Hm.. How?

Just came back from jogging, but this time round A guy, my cousin accompany me.. Tml he say he wanna jog with me again... Hm.. Actually I thought that our this problem have solve, and I also thought tat he has given up on me liao, but it seems like still dragging.. I also told him those citeria that I told S guy, cos I think it would be fair to him too.. But after he knows, he said that he will change for sake of me.. Hm.. I always thought those citeria I set shd be tough for them and hope that they will give up eventually, but in the end, they still willing to change.. Argz.. I really dont wish to change them bec of me.. How? What shd I do? Is this my Kao Yan again, dealing with Love? If they really successfully met my citeria, then how? I dont wish them to change for the sake of me, cos I know i will touch by it in the end.. But.... Hai!...

There is a person I really like in the past, but I dont meant to go stead with him or what... I just like the feeling, feeling of close friends, feeling of care and concern he given to me, and that is enough for me.. Hm.. Izzit if I like a person, then must really be together? For me, I dont think so.. As long as he find his happiness, I will happy liao, and I mean it.. Is not that I Wei Da or what, is just that I easily feel contentment.. So what if I now got someone in my heart who I admire, can say Hao gan ba, then does it mean also need to be together?

I think that I really very scare, scare of touching those BGR again.. No matter is guys like me , or I like him, I just dont wish to get involve in relationship yet, cos no one can confirm me in future thing... I am just not prepared, really scare to get hurt again ba and as I mention earlier on, I will seriously consider my happiness.. SUN QI ZHI RAN...