed and Thurs, similar symptoms.. faint and vomite..Argz... then mum brought me to see a western doct, which cost $126.. so ex.. he say that this is my 3rd time cough, and this time is more jialat then previous.. he wanna me to sleep and sleep.. but i have been sleeping alot le... untill my back so pain.. i told him my exam coming soon, wanna study, but he said that dont care that first, must sleep alot.. hai! He also said that i am too too weak, if he blow at me, i will fall.. i think so ba.. bec my zhong qi is only 10% left..hai.. hopefully by next week can recover.. REally sick till so sian...hate it... argz...sob sob...

Fever for 2 days le..

2008-05-11T11:00:00.004+08:00

Long time din blog le, bec busy with my graduation exams... But in the end i failed 2 papers... which consist of 5 subjects... This year really very suay, it seems like something blinded my eyes... if i read my question carefully, and if i remember to see just the Tai Huang, which is a er ke sub, actually this 2 paper i can pass le... This is my first time, the lowest period that i face, so jialat in my whole life for the exams... Maybe since young till now, my exam so smooth... Maybe this is a kaoyan for me, wanna me to be stronger, cos to be truth, my exam and Ren Ji Guan Xi are very smooth and not much problem.. But i do hope when i start working, i dont wish to meet those Ren Ji Guan Xi problem, bec i will be very very sad... Anyway, my re exam is on june 12 and 15.. Jiayou En....

This 2 days, feeling sick, and had fever... now eyes swallon, whole body still pain, headache... yesterday more worst... bec yest went cineleisure to watch Iron Man with Wen... She din know that i am having fever, if not she will not ask me to go out.. but the reason why i going to meet her is bec a few days ago, we agree to meet up go sing K or watch movie, but in the end i put her aeroplane.. the movie is very nice, but the place too cold, and my problem is bec of feng and han...then sometimes leg pain, sometimes move to hand, or head... then went home with mrt at 4 plus, during at the mrt, too many people, no place to sit, only stand, then really so weak till going to faint, no choice, had to zhun xia... then went home sleep for 1.5 hrs, and then went to Apple house, send her to airport, bec she going to Japan.. she dont wanna me come, bec she know that i am sick, but i really wanna see her... i realised that as long as got aircon place, my pain more worst... Anyway hope she will enjoy and play well...:) then reach home at 12.30am plus...then chat with mummy for awhile, btw today is mother day... have u brought something for your mummy? me and sis brought a second hand hp, nokia 6110 for her, me and sis give $100 each, cos the rest is trade in her nokia 6288 hp...you know where i got the $100, actually i already broke le, cos my pocket money has reduce, really no money le, but luckily during my bday, my sis give me $100 for my bday gift..

Anyway, my mummy seems to like it alot.. the sound so loud, the camera better then the previous one, the most impt is bec of GPS... bec recently my mummy wana go to a place, but dont know where, then she always call her friend, Ivan Uncle, and ask him how to go... then she very paiseh keep asking him.. thus i thought of buying this GPS hp for her.. since the GPS is free, not like N82 and other models.. ["^U^"] actually wanna buy her new one, bec one of my contact has finish, then i call the starhub whether the N6110 still available, then he say that they dont have this model.. but if really buy without line, it will cost $550.. but really dont have much money.. and i did ask my mother if 2nd hand one she ok not, then she dont mind, anyway the 2nd hand one is brought from my friend.. till now dont have much problem... See my mummy so happy, i also very happy.. ["^U^"]

17/3/08 Memorable Day!!!

2008-03-17T14:58:00.003+08:00

Wanna thanks Ben Ben for the Birthday Gift---a casio watch, I like it alot, cos is baby blue... Wanna thanks Apple, Irene Jie, n King Jie fu for the Bday gift too--which is Bird Nest... Haha.. REally very appreaciate..

Today is my Tiger 1st year bday... 17/3/08.. Thus I specially booked my Bike Test on this day too, so to remember this special date.. And.. ["^U^"] I passed my bike test.. This is one of my Bday wish, and is also one of my biggest bday present.. REally very happy... First time exam... Hehe.. Very Lucky.. Got 18 points deducted...

Total spent on the bike practical is $460.10, on the Theory lesson is $43.89, Theory test is $6.00, the Practical Test is $36.05, with the enrolment fee of $42.80, I spent the total of $588.84 for this Bike Course!! I took 107 days to get this license!! Finally finished...["^U^"]

Btw, I hope my 2nd and 3rd wish will come true too..

Jiaen, Jiayou Jiayou!!! ["^U^"]

Stomach Flu again 07/02/08

2008-03-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday stomach flu again.. same as last year experience, going to die.. this time dont know why got this gastro... thing again.. Just ate watermelon, papaya, yougurt, biscute thing and nutritional food only.. again, pain from night till 4am.. then mum decided to bring me to hospital, bec i kept vomiting.. but i refuse to, cos once bitten by snake will forever scare the snake.. i rather go to clinic for injection.. then after went to the Bukit Gomba clinic, after the injection and taken the medicine, feeling better, then went to sleep at 5 plus am.. Now still abit pain.. really sian.. hate this stomach flu.. very scare.. hai!!!

Argz...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2008-02-14T23:59:00.006+08:00

Time fly too fast.. Now already Chu Ba le..

Chu Yi, sleep at 7 plus am till afternoon 4pm plus.. Then watch movie with Ben Ben and Wen, the Jay movie, Gong fu Guan Lan..

Chu Er, visit father's side relatives and mummy friend..

Chu San, went to sec friends house, last station is at Juan hse and we had our gambling there... We play 21, most of us win, I win $10 plus plus, Ben Ben win near $20, Sis bf win too, but only sis lost a few bucks... I cant bet high, I always got the luck one, but since Qing Kou, I will lose those bet game.. I din play this for 3 years le ba, but this time round, got abit of feeling wanna play, so i initially share with sherry, and we win alot, cos we the banker, and we got 2 Aces.. then after sherry left, i pair up with Amy, got win and got lose, but overall still win.. We play till 3am in the morning...

Chu Si, went to help up in mum stall, cos she wana to prepare for the next day foods.. Ben Ben and uncle do the table thing, mum and me cut those vegetables.. Then later I meet up with my poly friends at T3 Airport.. cos 3 of my friends, YongSheng, Ziyang n YanHao going to aus to study.. Sob Sob.. Anyway hope they will be doing well..

Chu Wu, go to 5 relatives house, but 3 relatives not at home, so only go to 2 houses, and in the end, mummy, bro and me went to amk to play pool.. mummy's friend, Ivan uncle also then join us... Yea, one funny thing, Ivan uncle son wanna woo me.. Haha.. cos Chu Er went to his house.. then during a few days later, mummy is at outside doing her work, then she called me.. she keep laughing and saying that got someone wanna woo me.. then i asked her who.. she then said that is Ivan Uncle son.. u know wat.. the uncle told his son that i can be his elder sis le.. Cos uncle elder son is age 19, he thought that i same age with him or even younger.. Haha..
Back to the pool part, i played the pool with Ivan Uncle, then mummy keep laughing.. i also dont know why... Then later she told me that is bec she feel that me become more and more pretty, and more gal gal le, not like tomboy type.. Diao Diao.. i where got pretty, i dont admit it lor, to me i am average only.. hehe..

Chu Liu, went to sch in the afternoon, cos got Zhen Jiu Lin Chuang...

