Even more down..

Yesterday I am already extremely upset for losting my stuff, then one more Da Ji again.. I am more down. Really feel that Life is so meaningless.. LM Niang, you give me the 2nd test, and I still failed. To be truth, I really can't take it anymore. Whatever the coming test you going to give me, I will won't make it one.. I am still not Li Zhi as alot of thing I can't understand and still can't accept.
I really don't have the mood to do my FYP project at Irene's house. I really feel that I didn't do much. Really sorry to Irene and Desmond... Then I eventually found out the reason why we stop at 7pm for our work.. Thanks for your Xing Yi.. You wanted me to go home early to rest. I appreciate it.
But in the end, I didn't go home after ended of our work. I went to a place where I usually will go when I was very sad. I like the scenery of the place, the noise coming out from insects and the sound from the water... Somemore, the place is quite dark and not many people there.
I just want to be alone, thinking and crying out... Then some of the people there when walking pass me, will look at me... But I just don't care. Later, there was a indian man cycling bypass me. He kept turning back and look at me. I think he is purposely one. This is because when he cycled towards my direction for the 3rd time, he say hi to me. I just ignored him.. And then he still keep looking back.. Then I saw him, cycled to the next bench, on my left, stopped and sat at there.. I don't know what his intention, but I still don't care... This lasted for 20plus mins. This is because when the moment I left, I saw him cycled to away from my direction le... To me, I am not scare at all.. I just feel irritated. I know that if I still don't walk away, he will also stay there...
During this time, I know that my 2 friends and my sis are worrying of me.. But sometimes I can't reply back immediately as my hp battery is low.. Most of the time, when I was down, I just want to be alone, going to that place... I really don't intention to make all of you worry.. Really sorry and Pai Sei ar...
About 12.30am then reach home. When I was at my lift, my mother called me. She asked me where am I and why I still haven't back home. I told her I was at 10th storey le.. Then after my washing up and brushing, I asked my mother why she has not sleep. She said she was waiting for me, meanwhile she played her Hp game, jackpot.
Knowing that she might knows something about me, she kept asking what are the thing happen to me.. I think my sis has say something to her ba... Then I told her that indeed I was very upset of losting my hp keychain.. But then, she seem to know that I still got other problem that trouble me alot. Maybe she really understand me alot. After I told her, the first word from her mouth is Sa De... Silly... She has kept explaining to me and also told me to Da De Qi, Fang De Xia as she think that I have Kan De Tai Zhong... Some of her words didn't get into my head as I still really don't understand why this and that.. Perhaps I should learn to Fang De Xia more...
'Life' is really very Xing Ku... I extremely don't like it......