心情。。差！

[因为你的出现， 让我动了心，但是因你的不成实，却让我对你死心！！]

Today very sway.. i broke my mother Cup Cover.. I drop my hp at the bus stop.. Argz.. Feeling so sian and so unhappy.. Hate Exams... Everyday only sleep of 3 to 4 hours only.. Going sick.. very tired... Abit Gan Mao... Argz... Still got one more paper to go...

Feeling Bad...

Feeling Bad, very low, and very siansation.. Today exam.. really sux... Might fail.. Hai.. I already finish study all le, like Wen Bing Exam, but today Ling Chang Biao Xian is dammn Jialat, and yet unable to think well in the exam, all mixed up.. Blank in my mind.. cant think well.. 31 mcq out of 60 mcq dont know how to do, and the rest of the mcq, i thought i know well, but then realise is wrong.. why.. already finish study all those QnA, find the meaning, true false, bing an, and mcq, and yet so jialat.. Initially plan to skip study the find the meaning one, but then i feel if i can finish study all then try lor.. but now.. maybe not enough sleep, head is heavy when wake up, and going to exam.. Argz.. If fail, of cos can re exam, but the feeling is bad.. hate it.. Hate exams..

But will try study well for other paper.. Now all my attention will be on my exam.. no more for others..

Sian Diao...

我的朋友是媒婆。。

几个星期前，文问我对男友的条件是什么。。我回她说做么，要做媒婆啊。。 然后去学校的途中，我对文说了我对未来男友的看法。。 我说。。 第一，要孝顺， 第二，要是单纯，第三，不可抽烟喝酒，第四，要对我好，关心我爱护我，第五，要吃素，起码要是道亲，以后必须陪我一起修道。。

也许因之前的那一段，让我这一次对未来的他，更多的要求了。。

后来， 我才得知文想介绍两位家梁的朋友。。 那两位都中国人。。文说第一位现在在马来西亚做工，他满帅，皮肤白，很符合我的条件。文最想撮合我跟他。 而第二位，文说是他想打听我的事，想和我做朋友。

我问文他是谁，我认识吗? 但文只是说是我们共同的朋友。。 我很奇怪，我和她哪有共同的朋友。。 过后，我在问文我认识他多久？ 她说几个月吧。。其实我有猜想是他。。 但不确定。。 文一只卖关子，始终都不说他是谁， 因为她说他没采取行动，不能说。。

昨天，文终于说了。 她问我我对他的第一印象的感觉，可以和他做朋友吗。。 其实是他问文来问我的。。 就是他，我只见过他一次面，是在素食元游会文带他来一会儿， 而认识的。因我对他讲解降道因由，是否他想要求，但最终没有。。 他长得高，中等，对他的印象还好。。 文过后说自从我和他讲道后，他对我有种感觉。。 我也不大清楚。。

对文而言， 她不是很想介绍他给我，只因为她的那位朋友叫她帮他来问我。。 到了晚上，文和家梁通电话。 过后，文跟我说她的那位朋友（想要和我做朋友的）骗她，说那个在马来西亚的朋友长得满白，满帅，但是家梁说其实他长得黑，普通长相。。 然后文很激动得跟我说。。 她听起来还蛮气。。 我后来回她说，我都没有这么样，而你比我还更在意，更激动。。 哈哈。。 她听了， 磋我一下。。 她的表情，真得很好笑。。因为她非常想撮合我跟那个在马来西亚做工的朋友，但听到不是那样，有点显掉， 又说你应该不会介意男孩长得比较黑吧。。

今天，七点多起身，看了手机， 发现有个短讯。。 是个陌生电话。。 原来是文的那个骗她的朋友。。 他说他是文的朋友，在佛堂和他讲道的那位，想要和我做朋友。。

哈哈。。 刚从病正在康复中，就听到这种意想不到的事。。 还真得蛮好笑。。 尤其是文。。真好笑。。

Hospitalise from 6/11 till 8/11/07

Sunday 4/11/07, Wen cook Corn Soup for me.. I am very grateful to her, cos in her life, she only cook for herself and her bf.. and I am very honour to have her to cook for me.. Bro, mum, wen and me drank the soup, but at night, still got some left over.. I asked my mum wanna drink the soup not, but she dont want.. Then i went to kitchen, and i saw there are 2 flys fly on top of the corn soup.. But I dont wanna waste the soup, so i thought of tml then drink it.. But bec i saw got flies, then i give mum to smell the soup, as i wondering is the soup spoil or not.. But mum say din spoil la.. So i use a plate and cover the bowl, then i put in the refrigerator..

The next day, 5/11/07.. I took out the soup from the frigde.. Then I cook it in the pot.. The soup is quite little, so i add abit more water.. But the soup level is only 1/4 height of the corn.. So when i saw the soup is boiling, so i just stir the corn for a while, and then place in the bowl, and my lunch is ready..

Then later my meet my friend, but that day, i only feel abit different from the normal day.. but then i also dont care it.. then at night, i went for jogging at around 9 plus.. Then after that, I start to do my project, as i need to hand in the project by wed.. When i was doing the project, I start to feel that my stomach start to pain... at first i thought is need to go toilet for the Emm ermm.. so i thought of after doing finish the project then i go toilet.. I finished my project at abt 1 plus, so i went to toilet, but no ermm emm.. and the pain still there.. so i thought again that maybe after sleep, it will recover..