Chu Qi, accompany Ben Ben to polyclinic to see his injuired toe.. cos long time havent recover.. something is wrong.. so now he wanna c doctor.. At night, ben ben, me , mummy, mummy 2 malaysia friends, who is tz went to Ba Xian resturant to eat for dinner..

Chu Ba, today, din go sch, sleep till 11.30 am.. too tired.. watch tv, then later at night go to Ren Cai Class...

Hai.. exam coming soon.. dont know how.. very scare.. haven really touch on it.. sign.. next week will start to study.. cos tml will go learn bike, then sat will go liao yuan cut vegetables, cos need to prepare for the sun Duan Bai.. besides in the evening we will having steamboat at Tian hui.. Then on sun, need to wake up so early to prepare the foods, need to reach Tian Guo at 6am.. At night my sec friends coming to my hse.. no time study, but after this week, will be very hardworking in studying le.. Promise... Jiayou..en...

The story of the Gal n the Boi

2008-01-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

Recently, the Gal find hard to communicate with the Boi.. Because of different background, whenever the Gal wanna translate the sentences so that the Boi can understand, but the Gal find it so difficult, and always need to ask her friend for help.. the gal actually feel that she is quite useless..and in the end results in misunderstanding or is not what she really mean.. Just a simple wishes, and yet the boi dont understand what the gal feeling.. The Gal din look down on the Boi, just that the Gal feel very tired of this translation, expressing her feeling to him, and because the Gal also not good in the language,thus unhappy thing happen..But what makes her so sad, and tears flowing out from her both eyes is when the Boi said that since he dont understand what she meant, then asking the Gal to find another Guy who can understand her more.. The Gal then replied if this is really what he meant, she has nothing to say... bye, and she hang up the phone...

Riding... Scare scare sia...

2008-01-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

Today I passed my RTT.. Tml going to book my Riding Practical Test.. Most probably on march.. Hai.. no confident.. A few days ago when i was taking my revision circuit (RC), I fall from the bike when i was doing the Slalom Course.. Just at the last turn of the slalom, i hit the small pipe beside the kerb, thus, i lost control, and fall over the kerb to the other side of the road.. My right knee and right arm hit on the ground, and then my whole body slide in a few distance, and the bike hit my left leg.. Arg.. too sudden.. so shocked.. and the first feeling was so pain.. luckily i wear jean, if not my knee injured will be more worst.. however, other then my right knee, right arm, left leg, and also my whole body was in great pain, maybe due to the impact when falling down.. now start to have phobia in riding, especially in this slalom, s-shape, and crank course.. By right i shd have confident in doing those courses, but this time round, really abit afraid.. this feeling is totally different compared to the first lesson i learn in each course..

Maybe bec i got a bit affected by a friend.. Cos during C camp, I saw him with his injured hands.. I was so surprised.. Then later i asked him wat happen to him.. He said that he got a accident.. his bike bang onto the lorry.. he was driving back home after his night shift, he was very tired and he fall asleep, thus result in this accident.. He is a cautious biker but still thing happened.. His left hand, 尺骨broken, and now he need a metal plate to support, and his right palm, first, sec, third finger ligament were broken.. I was so stunned when i heard that.. Anyway really hope that he will recover soon..

Yesterday when i was taking bus to sch, I am thinking of quit the bike lesson.. but then i have spent almost half the courses le, if stop now, really abit wasted.. so i will continue.. whether in future i will ride or not, see how first... I told one of my biker friend, the only tcm gal friend who ride bike, then she advised me to stop for a while, after gaining back my confident then learn again.. Hm.. yea, is true.. i think i will learn one lesson per week only.. hai...

Tml got bike lesson, 5.01, is riding with pillion.. this shd be ok ba.. brother say is easy, shd be able to pass.. but still abit no confident.. Tml need to pray to god, and also need to pray to my dad, hoping him to give me protection.. Actually everytime when i go learn bike lesson, i will pray to god and my dad, but that time RC lesson, i din, thus result in this incident..

Argz... sobsob...

Busy.. Tired..

2008-01-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

Recently din blog bec too busy in Dec.. busy with exams, camps n meetings, and also my bike lessons... Today just finish 4.01 and 4.02 lessons.. Wanna book the practical exam date, but i haven take the RTT.. RTT is on next thurs.. THen now the practical date is during march period le.. Actually plan to take the exam in feb, but now bo bian.. see how ba..

Tml and Sun is C camp, but tml i will go to my poly event first... very happy cos can meet up with those poly friends, we din see each other for long time le.. Frm next week onwards, i need to study hard le.. really no time le.. Really very scare for this coming graduate exam... really too tired.. tired till black eyes so obvious.. sob sob..

hai.. sadded...

心情。。差！

2007-11-28T15:39:00.000+08:00

[因为你的出现，让我动了心，但是因你的不成实，却让我对你死心！！]

Today very sway.. i broke my mother Cup Cover.. I drop my hp at the bus stop.. Argz.. Feeling so sian and so unhappy.. Hate Exams... Everyday only sleep of 3 to 4 hours only.. Going sick.. very tired... Abit Gan Mao... Argz... Still got one more paper to go...

Feeling Bad...

2007-11-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

Feeling Bad, very low, and very siansation.. Today exam.. really sux... Might fail.. Hai.. I already finish study all le, like Wen Bing Exam, but today Ling Chang Biao Xian is dammn Jialat, and yet unable to think well in the exam, all mixed up.. Blank in my mind.. cant think well.. 31 mcq out of 60 mcq dont know how to do, and the rest of the mcq, i thought i know well, but then realise is wrong.. why.. already finish study all those QnA, find the meaning, true false, bing an, and mcq, and yet so jialat.. Initially plan to skip study the find the meaning one, but then i feel if i can finish study all then try lor.. but now.. maybe not enough sleep, head is heavy when wake up, and going to exam.. Argz.. If fail, of cos can re exam, but the feeling is bad.. hate it.. Hate exams..

But will try study well for other paper.. Now all my attention will be on my exam.. no more for others..

Sian Diao...

我的朋友是媒婆。。

2007-11-11T09:28:00.000+08:00

几个星期前，文问我对男友的条件是什么。。我回她说做么，要做媒婆啊。。然后去学校的途中，我对文说了我对未来男友的看法。。我说。。第一，要孝顺，第二，要是单纯，第三，不可抽烟喝酒，第四，要对我好，关心我爱护我，第五，要吃素，起码要是道亲，以后必须陪我一起修道。。

也许因之前的那一段，让我这一次对未来的他，更多的要求了。。

后来，我才得知文想介绍两位家梁的朋友。。那两位都中国人。。文说第一位现在在马来西亚做工，他满帅，皮肤白，很符合我的条件。文最想撮合我跟他。而第二位，文说是他想打听我的事，想和我做朋友。

我问文他是谁，我认识吗? 但文只是说是我们共同的朋友。。我很奇怪，我和她哪有共同的朋友。。过后，我在问文我认识他多久？她说几个月吧。。其实我有猜想是他。。但不确定。。文一只卖关子，始终都不说他是谁，因为她说他没采取行动，不能说。。

昨天，文终于说了。她问我我对他的第一印象的感觉，可以和他做朋友吗。。其实是他问文来问我的。。就是他，我只见过他一次面，是在素食元游会文带他来一会儿，而认识的。因我对他讲解降道因由，是否他想要求，但最终没有。。他长得高，中等，对他的印象还好。。文过后说自从我和他讲道后，他对我有种感觉。。我也不大清楚。。

