Poly Ended, but still have to face other thing...

At last finish my 3 years poly life... During first year, wanna quit sch liao, but mum not allow.. I have to REN REN and REN until now, very happy, at last finish le... But a bit sad, cos cant see my classmates le.. No laughter, no playing, no joking... Really like my classmates alot..
After our last paper on wed (13/4), we went to East Coast Park for dinner.. Then also went to Changi ... During the long road, me and weixian's car block alan's car.. It was very enjoy and fun... Somemore challeng with Alan, dont wanna him to cut into my road... but in the end he will win me... He very pro sia... We have a great and fun in our last exam outing... Hehe...

Today also celebrate Amy bday, hope she do well and all the best in her future.. We stay at JP mac from 8pm till 10.30 plus pm, we just keep talking and talking.. Girls talk ma.. hehe.. Have a great time...Hope she is happy and enjoy with it...

Hm.. Recently very sad... and this affect my mood and no mood to study.. Dad illness has become bad to worst... Everytime studying in his table, will always hear him coughing.. And the way he cough, is very hard, and this make my heart to feel weak and scare... and he seem to become weaker and weaker in each day.. He is very weak, now when he start talking, he is breathless...

Today went with my parent to the hospital for dad check up, I was very sian sian and moodless... The doctor say that my dad cant do therapy in this present situation. No medicine can help him, nothing, we cant do nothing at all.. The doctor also say, now the cancer that are inside his lung will be growing alot and bigger.. and we cant do anything. We can only do, is to wait and wait, until he leave this world.. I hate his cancer, his cancer is so fiecre.. just a month, the cancer has mutiply alot and grow even bigger.. if two month later, the cancer will be more jialat.. Now, nothing can stop the growing of the cancer..

I was scare, sad and really very trouble by this.. He really suffer alot... Seeing him days and days become weaker, my heart very pain... Pain, pain and pain...

This is the second time of my feeling liao.. Like waiting for a person to slowly leaving this world, seeing their suffering.. the first time is bec of grandma.. Yan Zhen Zhen De kan Ta Li Kai.. now is dad.. ARGZ.. what can i do actually? I really dont know, I am lost.. totally lost... I can only treat him gd, filial to him.. but cant help him out of the suffer..

Everything change, lifestyle change and the feeling change... Those good times wont be back liao!!!!!