Continue with yesterday story....

Yesterday, I was extremely angry of myself. As a result, I hit my both hands onto the floor of the stage at the first level of CS. When I was very unhappy and still very angry, I just wanted to shout out or hit myself. But then I didn't have the chance to shout out, so I have been hit my hands onto hard object for several times...
Then, when I was hitting my both hands onto the floor of the stage, suddenly Apple's hand come out. As a result, I accidentally hit onto her hand.. I know that, that was pain.. so I ask her pain or not, but she say is not.. I am really sorry, Apple... Again, really thanks too.
I know that I shouldn't do all this thing... LM Niang, I know that you give me this Kao Yan, and yet I failed... After studying all those books for 2 months plus, I should be more Li Zhi Yi Dian. But still, I can't overcome this. I have try to Qu Diao Qi Qing Liu Yu, my emotion and yet I still Shi Bai Le.. I am still that emotional...LM Niang, I know that everytime you give me those tests, I always disappoint you.. I am also disappointed of myself too and really hate it too...
My right hand is now still swollened and abit of blue black.. I know is abit pain, but I don't care.. Till now, I am still very upset, siansation.. Alot of why, why and why is still in my head.. Perhaps, I am really Mei You Yong, always can't get through all those Kao Yan Ba..