对文而言，她不是很想介绍他给我，只因为她的那位朋友叫她帮他来问我。。到了晚上，文和家梁通电话。过后，文跟我说她的那位朋友（想要和我做朋友的）骗她，说那个在马来西亚的朋友长得满白，满帅，但是家梁说其实他长得黑，普通长相。。然后文很激动得跟我说。。她听起来还蛮气。。我后来回她说，我都没有这么样，而你比我还更在意，更激动。。哈哈。。她听了，磋我一下。。她的表情，真得很好笑。。因为她非常想撮合我跟那个在马来西亚做工的朋友，但听到不是那样，有点显掉，又说你应该不会介意男孩长得比较黑吧。。

今天，七点多起身，看了手机，发现有个短讯。。是个陌生电话。。原来是文的那个骗她的朋友。。他说他是文的朋友，在佛堂和他讲道的那位，想要和我做朋友。。

哈哈。。刚从病正在康复中，就听到这种意想不到的事。。还真得蛮好笑。。尤其是文。。真好笑。。

Hospitalise from 6/11 till 8/11/07

2007-11-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

Sunday 4/11/07, Wen cook Corn Soup for me.. I am very grateful to her, cos in her life, she only cook for herself and her bf.. and I am very honour to have her to cook for me.. Bro, mum, wen and me drank the soup, but at night, still got some left over.. I asked my mum wanna drink the soup not, but she dont want.. Then i went to kitchen, and i saw there are 2 flys fly on top of the corn soup.. But I dont wanna waste the soup, so i thought of tml then drink it.. But bec i saw got flies, then i give mum to smell the soup, as i wondering is the soup spoil or not.. But mum say din spoil la.. So i use a plate and cover the bowl, then i put in the refrigerator..

The next day, 5/11/07.. I took out the soup from the frigde.. Then I cook it in the pot.. The soup is quite little, so i add abit more water.. But the soup level is only 1/4 height of the corn.. So when i saw the soup is boiling, so i just stir the corn for a while, and then place in the bowl, and my lunch is ready..

Then later my meet my friend, but that day, i only feel abit different from the normal day.. but then i also dont care it.. then at night, i went for jogging at around 9 plus.. Then after that, I start to do my project, as i need to hand in the project by wed.. When i was doing the project, I start to feel that my stomach start to pain... at first i thought is need to go toilet for the Emm ermm.. so i thought of after doing finish the project then i go toilet.. I finished my project at abt 1 plus, so i went to toilet, but no ermm emm.. and the pain still there.. so i thought again that maybe after sleep, it will recover..

At 4pm, i woke up from bed, the whole night i din sleep, bec is really very painful.. Then i dont wanna wake up my mother bec she has to wake up at 6 am, so i went to living room there, using the Ai Tiao and jiu my zhu san li xue, sheng que, he gu, and zhong wan xue.. then i feel the pain is abit lesser, and i dont dare to zhen myself.. the pain increase, when going to 5 am, I have no choice, i woke wen up.. i knock on the door, saying that wen, save me, my stomach pain..

Later she suggest to eat.. bec she say that when she got stomach pain, her dad will cook porridge for her, and later the pain gone.. So she call me the eat the biscute, and she even make the egg white , like a tofu for me, but i really dont have the wei kou to eat.. but she wanna me eat, so i no choice, i eat half the biscute, and then really cant go in le.. In the end, the stomach pain still very jialat, and the worst is, i start to vomit.. the first vomit out is the undisgested corn...

So wen accompany me to my nearby 24hr clinic, but the operating hr has change.. they only open till 12 am.. so the staff suggest us to clementi 24hr clinic.. so we took cab.. then the doctor give me 2 injections.. one for preventing vomit, and one for stopping the pain.. after 5 min, I feel better.. and i can play with wen, but still quite weak in strength..

When i reached home, the pain come again.. and more painful le.. and start to vomit again.. i call wen for help again.. she accompany me in my bed.. then later my sis woke up, at around 7 plus, she suggest me to go SGH... so wen help me to take a cab, then sis accompany me hospital.. But wen not following me, bec she need to help me to pass my project and her project to teacher..

I was like dying, the pain is so unbearable.. when reach there, they took my blood pressure, 56/92 mmhg.. then i ask the doctor if they can help me stop the pain, but they say need to do blood test, urine test and x-ray.. u know wat the surgery doctor say wat.. he say that i need to pain till the next day.. when i heard that i was sian half, and abit angry.. he explained that if he stop the pain, he wont know wat is the problem, and he say i need to be under observation.. Cos he scare that i am in appendicitis.. so need to observe.. I vomit alot of times, more than 15 times.. really cant tolerate the pain, pain till i feel so weak, weak until i could sign whatever doc they wanna me to sign.. In my whole life, this is my first experience, that i really cannot tahan the pain, cos i pain for 15 hours.. and during the painful experience, i keep pray to god, keep using the 3 treasures, but then still cant tolerate it.. then i also thought of using a knife and stab into my stomach, then like that die ba, then i think might be more relieve.. but i know i cant have this thought.. but really very very pain sia.. then at around 1 pm plus, i need to drink 1.5 litres of water for the CT scanning.. but the last cup of water after i drank, i start to vomit, i use my hand cover my mouth, and swallow it back, but the 2nd vomit i cant stop it, cos it come out from my nose, no choice, i vomit out the water.. then the nurse say nvm, cos at least i drank for 1 litres le..

This is really a bad experience for me.. really hate hospital sia, do test here and there.. and really make me so paiseh.. but the more serious and dislike experience is the pain thing.. cos i stay in the hospital from tues till thurs for observation..

At first i quite dislike the surgery doctor, bec he dont wanna inject for me the zhi tong one.. but then during the 2 days in hospital, i begin to like this doctor.. cos every morning he will come and check up for all the paitent.. then he will always smile at me, and say hihi.. anyway, i am attracted to his look and his smile, cos i feel that he is very handsome.. haha.. Some young male doctors really very handsome.. and my sis also agree with me.. haha..

This time hospitalise, i din tell any of my friends, even my close friends.. Wen knows bec she accompany me when i am suffering the stomach pain, then she also tell Ting, and YuYing.. Then apple knows bec my sis told her, then she told jie, jie told jiefu, and jiefu told kor.. So Kor call me, and ask me why i din tell him, then i say why shd i tell him.. haha.. but the truth is i dont intend to tell others bec i dont wanna let them worry for me.. then bec wc mum wanna find my mother, then she also knows it, then later wc mum told wc.. then wanna thanks him, cos he accompany me on the 2nd day from 3 plus till 1o plus.. really abit paiseh bec i got sleep for an hour plus and he still there, reading books ba.. then wanna thanks jie and jiefu for visiting me also.. aihua jie too.. Kor actually wanna come, but he got work, but i really appreaciated.. hehe.. Thanks apple also, although she say she wanna visit me yesterday, but din, but today to come see me for me while too..

wanna thanks Ting, Yu ying, peiwen, yeecheng di, bh for sending their regards for me.. And also those elderly, like Gan Tz, De Zhang, and others who concern on me...

But most important is my family, my mother, my bro, especially my sis, she accompany me and help me do all the register for the hosptial thing.. Lastly, is wen... very very very gan ji her alot..

Now i back home le, resting.. and still got abit pain.. Anyway, my diagnosis is gastroenteritis.. This will happen if only eat those contaminated food or drink.. so i think that maybe is the overnight soup that cause me so jialat experience.. Sign.. I wont, and never eat those left over food again.. bec is really very very bad experience, and really cant describle how painful it is.. I got mc from 6/11 till 12/11/07.. but my sch no use one, still will count as absent.. but anyway tml might go sch.. next thurs first paper.. sian.. Jiayou...

