moodless life...

Wed, Raining...
Sad day... hen fan.. very stress, no mood.. very sian.. Recently not very happy.. alot of things need to do, no one understand me.. went to sec a few days ago, chat with uncle and auntie who sell drinks at the canteen.. chat for 1 hour till miss wong came down and look for me... we chat alot.. I get her point, I understand why parents will get quite worry for their children, their future...

I am very troubled, I cant get any sercure.. I dont know hows my future life will be.. That auntie said i must listen to my mother words.. I know, maybe they are correct.. I now start to dislike my life.. am i changed, yea, my jie said that.. I wanna be in my past me...

am i wrong... or i really made a wrong choice? shd i give up.. maybe.. going soon.. ??? wat are the things that missing, why i cant find that? something missing in my life.. How... FAN...

I am not happy since past 6 months.. i do not feel any happiness.. I wish i could go back.. I shd listen to my mum? my teachers? my friends? Shd i believe 它... Give up or not?

SobSob....

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This few weeks very cold, and also raining, have been riding.. Wholebody very sour pain, especially shoulder, and back.. and also my right and left hand too.. feng shi quite jiao lat.. I think i prefer driving than riding.. even though riding is cool and fun.. yesterday at cck, going back to Jw, at a juntion, my bike almost skipped..cos i look futher down the road, which is green light, but the nearest to me junction is red light, I quickly braked so hard, and i almost lost balance.. Cos ground was wet, raining abit heavy.. from then, dont dare to ride fast during raining day.. must forus and concentrate.. Hai.. pain here and there...

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