At 4pm, i woke up from bed, the whole night i din sleep, bec is really very painful.. Then i dont wanna wake up my mother bec she has to wake up at 6 am, so i went to living room there, using the Ai Tiao and jiu my zhu san li xue, sheng que, he gu, and zhong wan xue.. then i feel the pain is abit lesser, and i dont dare to zhen myself.. the pain increase, when going to 5 am, I have no choice, i woke wen up.. i knock on the door, saying that wen, save me, my stomach pain..

Later she suggest to eat.. bec she say that when she got stomach pain, her dad will cook porridge for her, and later the pain gone.. So she call me the eat the biscute, and she even make the egg white , like a tofu for me, but i really dont have the wei kou to eat.. but she wanna me eat, so i no choice, i eat half the biscute, and then really cant go in le.. In the end, the stomach pain still very jialat, and the worst is, i start to vomit.. the first vomit out is the undisgested corn...

So wen accompany me to my nearby 24hr clinic, but the operating hr has change.. they only open till 12 am.. so the staff suggest us to clementi 24hr clinic.. so we took cab.. then the doctor give me 2 injections.. one for preventing vomit, and one for stopping the pain.. after 5 min, I feel better.. and i can play with wen, but still quite weak in strength..

When i reached home, the pain come again.. and more painful le.. and start to vomit again.. i call wen for help again.. she accompany me in my bed.. then later my sis woke up, at around 7 plus, she suggest me to go SGH... so wen help me to take a cab, then sis accompany me hospital.. But wen not following me, bec she need to help me to pass my project and her project to teacher..

I was like dying, the pain is so unbearable.. when reach there, they took my blood pressure, 56/92 mmhg.. then i ask the doctor if they can help me stop the pain, but they say need to do blood test, urine test and x-ray.. u know wat the surgery doctor say wat.. he say that i need to pain till the next day.. when i heard that i was sian half, and abit angry.. he explained that if he stop the pain, he wont know wat is the problem, and he say i need to be under observation.. Cos he scare that i am in appendicitis.. so need to observe.. I vomit alot of times, more than 15 times.. really cant tolerate the pain, pain till i feel so weak, weak until i could sign whatever doc they wanna me to sign.. In my whole life, this is my first experience, that i really cannot tahan the pain, cos i pain for 15 hours.. and during the painful experience, i keep pray to god, keep using the 3 treasures, but then still cant tolerate it.. then i also thought of using a knife and stab into my stomach, then like that die ba, then i think might be more relieve.. but i know i cant have this thought.. but really very very pain sia.. then at around 1 pm plus, i need to drink 1.5 litres of water for the CT scanning.. but the last cup of water after i drank, i start to vomit, i use my hand cover my mouth, and swallow it back, but the 2nd vomit i cant stop it, cos it come out from my nose, no choice, i vomit out the water.. then the nurse say nvm, cos at least i drank for 1 litres le..

This is really a bad experience for me.. really hate hospital sia, do test here and there.. and really make me so paiseh.. but the more serious and dislike experience is the pain thing.. cos i stay in the hospital from tues till thurs for observation..

At first i quite dislike the surgery doctor, bec he dont wanna inject for me the zhi tong one.. but then during the 2 days in hospital, i begin to like this doctor.. cos every morning he will come and check up for all the paitent.. then he will always smile at me, and say hihi.. anyway, i am attracted to his look and his smile, cos i feel that he is very handsome.. haha.. Some young male doctors really very handsome.. and my sis also agree with me.. haha..

This time hospitalise, i din tell any of my friends, even my close friends.. Wen knows bec she accompany me when i am suffering the stomach pain, then she also tell Ting, and YuYing.. Then apple knows bec my sis told her, then she told jie, jie told jiefu, and jiefu told kor.. So Kor call me, and ask me why i din tell him, then i say why shd i tell him.. haha.. but the truth is i dont intend to tell others bec i dont wanna let them worry for me.. then bec wc mum wanna find my mother, then she also knows it, then later wc mum told wc.. then wanna thanks him, cos he accompany me on the 2nd day from 3 plus till 1o plus.. really abit paiseh bec i got sleep for an hour plus and he still there, reading books ba.. then wanna thanks jie and jiefu for visiting me also.. aihua jie too.. Kor actually wanna come, but he got work, but i really appreaciated.. hehe.. Thanks apple also, although she say she wanna visit me yesterday, but din, but today to come see me for me while too..

wanna thanks Ting, Yu ying, peiwen, yeecheng di, bh for sending their regards for me.. And also those elderly, like Gan Tz, De Zhang, and others who concern on me...

But most important is my family, my mother, my bro, especially my sis, she accompany me and help me do all the register for the hosptial thing.. Lastly, is wen... very very very gan ji her alot..

Now i back home le, resting.. and still got abit pain.. Anyway, my diagnosis is gastroenteritis.. This will happen if only eat those contaminated food or drink.. so i think that maybe is the overnight soup that cause me so jialat experience.. Sign.. I wont, and never eat those left over food again.. bec is really very very bad experience, and really cant describle how painful it is.. I got mc from 6/11 till 12/11/07.. but my sch no use one, still will count as absent.. but anyway tml might go sch.. next thurs first paper.. sian.. Jiayou...

Tiger with us for 7months plus le...

Time fly fast.. He grow so big... I Love him so much...



and become...



13 more days to 8 months old le.. ["^U^"]

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Recently, feeling not very gd.. But wanna thanks to Jie, cos she is worry for me... care and concern of me.. But anyway, I still can manage my emotional.. Dont Worry..

{Really hope that everything will be fine soon, bec I wanna see you happy again.. ["^U^"] As long as you are unhappy, I wont be happy anyway.. }