Tiger with us for 7months plus le...

2007-11-04T23:15:00.001+08:00

Time fly fast.. He grow so big... I Love him so much...

and become...

13 more days to 8 months old le.. ["^U^"]

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Recently, feeling not very gd.. But wanna thanks to Jie, cos she is worry for me... care and concern of me.. But anyway, I still can manage my emotional.. Dont Worry..

{Really hope that everything will be fine soon, bec I wanna see you happy again.. ["^U^"] As long as you are unhappy, I wont be happy anyway.. }

Afraid n Happy!!!

2007-09-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

Today went to Diao Lao Shi Lin Chuang.. My feeling is.. very very afraid, heart beat quite fast during the lunch time.. Cos I am deciding going or not.. if going really quite scare.. But since this Jan attend her Zhen Jiu Practical, I quite like it.. Last week I din go bec all my groupmates din go, and also I haven finished studying my Xi Yi Nei Ke Exam, so in the end din go.. But this week, dont have anything, or exam, so really hope to go.. But then when heard that my grpmates not going again, I abit sian, cos no one accompany me.. And i really really scare scare if i am the only one going..

But in the end I went for the 2pm Prac this afternoon.. I 针 for all the 5 patients, asking them their 主述， and also come out with some of the 穴位... I did told her that some of the words i might forgot how to write for the 主述, and will write in pingying then she said ok, dont worry.. then later Diao Lao Shi also said that my 穴位 is ok, and let me 针 those 穴位 that i think of.. The first time I 针足三里 and 三阴交 for the first patient, is not so accurate, so Diao Lao shi tell me that my 足三里 is abit lower, and my 三阴交 is too far behind the bone, in the end she help me adjust.. Then later, for the 2nd patient, He got ear problem, and 腰痛， and so i suggest to 针听宫，大肠俞，肾俞，委中.. but in the end i din 针听宫，although i know where the place is, i scare to zhen there, cos i din zhen before.. so i decided to 针大肠俞，肾俞 first.. But the problem is I din zhen those xue wei myself before.. Usually my groupmates will tell me where is the point, or the teacher will point to that specific place, then i will zhen it.. but then this time is i have to find the place myself, luckily I did ask wen during lunch time on how to find the 定位. Then I pray to god, and 针大肠俞，肾俞.. and when teacher come in and check, she said this, 针不错.. then later she continue, haven zhen the ear, then i say yea, so she help me zhen, and i continue with my 委中穴.. o

Overall, today I 针 abt 10 穴位，they are, 足三里，三阴交，大肠俞，肾俞，委中，太冲，环跳，昆仑，阴陵泉，内外膝眼。。 in the end she said my 委中穴 is 针得很好。。 she also said that she din comment on my 太冲穴 is bec the position is accurate.. But But But.. she said that my 定位 is correct, but some of my 精准角度 still not very gd, then call me to go home and practice.. Yeap, Thanks Diao Lao Shi.. I am very glad that I did come for the practical, and I did learn alot from her.. And i am very 满意with my performance today, cos i din make very big mistake.. Hehe... ["^U^"] Then I thanks her for teaching me, and she said that as long as i am willing to learn, she will teach me, and also if i have any problem in 针灸, i can come to look for her on every wed.. Yup.. Feeling very gd after today practical!!!

Cant swimming, cant jogging.. Argz!!

2007-09-17T18:32:00.000+08:00

This coming sun is Su Shi Yuan You Hui, hopefully watever I had planned in mind, will come true in this sun.. esp 渡人，my gd friend.. I have been waiting for abt 8 years le.. is hard for them to believe me, but no matter wat, I will sincerely and will be patiently to wait for them to believe in whatever i say, really hope them to find back their trueself.. Just only once believing in me will do, but hope when time ripe ba.. Jiayou Jiayou!!!

This coming fri is the Xi Yi Nei Ke exam, hai.. abit sian.. but will try hard studying well.. Today the new 2nd year exam results out again, cos that time they forgot to include one of the subject which is ZHong Yi Shi (history), so to my surprise, my overall percentage drop by abt 1%, but my class position increase by 7.. Really stunned sia.. REally very Man Yi with the 2nd year result le, but again, my more concern is this coming exam, and graduate exam next year.. Just work hard, let my Lao Mu An Bai Wo De Lu..

Sometimes will think back tat, actually initially I am not going for the Ren Cai class, bec really scare that if i too busy, i cant cope with my study, then bec of wat Aihua jiejie, she said that not everytimes will have the chance.. So later I decided to go for the Ren Cai Class, and in my heart, I told myself that that let my god arrange my way ba.. Is true, Lao mu always be there for me.. Xie Xie Lao Mu Niang.. To some of my friends, indeed it seems that i am quite busy all the times, and sometimes cant manage my time well, but I am very enjoyed in every process.. especially the Musical Performance in June Su Shi Hui.. Abit Ke Xi that we dont have the chance to perform again for the Le Lin (those old ages) in the Nov.. But is ok, cos we will always have LiaoYuan chances in future... ["^U^"]

Recently quite sway.. since national day, i have been Gan Mao 3 times till now, then i cant go jogging or swimming.. My teacher call me not to go execrise.. then last week, I feel that I am ok liao, so i went to swimming on Tues and wed.. Long time din swim le, but that day I swim for 20 laps, abt an hour.. After two days of continuously, my knee start to pain as i walk.. then later i c my zhen jiu teacher, he said that my inner part of my left knee ligament (Ren Dai) was injuired bec i swim too much le la.. then my Gu Shang ke teacher also say that my Nei Zhe Ren Dai Shun Shang.. He said that one month later then can fully recover.. When i heard that, really feel so sian.. hai.. dont know when can i go execrise again.. now using the Knee guard, which i brought on last fri, bec teacher say that the ligament injury is not very serious, but if dont take care well, it affect the Ban Yue Ban bone, then it will be very serious, jialat le.. signZ..

Now going home le.. using sch comp.. sian sian sian...

失望！伤心！绝望！

2007-09-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

[[喜欢你，不是我能选择的！想念你，不是我能控制的！这是缘分，也是我对你的感觉。。这种感觉，是很强，很强，让我至今不能自拔。。若能选择，我会把你忘掉，也会对你的想念减少，但是，对你的感觉，仍然存在，想念仍然增加。。当想念越多，都会在梦里见到你！我很喜欢，也很珍惜每一次的梦，但回到现实，有时会感觉到失望，曾经你说过我也是你最重要的人，但有时，我感觉不到。当我开心时，我很想和你分享，当我有事或不开心时，我也很想你能陪我度过，但是你却。。我很难过，难过到我又为你掉下眼泪，已经有一年多没有为你掉眼泪了。。以后若有机会，我会离开这里，去到很远的地方，但我依然会给你祝福，因为你幸福，我就快乐。。]]

Sick le!!

2007-08-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday 5.30am I woke up by my mother, bec we are going to prepare to go to Malacca.. August 9 is National Day, but is also my mother 母堂周年，every year my mother and other Tz will go there to 庆祝周年，who is Huang Tai Shan DCS's temple.. and also is Huang Tai Shan DCS 1 year passed away 纪念日。This is my first time i agree to accompany mum to go malacca to 庆祝周年... So early in the morning Bro drive us to the gathering place at bubit batok as those Tz and Qian Xian Men already wait for us in the bus.. I thought the bus is 6.30am leave, but mum said is 6.15.. So we late for 7 min..

