Hate Myself......

Just came home from Tampines. Today very sway... I was suppose to meet my sis at tampines after my project to have our dinner there. About 7 plus then reached at tampines, then after we have met, we went to the vegetrian stall. So unlucky, the stall is going to close (at about 7.45pm) I was so disappointed as my main purpose to go there is to eat the food there as my sis say that the food there is very nice.. With my upset & extremely sian, with also my stomach is not feeling that well, I wanted to go home then eat. But then we went to a food court there and have our dinner. After that, I wanted to go to Mrt as I wanted to reached home early, but on the way there, my sis suggest to play arcarde. Initially, I insist not to go, but after she has request 2 times, then in the end I agreed.
But sway thing comes, after went to arcarde and play several times of music game, for the last time of playing, I suddenly remember that I forgot to take something.. I remember that I placed the plastic bag (inside include those strings, the hangphone chain, and those I have already made for my teachers) besides (on the right) the music game before I played the last game. I went back to the same spot, and the plastic bag is gone... I was so down and extremely extremely very sad.. Although the thing insides are not very expensive, but the strings belong to Juan one, and somemore, all my effort on making the handphone chain is somehow like wasted.. All my effort gone.. you know......
My sis saw me so anxious about it, and so she went to the reception there and ask if they receive any of the plastic bag. But, the answer is no... Then my sis called my cousin as he is a policeman. Then my cousin suggest her to call the police and made a report... At the meantime, I was very sian half, and wanted to bang myself to wall.. Really hate myself... My sis then went to each floor to check whether the plastic bag will be in the Bin or not, while I remain the the 5th floor. Then I msg to apple and told her about it..
After that, apple come and accompany.. She An Wei Wo alot.. In the meantime, we are waiting for policeman to come.. We waited for about half an hour and so... My cousin also arrived then. After all the checking, and watching the Bi Lu Tv (only the policeman can watch), is was about 12am plus... In the end, the policeman told me that he did not see any people carrying the bag out.. In addition, I still have to make statement as it is required. This take quite a long time.. About 1am then finished... Really wanted to say a million thanks to my cousin, Ah Bee, and also to Apple as they stayed with me till everything has finished...
Apple, really thanks when you be there for me.... And really sorry that let you so late reach home and accompany me for so long.. And Ah Bee Biao Ge, thanks for driving us back and sorry for troubling you...
Me now really sian sian sian....... U might think that those thing is only cost about $30 plus, but for me, is my effort of doing those thing.. I am really quite xin ku to do that... I will spent about 2 hours to complete one hp chain.. and those are really nice... Sometimes, me will do until very late at night... My effort is gone .... Sob sob... I know that you all might not understand.. nobody...
Alot of report have to do, and now happen this thing... I think I won't have a good sleep le.. Just couldn't, knowing that I will think think think of alot of thing.. Xiang Tai Duo Le.. I know.. Can't sleep well liao...
One last thing, I did not Blame my sis... I know that is all my fault... I am just so useless...