因为他。。 我很["^U^"]

今天他再次送我回家，然后收到他的信息，叫我和我的妹妹enjoy..(Cant remember),而我sms他说妹妹不再家，他回复我说他还在busstop,所以后来我们又见面了。。 我们到麦当劳，给他看我童年的照片，和这几年的照片，我们有说有笑.. Hehe.. 后来我们去吃晚餐。。。他也陪我到天慧，因为我今天有模范班，class, 而他在那附近走走。下课了，他陪我回家，在途中，他买kiwi给我吃，和送我mickey mouse, 我真得满感动，很喜欢。。 很感谢他alot alot... 跟他在一起，真的满舒服。。 只是有时，还是不敢看着他的眼睛。。 hm.. 总是觉得和他在一起，时间过的很快。。 ["^U^"]

谢谢你！！

最近，我的心开始动摇了。。 因为有他的陪伴，因为有他的关怀，因为有他。。。 他说他会担心我如果我去学摩托车。。 我微笑了。。 这几天，真的满幸福， 开心。。。 今天，他送我回家，这是第二次了。我很感激他。。 他也陪我去看我外公。。 我满感动的。。 这些真的好像一场美好的梦。这会长久吗？还是暂时吗？心有点乱。。 不知道这是否是我想要的幸福吗？真的有点怕。。 也不知道为什么会怕。。 我是满喜欢他，但我还是。。。我不知道。。 嗨！！

:)

My sis today went to a VCD stall, cos she wanna buy [Jin San Shun], and also wanna help me buy [Loving You Secretly] shows, but so sad, they dont sell... Hai! Just happen to watch on last sat, then start to like the show...quite interesting sia... Maybe will need to wait... :)

Loving You Secretly--偷偷爱上你
Wang Jing is mesmerized by the talented Xu Yi after she sees his piano performance. She then decides to enroll herself into Xu Yi's Art college by hook or by crook. She ends up disguising as a man and is finally accepted. While she is exhilarated that she will have a lot of opportunities to get close to Xu Yi, her 'male identity' lands her into many hilarious situations...

Knowing that my tcm lesson going to be very very busy liao.. so sian... actually plan to work part time, but then i know now cant liao... I really dont know how to cope with my tcm liao.. Zou yi bu, suan yi bu ba...

This few days.. hm... dont know what to say.. wat i can say is ... ["^U^"] Anyways.. Xie xie, wo de peng you...

Today I am Happy...

Today went to Ps to see yandao Alan performance event... Hm.. Wow, first time c alan dancing sia... Quite nice wor.. Anyway, hope he will win the science king for the coming sat...

Below pic taken at Ps...


Hm.. Actually still wanna thanks 'him' for accompany me to Ps to see alan event thing... We chat alot, hm.. but mostly my past thing... after watching finish alan perform, then we went to mos burger to drink, then went to taka there walk walk and then have our dinner... Hm... Get to know him even more... :) I really enjoyed chating with 'him', enjoyed the whole day being with 'him'... ["^U^"] Today,20/08/06, I am happy....

Today must sleep early liao, cos yesterday SHi Mian, cant sleep throughout the night.. ArgZ... Going to see tcm doctor liao.. hehe..

Touching Story!!

Recently really quite tired, busy... Argz.. abit cant cope with it sia... my hell script haven finish writing, hopefully tml can finish and hand up liao... my mo fan class also going to end soon, still got 2 more lesson to go, and for the final class is on Oct.. Really very happy... Cos after those lesson finish, I will be going to start studying liao... Cos on first of dec till 3rd, I will be going to Malaysia with my mum in our religion trip... So, i really need to plan my timetable liao.. Jiayou ba...