Btw, it was raining, and when we reach there, we get out of the car and then board the bus, in the mean time, I 淋到雨了.. The bus air con is quite cold.. and so I 感冒了。。 Since 6pm in the evening, I start to cough and always 打喷嚏。。 During dinner time, I can feel that my whole body start to 酸痛了..

By the time I reached home is ten plus at night, I start to having fever.. All those 症状 worsen, and head start to pain and feel 重重.. So mum give me drink something, i think is vit C before I sleep.. I slept at 11pm, which is my only earlier sleeping time, but then I woke up at 2plus.. Bec other than going to toilet, but i feel very uncomfortable.. Just feel very 热 and pain.. quite weak.. but then went to sleep again.. but then I keep waking up at every 2 hours, or 1 hours, till i work up at 8plus, I still feel uncomfortable, then mum use her hand to touch my forehead, she also feel that I 发烧了。。 so I decided not to go for sch today.. and also i got Practical in the afternoon, i know that i cant be able to go for the prac bec is either I will transfer my evil qi to the 病人，or they will transfer the 邪气 to me, which will worsen my 病情.. So I sleep till nearlly 1pm then wake up..

Now still feeling quite uncomfortable, still got those 症状，except that the 热退了.. Here pain there pain.. now feel 无气 and 无力... sign.. hopefully tml will feel better..

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9 of Aug, 2am plus, finally Miss wong has replied me.. On monday, after I get to know my exam result, I sms to her.. Every year when i got back my results, i will let her know.. Bec she is one of the reason for me to study TCM.. I am very happy to saw her replied, eventhough is a bit late.. but is ok.. Initially I thought she is away at other country, or she has lost her hp, that why din reply me back initially.. only when receieve the sms then i know why..

She sms saying that.. "Hi. Cudnt reply earlier. Been sick, n busy. :) v happy for u. U have improved! I believe u will continue to do well!Take care of urself, ok? When u graduate, i can happily say i know a doctor! Heh heh :>"

Btw I replied her saying that not doctor, is sinseh.. Hehe.. Anyway hope she has recover from her sick.. and also I told her that for her sake, i will work even more harder, and also for the graduate exam next year.. She asked me before why i want to study tcm.. At first i dont dare to tell her, bec I scare that i will half way drop off, bec that time during first year, really damned hard for me.. Then she insisted to know, so I said ok la.. is.. is bec... bec of.. other than my mother, the other reason is bec of u la.. I know at that time she was very touched, and surprised.. How come? She did share with me some of her thing, especially her leg pain thing, that is why i told myself once i become a sinseh, i will wanna to help her, or lesser the pain.. this thinking is when i am in the age 17, but only in age 21 i finally tell her this.. To be true, studying this tcm is really quite difficult, and very hard for me.. Even though i can do well for some of the tcm subject, i still really dont know alot of thing.. bec memorising and knowing is two different thing..
But will try my very best for this sem, and next year exams.. Jiayou..

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Specially for BH,

Sorry that in the past I have been harsh to u.. That is bec i dont wanna let you feel that we got a chance.. and sorry for wasting ur past 6 years waiting for me.. Pls go find other gal who is more pretty, and better than me.. I dont believe in 培养感情.. If i got abit admire you, or crush on you, i will have already accept you in the past few year, and no need wait till now.. You understand.. Actually u r a very gd 条件to choose u, bec u got a stable life, you got a car, and if really be with u, we wont have financial problem.. But u know that I am not this kind of person who look for money, right.. Sorry if i have type here and make you feel quite uncomfortable, but I really want to let u know that 我们是不可能的。。 Sorry again.. and also for not giving u any chance.. but really really pls pls.. there are always gd gals outside waiting for u.. ok... we can be gd friends right.. Sorry BH...

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Stop here, going to sleep and rest le..

Sianz... Hai & ["^U^"]

2007-08-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

To u.. I am sorry if I have said something that I din think through my mind,and u feel dislike or uncomfortable.. But I din mean it.. Really very sorry... Dui Bu Qi!!

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Today went to my mum stall, so surprise to see HiS Mum.. Din really talk to her, cos i dont know wat to say.. Later she and my mum worker come to my hse.. and stay for quite sometimes... anyway is my mum friend, and i dont bother much.. Just feel Diao!!

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Finally my result is out.. I am very happy with my performance..wanna Thanks to Wen.. Bec of her, I can do quite well.. Cos we study together, when I lazy, she will give me jiayou, or i also give her encouragement too.. Btw, i also feel that she has doing quite well for june exam.. ["^U^"] Last week, mummy said that if I can get top 20 in my class, total of 80 classmates, then she will buy me a very very big present.. Then I said siao, how can be, I am not so pro sia.. Cos those top 10 and top20 in my class mostly come from other country, mainly china, they are so pro, so hardworking.. Then she said that then dont compared with china friend, as along as i am still in top 20 in singaporean, then she buy me thing.. But then how i know.. Anyway, she will be buying Badminton racket for me... Hehe..

YuYing keep beating me at my shoulder and buttock after she saw my result.. Haha, cos I win her 3 subjects.. Then she beat me bec she said this.. you see, you can study well.. but you always din come sch, always missed lesson, and yet still can score on those subject.. Then I said yaya.. Hehe.. I know she is playing with me, she is one of those 长辈 in my class who quite care and concern of my study, always encourage me and she also advice me to start studying now.. But when I say i got other thing to do first (especially my religion thing), then she say dont care for me liao, then i told her that okokla, from next week onward la.. then she smile.. btw, she is top ten.. very very pro sia...

And also wanna thanks to Lao Mu and my dad too..They are my force to work hard, and also I believe they have help me during the exam.. Really!! ["^U^"]

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But the most happy thing is that I am going to have dinner with Apple, next week ba.. bec she said that she wanna treat me as a encouragment for me.. I am happy not bec of the treat, is bec can see her again.. ["^U^"]

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Recently ZQ contact me again.. Apple and wen dont like him.. but I know wat i am doing.. I wont interfere into his family.. we can only be friend.. but anyway thanks to him for care and concern of me.. Recently I got 失眠， i admit is bec thinking of him, those past thing.. sign.. I will try...

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Someone is my class told me that I shdnt be a vegetarian, and shldnt have a lot of commitment in my relgion, cos saying that i shd be doing and working hard in my study, not for now, but in the future.. But i dont seem anyway wrong for now.. He is a nice uncle, maybe he wanna me to do well in my 凡事 first.. Hehe..

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["^U^"] Jiayou!

20072007

2007-07-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

20/07/2007 is Wen Sen and JinWen Birthday!! Ting, Sally, Wenlin and Me brought a blackforest cake for the two of them.. and we celebrated in our class after sch.. Then when they make a one min wishes, I quickly grab a small portion of cake and put it in their faces.. haha.. As for Wen Sen, I know I am very 没大没小, shdnt like that, but i know she wont angry of me la.. I treat her like a mum mum, who always care and concern of me.. Cos on tues, she help me zhen jiu, then i paiseh to take off my cloth, then she say, she can be my mother, no need paiseh.. Hehe..

Then went ktv with Ting, Wen and me only.. THen went to Lao Di Fang eat, really very 反胃， cos of the chocolate milk bubble tea.. sign, cant finish my food.. Then went to Cinelesiure to take Da Tou Tie... I really enjoy alot, and very happy to be with them, cos always play with them.. I know i old liao, and they are 2 years younger than me, and i shd be more mature, but then I still seem so childish to play with them.. Haha.. Really very happy..

