He likes me...

In China, the best way to look for a rent house is through agents.. but once everything done, eg.. those contract signed, the agent will not be bothered with the customer... watever we need help, or thing happen in this rent house, we shd find our house owner to settle, or we settle ourselves...

But our agent is different... he is very helpful to us, even our house owner warned us to be careful.. bec she told us that she din see so gd agents before... cos those agents will not be so helpful once they earned their commission...

He younger than me by age 1... same year as my bro... younger than my bro by 10 days... He... very care and concern of me... He... always worry of me... He... treat me quite gd... in the first place, my friends, ting and yuying they all already feel that he treat me so gd, bec he likes me... they told me, but i choose not to believe...

Actually, from my feeling and senses, I knew it.. but i choose to avoid... I just wan this feeling of me and him, in the of friendship to be continue...

When i lost my hp, he will come to my house to visit me.. when i sad, he will call me, he willing to spent his money on this hp bill... but i sometimes really very paiseh of that..

a few days ago, he QQ me.. but in the end we dont have thing to talk... as a result, he asked me a question..

He said... Jiajia, why are you so beautiful..
I smiled and replied... haha... I am not... since young till now, i just feel that i am normal me...
He said again... your inner heart (内在美).. You are too kind...

suddenly i thought of wat Jun told me, she said, that time when she and Pj at the agent stall, He... so happy to recieve my sms, and show to Jun... Hence, Jun alo feel that he likes me..

so I am playful, i asked him... will u woo me...
he replied... no... bec in china... must 门当户对。。
again he said.... If you are china person(中国人), i will woo u...
I then said... Yea, i am what.. I am chinese... haha...
he replied... no.. is if you are born in china...

To me, I feel that he is a gd guy, and thinks alot.. he know that even if we are together, it will be very tough.. we are from different background, different education and more... he is attracted by my kindness...for me.. i am attracted by his thinking， who will think for the sake of me...

I suddenly think of my previous ex.. a china guy, peng... peng is different from HIM.. cos peng always think of wat he wants, and just do.. like he woo me just bec he got gd feeling of me, but he din care or bother other thing.. such as are we fit to be together.. our education, our thinking... and alot.. watever his feeling now, he will want it, he dont care.. he is so impatient.. he dont like to wait.. that is wat i really dislike, cos he always think of himself.. not me..

(my sis dream of me and peng getting marry... haha.. i think my sis miss me too much)

but Him... totally different.. if he appeared before peng, I might consider him, and fall in love again.. even though i said that i wont be in a relationship who is younger than me..

Before i going to sleep.. i sent him a sms..

I said... li xun, thanks..able to know you as a friend who care and concern of me, think for the sake of me, i am really very happy.. I know, and i believe that you wont hurt me at all.. i believe that you are a gd bf, who really love your partner..and whoever gal be with you, will be having a gd happiness.. i am glad to know you as a friend who also think of my happiness..you will find a better, more kind hearted gal than me as ur gf.. gd nite..

He replied back.... pls la...I am ok.. pig... if i think we are suitable initially, i will have woo you already.. from the start i already wanna you to be my galfriend... but we are impossible..thus only can keep u in that pure relationship.. you are very kind.. i have been away from my hometown for so long, you are the only gal who i seen so kind hearted gal.. gals like you are going hard to find...see you like see myself in the past....

I really very appreaciate watever he did for me... but we both know that we are not suitable.. he give me the feeling of falling in love again.. really.. but... for now.. not yet.. he feels that i have been closing my heart so tightly that i really cannot believe in any relationship.. there is no eternal.. he really hopes that i can find a gd guy, who love me and give me happiness.. thanks li xun...

for me, i am happy with my life now.. maybe when the only guy in the future appear, able to change my thinking...

but for her... my promise.. i will remember... age 29... ["^U^"]