My life..

I am very tired, tired of everything.. Already plan to do what I suppose to do for today, but was very lazy.. Just receive 'His' msg.. I thought everything is over since the day I tell him my thought..

He said: I really dont know how to start off (telling me the truth), and know that I am wrong, pls forgive, but got one thing I didnt lie to you, and that is... Tai Po (where he always call me), I will like you forever...

Hm.. after reading this, I dont know what to reply him, and I don't think I will sms back.. Hm.. I realise that I dont have any feeling le when seeing this.. I wont be touch, my heart rate is still normal.. In my thought, appear only Oh, ok.. Doesnt have any special kind of feeling.. Hm.. Maybe I have already lose faith in BGR.. If knowing someone care, love for you, of course is a gd thing, but this wont be last.. I prefer eternal happiness compared to present happiness.. Besides, I won't believe in guys saying I like/love you forever liao..

Less than 2 months going to have my Exam liao, don't know how to study, too many to memorise.. Today will rest, tml onward then start studying ba..

Today heard from a friend that one of my classmate father pass away.. At that moment, I think of my Dad again.. Really miss his voice.. hai~ How good if he still alive, he will sure sayang me, give me a kiss.. I miss all this, I can only find this in my memory..

Till now, although I have learnt alot, read alot of books, but I still find that I really dislike of myself in this world.. Some of my friends feel that I have change to become more positive person and I also think too, but deep in my heart, I am still negative with it. I will still move on with my life, the only motivation is to complete my mission coming to this world.. I am fine, nothing happen recently, is just my real feeling.. ["^U^"]