Wen 21 years old le, hm.. so fast.. know her only when she was in age 19.. I feel that I really old alot liao.. sign..

Yea, also still got a bday gal, who is another wen.. Later in the afternoon going to celebrate for her, with Ting, Wen, Ting's friend Xiao Lan, and maybe others, dont know.. will blog again on mon ba...

针灸临床！Great!!

2007-07-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to ZhenJiu Practical, this is the 2nd time we attached to this teacher, 林文海医师，i really like his practical.. cos he teach us alot.. And he let us 针病人 throughout the whole process.. He told us that we must 敢敢针，dont be scare, like that then can learn.. Out of 5 or 6 病人，I 针 2 of them.. Some 穴位 is not accurate, cos i based on my palm to measure.. Although I know that we shd use 病人palm to take the measurement, then teacher say is ok, since is still at the 经上。。
I am quite happy that I able to 针 the 膝眼穴，this is my 2nd attempt.. cos last time, my friend cant 针 into the 病人的膝眼穴 during the first attempt, that why usually teacher will take over.. Maybe I am by luck one..

This is also my first time to 针风池穴， cos I have been very afraid of this 穴位。。 if not careful, might 针 into our 延髓，cos danger problem.. Usually in the past, some 医师 use only 1 inch needle, but when I going to 针病人时，teacher say use 1.5 inches.. OMG.. Really quite scary.. anyway I 鼓起我的勇气，and try lor.. Haha, i think i only 针 till 0.6/0.7 inches only, cos really afraid to 针 too deep.. then teacher take over, he 针 till 1.2/1.3 inches.. He say that 浅针 might not be so effective..
["^U^"]..

Before the prac going to end, Shuxin help me 针曲尺穴 and Youying 针 my 合谷穴。 Cos on thurs, I go play badminton with my Tcm Friends.. I think I play quite long, and quite Siong liao, then till now my right hand, especially 肩部and 肘部 quite 酸痛。。Thats why i ask my friend to help me 针曲尺穴&合谷穴.. Then later teacher help me do some 骨伤推拿手法.. Hard to describe here.. Anyway, the first attempt was so shocking.. My 胸椎 there got clark clark sound for the first attempt.. Then I began to feel so afraid, then he help me do till my 腰椎 for the 2nd attempt.. wow, really feel so great after that.. Thanks to 林文海teacher.. ["^U^"]
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Till now havent learn bike, cos my friend unable to return me money.. Abit sian.. Really feel quite dissapointed.. But again, my 大姨 dont allow me to learn.. She said in a very serious tone.. They keep saying that is very danger one.. Hai! When my friend return the money le, then asked mum again whether she allow it ot not lor..

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I have not start my revision according to what i have planned.. Cos really too tired, and recently sleep alot.. Hopefully next week can start, if not will start on Aug liao.. Alot of thing need to remember sia.. Argz... And also 人才班 need to start memorise SanBao le.. See how ba.. Sun Qi Zhi Ran, and also let LM arrange my life path ba..

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Take care!!! Jiayou Jiayou!!!

Gan Xie to our Da De SHi Qian Ren!!!

2007-07-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just now I went to check my email, and i saw Aihua jiejie send us a website, and so I went in.. To my surprise, is Guo Ming Yi DCS's blog.. I was so excited and so happy.. Cos He is my Idol since age 19, cos in year 2003, I read one of his book, which is <给求道人一本书>, i think so, cant remember.. but what i know is that the book is very pro, and i began to attracted by his book, his past story, and of cos him! Lin Qian Ren and Guo DCS is my Idol, whom I really like them alot, and wanna learn from them, their wisdom, and their action..

Below is from Guo DCS's blog, one of it.. is about Shi Qian Ren.. Wanna share with my Tao Family...

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思念一位殉道者－施前人 2007/4/12

清明時節思念起一位德者－施前人

最後一次和前人一起用餐時，是2001年去新加坡講課吧！

午餐吃過，前人拿出一大把藥，份量足足可以湊成一盤菜。

道親說：前人的行李中有一半是藥，他就這樣帶著一大行李的藥，世界各國去辦道，去開法會，最後去開大懺悔班。

2000年在台灣全省巡迴的懺悔班，前人特准天一的後學跨組參加。那一場懺悔班。許多道親真實的感受到業障消失了，生命變得輕盈，宛如重獲新生般快樂。包括妻子、女兒，都有幸得到這千載難逢的機會。

不久聽到施前人巡迴完主持台灣的懺悔班後，又陸續的前往新加坡、澳洲去開懺悔班。

隨即而來的消息是前人病倒了，不久得知前人已病重，接著傳來噩耗前人歸空了。距懺悔班不到一年，還來不及向前人道謝，來不及感恩，

前人已悄悄走了六年了，每次心中浮現他慈悲的面容，想起他諄諄教誨，常令我鼻酸。他的身上有多少道親沉重的業障，他的肩上有數不清的道親累劫的業障。他一肩挑起、一力承擔。他將我們如山一樣高大的業障扛在肩上悄悄帶走，這一生是無法回報他的大恩大德了。

希望那些參加施前人最後的大懺悔班的道親，

不會忘記施前人，也不要忘記懺悔班那天所立下的誓願。

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So after reading this, what is your feeling now?

As for me, 感触很多，也很惭愧，很对不起施前人， bec I am also of one of those who attended the 懺悔班，受前人的恩惠，also 来不及道谢，来不及感恩.. But now, even though he has left us, I know that in order to 报答 him, the only way is to 修道，渡人，了愿, especially those who also attended the big Can Hui class。。

Sometimes I might be laZy in doing Liao Yuan thing, or if really oneday I might slow down in Liao Yuan, I do hope my fellow Tong Xiu Friends will 互相勉励，鼓励, in this 修道 road..

["^U^"]

Still extremely TIRED!!

2007-07-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

Eversince the sch start, I have been sleeping a while for ten min during lesson, esp at 11am plus.. Really very tired.. This sem courses seem fun to me.. I like the
骨伤科 & 五官科.. The rest ar.. so so only... This week is quite jialat, cos got 4 days of 临床，cos actually I have 3 Prac this weeks, which is on tues, fri and Sat, but then bec Jing JIng wanna exchange one of the prac (wed) with me, cos she is now 坐月子.. So i help her lor.. Cos i am free too, just that quite tiring..

Today just started playing Resident Evil 3, got abit addicted le.. Actually wanna play Harvest moon, but sis dont wanna return me my psp initially, then i dont have my save data.. Before playing RE3, i tried the Psp Harvest moon, is totally different from the psone harvest moon.. quite complicated.. I think i still prefer the psone harvest moon.. But maybe when sis return me the savedata, i will be going to play ff8 first, cos i really wish i can complete it... always play half way, quite sian.. but also must study well too la.. cannot neglect study..

Laptop finally repair liao, thanks to Yu Dian and her BF... ["^U^"]

My two cat keep fighting again.. Actually tiger right eye has recover le, since last sun, but then this week, they fight again, now tiger both eyes surrounding red red again, tear keep coming out.. signs.. they so naughty.. Tiger now still ok, still can play... and he seems like growing bigger and heavier.. Blackie also got 小肚肚..

Hai.. Sian...

Finally drive Manual Car Le!!!

