补考results out le...

Results finally out.. Has been waiting for a month.. Happy for my ZJ result cos is above my expectation... I got 87 marks.. But then in the end, is only 60marks... ["^U^"].. I have done my best...

There are some friends say that I shd have pass my first attempt.. Hm.. I just take it as a Kaoyan ba.. Is ok for me... :) Especially to Hy, no need to feel bad ok, is not ur fault, I really din blame you at all... At least 2nd attempt allow me to study more and understand more for Zj... K..

Just now ZQ called me, but I was busy cleaning, so din answer the call.. Dont know how is he le.. Hope he will be doing well in his life... :)

5 months & 10 days Ended...

If you ever ask me hows my valentine's day, then I will say....Sian... Need to suppress my feeling inside my heart, knowing that we won't be having a happy valentines's day, but still have to show face, to 度过the whole day, eating lunch at LinZhi, going to East Coast Park from about 6pM to 8pm plus.. 心里真的很不好受。。 Why? Promise? 承诺？ Promise of giving me happiness in future, but then.. Promise will not 实现，I hate to see that, thus I have made my choice.. Giving Up... In the past, I am very 重视 this 承诺，so my dear friends, pls dont give me any promises if you really can't fufill it oneday...

Anyway, life have to continue.. Miss Wong sms "ok, whatever u may be feeling, if u need a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, mine is available. remember this , k?" I am very touched.. She is really a very Great Teacher to me.. I know that she is worried for me, but I told her that I assured her I wont do any silly thing... Anyway, I wont..

That is my fate, is my KaoYan.. I will be living well.. Anway, will be busy from next week onwards.. Cos every sat also got Sch lesson.. Then my Ren Cai class also going to start lesson next week.. I will be 过得很充实。。 ["^U^"]

Lastly, hope He will be doing well in his life in future...

六天的病人

星期天4/2/07，我从家楼梯跌下来，那时，我怕到我一直叫着妹妹妹妹。。 我以为没什么，只觉得很痛。。 那时，只觉得手掌，肘部，腰部以及臀部疼痛。。因此，叫妈妈帮我推拿。。 一天后，疼痛未减，甚至项肩部， 脸颊开始痛。。 真得很不舒服。。 在此，妈妈又帮我按摩。。。 第二天，妈妈带我去针灸， 在我家附近。。 我才开始知道当病人真的很辛苦，十多只针真的是很痛。。 头开始不能转右，脸颊也肿起来了。。 到了第三天，疼痛剧烈。。咽喉部也痛了，吃，喝，吞口水都会痛。。 第四天，感觉很不舒服，全身痛，咽喉痛甚。。 第五天，病情更糟， 咽喉更痛，头部感觉热，四肢觉冷。。 发热一会儿，就退乐。。 但是，这反复发作好几次。。那天，我哭了。。 这是我第二次跌倒后，再次痛到我哭。。 以前都不觉得什么是痛，也许越老越觉得痛。。Hai。。第六天，只觉得酸痛，咽喉还有一点的痛。。

This remind me of my father, the cancer that he suffering.. No matter is 大病，or 小病，都是苦。。 Life is suffering.. Hope all my friends, 身体健康，幸福快乐。。Take care..

考验？

如果想要知道我最近是否活得很开心吗，那。。 我的答案是不开心，不幸福。。 我真得很累。。 我已经很尽力了，但结果还是很不愉快！到底要我怎么做？从来没那么伤心过，只有爸爸去世时，还有和知己的事情时，才会很难过，但这一次，是为了。。 爱情！

因为想要让他开心一点，也许因为考试的关系而不开心， 所以想要请他吃晚餐在老地方。。 因为想要把我们的关系回到像从前，所以才要把不开心的事很快忘掉。。 因为真的珍惜这段感情，所以都不介意他一次又一次的伤害我。。 因为有多么的爱他，所以每一次最终都会原谅他。。

但是，这一次， 我会想要选择。。。 放弃？原谅？

嗨！

为何要那么辛苦呢? 为何要让自己那么伤心，难过，心痛，胸痛，胸闷呢？如果这是我以后所要过的这样的幸福，那么我可以说，我是不会要这样的幸福。。

承诺？我再也不会相信。。 幸福？我再也不会盼望。。爱情？我再也不会渴望。。

我后悔了，当初不应该答应我的知己。。因为这根本不是我想要的幸福。。

我很不喜欢当他有压力，睡眠差， 不舒服等时，每一次都要来激怒我，没有事的把它弄得有事，很不开心？不管什么理由，我都觉得是借口！！

我累了。。。

Recently...

Yesterday is Kor Bday.. Chat with him for a while before sleeping during the night.. Really treasure our conversation time.. We chat a lot.. Long time din c him le, and also some of our poly friends.. Hopefully we can meet up soon... Btw, he can be my Matchmaker liao, Mei Po.. Hehe.. He always like to match me and others.. Hm.. For now, no need la, I got my happiness le.. Thanks kor..

Met up with Miss Wong, Amy and sherry last sunday.. We are having great time.. I really do enjoy the time we spent our dinner at quality hotel.. We share our Love story to her, cos she asked one by one, starting from sherry, amy and then me.. She also shared her love story in the end.. Really hope she will stay very happy and sooner will have her real happiness...

Will be quite busy this few weeks, on my sch work, religion thing.. espicially this year.. ["^U^"]