Life is not perfect..

I am a Wan Mei Zhu Yi person, and really like to make everything to be perfect. But somehow, you can't get the thing you want it to be... Hai~ How can I make this world to be fair.. Impossible... My mother once told me that everyone will treat unfairly to others because our heart is located at the side, and not middle. I just want to treat people around me to be equal, but failed.. A person cannot sleep and play at the same time. Thus there is some of thing I must sacrifice. To some, I am sorry.. It just my Liang Xing Qian Zhe,I just feel uncomfortable... Hai~~

Perfect Wisdom..

The Buddha told us that this perfect wisdom and virtue are innate to all beings. The sutras, recorded teaching of the Buddha, tell us that "all sentient beings can attain Buddhahood." and " every being possesses the wisdom and virtuous character of the Buddha". In other words, all beings are equal to Buddhas in nature. However, due to our discriminating and wandering thoughts and attachments, which are the root cause of all sufferings and disasters, we have temporarily loast our original Buddha nature. Thus, we continue being born into the endless cycle of birth and death...

When Wu Chang come, all of us will not be able to avoid it... Hope everyone will get his/her enlightement one day... Jiayou!!! ["^U^"]

My grandma..

Long time did not write anything le as I am busying with my exam last week and my grandma funeral.. Only until today everything has done.

I know that I won't be doing well for all my exam as I am totally last mins then study. From 29/10 till 30/10, we everyday go and visit our grandma in the hospital. I need to study in the hospital, but really very hard to get into my head. During that period, my aunties said that grandma will be going soon, cos her lung was infected, her other organs cannot work anymore. On monday after my mass transfer exam, I went to the hospital to see my dad and grandma. My cousin told me that my grandma cannot open her eyes, cannot eat any food and even speak. Almost everyone are there in the room by 9pm plus and we keep chanting and praying for her. My fourth aunt told us whatever happen, we cannot cry. Even my First Uncle also said that and we can only cry on the last day of her funeral. For that period, seeing her suffer really make me very hurt. My heart is crying but can't cry out. I kept REN and REN, but finally on the monday night, I burst out. Even though she cant open her eyes, I could see tear coming from her eyes.

The next day, my grandma is sending back to her own house. Cos she can't take any medicine, no point keep staying at the hospital. My sis and I went to see her, we greet her, she has not response. Only at night, then study for my Plant safety exam. On wednessday, 3/11, I can't visit my grandma. I told my mother that grandma must wait for me until my exam over. But she did not. On 2.30pm when I was still studying, a call from my cousin told my mother that she has pass away. I really wanted to see her one last time... Hai~

The funeral was held for seven days, my sis and I stay there for alternate days. Sometimes, the early time we sleep is at 3am plus and the latest time is at 7plus am. Really very tired. On the second last day when we were chanting, we saw a butterfly and we believe is our grandma. She come back and see us... ["^U^"]

(Ah MA, Ni Yi Ding Yao Zai Shang Mian Xiu Hao Hao, Ru Guo Bu kou, Wo Hui Xiu Gen Hao, Gei Ni Wo De Gong De. Ni Yi Ding Yao Bao You Wo He Zhi Chi Wo. Wo Hui Jia You De.)