2007-06-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

It has been nearly 3 years that i din drive manual car, since now mum auto car is under repairing, then got this chance to drive this rent manual car... At first very jerky, really not used to it.. and only die car during reverse.. haha.. btw, now then i know that the car during the accident is call nissan fairlady, which is 3500cc... Hm.. Really 跛财挡宰！！

Hai, wanna learn bike this time round, but then i spent my money on helping my mum to pay something else, now waiting for my friends to return me money... really hope so.. Hai~

My tiger and the backie keep fighting, till tiger's right eye injured and the liquid, so call Nong, keep coming out... Then we use Lao Mu tea, Xia Zhuo to clean his eye, and just within a day he is now ok liao... Wow.. Really Gan Xie Lao Mu!!! and also that time blackie got some smell on his body, after wash it with Xia Zhuo tea also, now dont have the smell.. ["^U^"]

Recently really miss my twin sis, din really see her... Now back home le, still wont be able to see her till sat, cos only by then she is coming home.. Cos she need to work, and stay at her bf hse.. Hai~~

Today do a something bad, and make my concieous feel so Nei Jiu.. I lied to my cousin, Xiao Qin Jie Jie, who is my niece Nyssa mum.. Everything is too sudden, wanna help Nyssa, but in the end has to cheat XQ jiejie.. Really very sorry!! Bec XJ Jiejie wanna know nyssa blog, and i only yest then read her blog, i dont dare to give her, cos niece blog got love thing.. I then no choice has to inform niece to faster deletee those love thing from the blog, but in the end, XQ jie jie knows it..
I really very sorry to XQ jiejie, and as Nyssa Aunt, I really do hope she will focus more on her studies and not relationship.. Cos since young till now, i din give up on her, i know she is a gd gal, gd child.. but hope she will be more filial to parent and even to grandparent, and listen to them!!! Anyway, Nyssa, I din blame you, and i know you will be better, right.. all the best in your study!!!

A Camp, C Camp & Performance!!

2007-06-24T21:58:00.001+08:00

Recently I was very busy, really dont have time to blog and check mails.. After went to B Camp, I continued attend the A camp 18/06-19/06/07 (Help up in Medic), and also my own C Camp 21/06-23/06/07.. The rest of the other days, my Jue De Friends and Me were having rehearsal, practicing those songs for the performance, which is today... I was very extremely tired cos I only sleep for 3.5 hours plus, extremely exhuasted.. Last year C camp, i was force to go, but now, I choose to go and i really din regret, cos i did learn alot of thing from there, I will share it the other times... Very touching...

As for today Performance (combine with Chinese and Western Instruments-Got Cello, Flute, Zhong Luan, Liu Qing, Harmonica and Keyboard), I grade myself as 7 points, cos I did made a mistake at the first song 但愿人长久.. Cos i was quite panic, since young got stage fright.. Cos actually i need to play the Break after the Verse, but in the end, I played the chorus.. I think my performance friends shd be shock ba.. As a result I solo, but when i played back the verse, they joined in, and after the verse, when i know that I cant match the song with them, i stop and let them play, and later i just end the song.. Bec I was memorising the song, so i din see the score, thus bec of stage fright, I really forgot and missed it, but luckily we got Mo Qi and able to finish playing the song..

As for the 2nd song 对您的思念 which is my composed song and 3rd song 感恩的心, there is no mistake..Overall, I grade the Performance 9 points.. is all my fault.. But really wanna Thanks them alot.. They are HuiWen, JianJun, YeeTing, Zhengnong, YinMei, YiZhong, YuPin, QingHong, XinHui and AiHui.. Really Thanks to them for this success performance.. Cos i did ask those who watch the Performance, they really dont know that I do make a mistake for the first Song.. Haha.. Maybe for those gd in music one, they know it ba.. But again is still quite a success performance.. ["^U^"]

Btw, after the B camp, I gained 2 kg, that is bec my normal meal is actually at the afternoon and night, but those camp, they got breadfast, lunch, dinner and supper.. Cos really very tired after every activities, thus really must eat, if not no energy.. And after those A and C Camp, i think i increase even more.. Cos from some of the pic, I realised that my face is abit round liao... Argz... But nevermind, from tml onwards, I will do more execrise and some dieting ba...

Sch going to start liao, still got one week holiday, I will be meeting up with my sec, poly friends, and rest well too.. This few weeks, even though i am very busy, as a result very tired, I really feel that is worth it, and I am very happy..The happiness is not like buying those thing you like, but is gaining, and learning the experience.. :)

Btw, during my first day of C camp, my mother got car accident.. I cried when i saw the msg sent by my sis.. The impact of both car crashing is quite great, cos the incoming car which is Nissan Skyline (not sure, but i only know that in singapore, only a few of this type) is so fast, and hit onto my mother driver sit direction, and thus my mother car spin and hit to the Lan Gan... Luckily my mother is not very very serious injured, she cannot move her right hand, and her head swallon too.. only my mother injured, my uncle and the other car driver and his friend dont have any injury.. Actually since last year, after read my mother palm, i know that she will be having a 劫数 during her age 40plus plus, and i really pray to God, really hope that she will overcome this..Really grateful to Lao Mu.. Xie Xie Nin..

I stop here, going to rest liao...

Below is some of the pic during C Camp..

ZhengNong Bday, my Jue De Friends..

Our first day Dinner Buffet Food

Our Drinks, Thanks to DCS!!

She is also elder Twin, Call Wan Qi.. Really hope next time can take pic with her Sis Wan Hua too..

Take care... Nite!!!

B Camp 2007

2007-06-16T01:15:00.001+08:00

B Camp (12/6-14/06/07).. First time went to B camp as a Dai Dong Zhe, and also being appoint as 2nd IC... Really very enjoyed in this three days.. and I really learnt alot from this Camp.. Where is our Home? Why Do you love your family? Filial?
This camp is specially for those age 13 to 16, still studying in sec.. During the first day, we first went to Tian Hui for briefing.. Rong Sheng and Me are incharge for this group call 和气 (combination of Jie De, Jue De, Wen De, and one more forgot le), and of cos there are still other Dai Dong Zhe.. After, we went to NTU.. Cos this is the place where we will be staying and all the activities will be at NTU..

During this 3 days, our 道学营流程 are 你动了吗？，寻找自己，丘前人-一步一脚印，爱它有多少，其实我也做得到，点亮心灯照亮家园之夜，元气大做战 and lastly 拼出爱的家庭。。 Some of it, i din join them.. I really feel quite 可惜， that i really unable to accompany them for all those station, and learn from the station.. that is bec during the first 2 days of the camp, other 班员 from other group is either headache, stomache, fever, or injured the hand, i was called by those full comm to assist in them.. I only pressed their 穴位，and only 刮痧 for them, and they are ok by then.. I am very happy to see them feeling better... Of cos we have western Medic, one of the Medic i know is XueLi, she wont advice them to take panadol... thus she will call me for help.. She is expert in treating those injured hand, muscle injuries.. and I learn abit from her too..

And also, I have been sleeping quite late during the camp, bec as a 2nd Ic, I have to go for the IC Meeting after the event of the Day, actually is first Ic going, but bec RongSheng has to take care of Rong Guang, so i volunteer to help him.. as for the 2nd nite, RongSheng and me attended the meeting again.. everyone seems very tired, and i feel that is gd to have the meeting so that we can discuss which place we still can improve, and those Ban Yuan feeling on those stations and games.. In the end, i only sleep for 4 hours plus during the first 2 days...

My niece, Nyssa also going, as Aunt, or 带动者， i really hope that she has learn some few thing, or gd point from this camp, hope that she will treat her parent more 孝顺，听话, and also dont shout back to them, and also especially her grandparent, who is my Da Yi and Da yi Zhang.. and most important thing is filial to them..

Lastly i really enjoyed myself in the B camp, and also learnt alot from it, learnt what? I have written on my small book, ( which liqing, huanying and wenjun brought for me one), now very tired to type here.. Next time then write something which is very meaningful one in this blog.. Stop here, cos now is already 1.55am.. Still got other event coming, such as 素食会， so will be practicing my songs, rehearsal, and also very excited for the coming C camp next week ( on thur to sat, at NTU too).. Btw, bec of B camp, i have cut my tail.. cos 我知道若我能度过B Camp, but during C Camp i cant.. That is bec Yu Feng Ming TZ has told me since 2 months ago that she hope that she wont be seeing my tail again during june.. Hm.. a bit Pity, but i know that i must set a gd example for my Ban Yuan.. Stop here going sleep le.. Nite...

Below is my Group.. also can go to view at my album...

Happy For Jie!!!

2007-05-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

Jie got her temp job at tuas, is Pfizer Wor.. Is her 心愿 to work in there ba.. Very happy for her.. Even though she might be very worried for her exam results, I think this is another big gift for her.. Anyway Jie, dont worry too much, Ok! Life is full of ups and downs.. 有好也有坏！Is like you loose something, and you also gain others.. Right.. :)

This 2 days din attend lessons, instead, study at sch library.. Hm... Still ok, everything is smooth, able to study finish wat i have plan on that day! Recently keep thinking of`what i will be doing during june holiday.. maybe after my performance for Shu Shi Hui, wanna go for holiday... or maybe wanna go learn bike.. I have been saving some money, but maybe only enough for 2 or 3 lesson, really hope my friend can return me money, so that i can afford to learn bike.. quite excited.. Really hope that I can learn the bike this time round... Really hope so..

If not, i think will be going to Jiu Jiu there liao to make my hair... See first ba..

Tml going to library at woodland to study, with Wen.. going sleep le.. Nite!

18 Days to 3rd Exam Paper!

2007-05-10T00:59:00.000+08:00

Recently I have not been doing what i have planned... Feel quite sian, lazy!! Hope by 20 of May can finish study Wen Bing Xue, and Xi Yi Nei Ke, and also touch a bit of Zhen Jiu.. My dear God, pls help me to overcome all these...`Jing Li Er Wei!

Today is my father 2nd year pass away anni.. But mum say is chinese 3 years liao.. Miss Daddy alot, hope he also can Bao You Wo in doing well for my studies.. ["^U^"] Time really fly fast.. if dad still alive, maybe my life will be better, cos he always will be there for me, and support me during my exam period.. Hai!!

2 days ago, while i was studying at sch library, my bro call me asking me wanna have dinner with him, sis and sis bf... Then we went to Lao Di Fang... after then they wan to watch spiderman3.. so i was considering as i haven finish study what i have planned.. But then i agreed to watch with them..The movie was nice.. But i was very tired...

what i have learnt...
[You can make a CHoice if you want to do so!!!]

Going sleep now, tml still got lesson from 9.15 till abt 5.. But i dont wish to attend their lesson, rather might stay in library to study on my own.. See First Ba!

["^U^"]

2 Exam Papers over liao... Yet still go 4 more to go!

2007-04-27T18:37:00.000+08:00

Today after my last exam on may, feel quite happy, but also very tired.. As for my performance, hm.. I think my hardwork has pay off.. Almost everyday either stay at sch library, at home, or at Mac studying for almost whole day, sometimes really feel so sian.. And more siansation thing is that my mum and bro now is at Taiwan since mon.. 2 days ago while i am studying for waike, bro msn me, saying that they are having great fun, and the next day they will be going to farm.. Then i replied him saying that haha your species COW.. in the end we LOL... SO envy them.. cos they are having fun while i have to force myself to study! But ok la, everything for now is over, will be resting till mon.. and also will be playing with my ff8 again on my psp, cos this is my 3rd time playing.. First time was during my sec time, but din complete, another one is during my Poly time, but again fail to complete! Hopefully will complete by this year.. But will continue play after my june exam.. Cos will start to study HARD again from next week onwards for May and June EXAM!

Btw, Yu Ying told me that Teacher has marked finish our Waike Paper, and half of our class (abt 40 plus) got 90 marks and above.. Hope I will be one of them.. Hehe, but cannot confirm, only confirm that i will got at least 80marks and above!! As for today exam, some mcq and and Shi Fei Ti might be wrong, cos some not sure... Hope this is a gd start for me, so that I can able to do well for the rest, so that i wont Dui Bu Qi with my mum, and my fav Teacher Miss Wong.. :)

But this coming may and june will be my very very busy time, cos will be having activities on June, and also my Jue De Group performance.. Sometimes scare that I wont be able to manage well with my time, but anyway, i will leave all this to GoD to arrange for me... Just try my best.. ["^U^"]

Btw, my tiger is growing quite big liao.. and is very very naughty! Keep wanna playing with me.. Sometimes when i still haven wakeup in the morning, he will bite me... He seems like my alarm clock.. He is cute.. Really love him alot.. and now he is about 800g in weight... Time fly fast, and now he has been living with us for a month and 10 days liao... ["^U^"]

Stop here, cos later going to have our meeting at my hse for the june performance.. Shd be musical performance, Keyboard and those Hua Yue, Chinese instrument! Hehe!

Anyway, for those who are now having exam, especially my poly friends, gd luck for your exam!! And Jie, dont think too much.. All the best!!

Exams make me crazy!! Siansation!

2007-04-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

Now is 8.29pm, and I am still in sch.. Just finish studying my Wai Ke Subject on those 16 Q&A... It was damm Tired... Tml still have to study Shan Han Lun Q&A, and still got 9 more questions to go.. Monday then study Waike MCQ and Bing An... Sign...

Really hate exam, hate studying... Yesterday told mum that I begin to hate studying especially exam.. Then mum replied me that if no exam, how u know your standard...
Diao... Hai... But anyway, this sem will also try my very best in coming exam.. One of the motivation come from my Fav Teacher, Miss Wong.. Hehe.. Cos on last Mon wanna call her out for KTV with Juan, Sherry, Xi and me, but she is very busy with her exam paper too, then cant make it.. I then replied back telling her not to stress up and must take care wor.. She replied me saying Haha.. I'd try to bear tt in mind.. U study hard.. I'm sure u wud do v well...

Hehe, ya hopefully... So will try my best in study although sometimes feel so sian and lazy... ["^U^"]

Eversince the missed call from ZQ, recently he did sms me.. Some is forward msg, but got one msg I really very surprised.

He said: 树有心眼,西下美女,手扶下巴,人在尔心,心死相依, 言及自己,是件家具,白色勺子,儿女双全,又谁(But without Yan, dont know wat is the word)一起,请猜猜一句话送给你!

So What is it? I sms him back to tell me the ans... And he replied 想要把你忘记真的好难... Hm... I...

Anyway, I stop here first, library going to close at about 9pm..

Happy Birthday Amy!! 2007

2007-04-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday Night went to Amy's Hse to celebrate her Bday.. But her actual Bday is on Sat.. They are my Best friends since Sec.. REally miss our Sec life..

Take care..

Below are Angie, Cathy, Amy, Sherry and Me..

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Fever for 2 days le..

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