Wanna share a story with all my friends, written by my friend, Wc.. I Like the story very much, cos I have alot of Gan Chu after reading the story... {using unicode to view)

白云和星星是好朋友。。 常常一起晚上出去玩。。。但有一天，星星发现白云没出来玩。。。 他等着等着。。白云都没出现。。 星星看到风， 就问他：“有看到云妹妹吗？”风伯伯说：“我把她吹到遥远的南方去了。。。 我看她不可能会得来啦。”星星静静地。。。 掉了眼泪。。 他想：“我一定要等到云妹妹回来！”一天。。一夜。。一星期。。一月。。一年。。 十年。。 一百年。。 一千年。。星儿等了一千年。。 他知道。。 他的云妹妹永远也不会回来了。。在南方，同样也想着对方的白云正在思念时。。她突然发现。。 在远处的北方，有一颗星星掉下。。 她心里好紧张。。 会不会是她的星哥哥呢？忽然，一阵强风吹来。。 把白云吹了一天一夜。。 吹回了北方。。她呼喊：“星哥哥。。你在哪里啊。。 我回来了！”风伯伯看到她。。 说道：“星儿。。他已经掉落了。。”白云不敢相信自己的耳朵。。 “但他每天都想着你。”风伯伯说。。 白云很伤心。。她哭了。。 那晚，北方的雨细细地下个不停。。 第二天。。 白云也消失了。。 奇妙的事。。 当海水看到海沙时。。他们知道，他们再也不分开了。。

Is so touching rite... Hm.. No matter in family, friendship, BGR, there will be always a leaving day to come...As long as in their heart got both party, that would be enough, even though seldom see each other.. There are some people who I really miss, cos only see them once or twrice a year.. But I know that if anything happening to me, they will be there for me, and if anything that happening on them, i will always be there for them too.. Besides..Hm.. this story also let me think and miss of my dad alot... But i know that he will always be with me in my heart too... Lastly also wanna tell all my friends that, 离别是别无选择，思念是痛苦的。。 我们的（妈妈）以思念我们好久好久，盼望我们快早回到我们的故乡。。 只有到那个时候，我们和我们的（妈妈）才会再也不分开。。。

Thanks Wc for sharing this story with me.. Hm.. Really very very nice...

Piss off day!!!

Today sat, 12/8/06, i really got so frustrated and so piss off of the Qi GOng laoshi... On the previous day, me and yun already told him ok Can as we have confirm to book our time on sat morning 9.40 to 10.00am.. But then Yun not going, so my mum accompany me liao.. We reach there 5 min early.. He asked wat time is our appoinment, and i told him is 9.40am.. But he say dont have.. he din record it on his book.. To me it is fine for me if this is just a misunderstanding.. But he so wat the ....... saying that u and ur friend keep discussing and din tell him.. And yet also give me the kind of attidute... ok fine, i sms to yun asking her did we tell him the timing.. and she replied me ya, we did... ok.. me and mum wait lor, so he do for a lady... so after 10 min, shd be our turn, and yet he do for other lady.. I really have been so patient of him, Ren him for so many times.. Mum ask me my appointment with my religion friend can make it or not, cos i have thing at 10.30am, all under my plan, then i just say out loud that No La, Lai Bu Ji Liao so that he could hear.. But then he say that, if u got thing then go la..but this time round, i really so angry saying that, we did told u the timing we wanna to book, is u who din record down. and also my friend can be my witness... One last thing I told him, Tian Di Ke Yi Wei Zheng!!! then we left.. Really the piss off.. I wont go back to him anymore... He always think he is right and we are wrong.. Argz... Anyway, i believe there will be cause and effect for him...

Then I meet my 4 religion friends and we went to Hu Pao Bie Shu for doing something, gather those place and information for our coming activites... I remembered i went there when i was quite young.. Felt that it has change alot.. Is quite a gd place for scenery photo taking... Next time then bring my friends there... Hehe...

Then at night accompany Yun and her working friends to see firework.. That is my first time in my life to see it.. Cos last time always watch tv one.. It was so beautiful... one of her friend friend say me Dao, so quiet... Hm.. Am I really so dao.. Haha.. but then later we went to lao ba sha eat, ok la, we still got chat... For me is if I dont know that person, cos stranger ma, ususally i just keep quiet and listen.. Haha.. But anyway if u know me for long time, I can chat alot one..

Before going to end, my fifth guy come again, he is a malaysian ppl, i think so, I dont know his age, but confirm older then me, he is tall and skinny, more than normal looking.. Cos I went to mum stall on fri night and help her for a while, then see this guy, working next to my mother... Then he approach he saying that he quite admired me, cos of my hairstyle.. Then we did chat for a while... in the end he say hope he got change to be my bf... Hm... As i mention before I thought that cuting my hair is to stop those thing, but in the end still got Tao Hua.. Hm... as i mention before, I wont accept him too, cos of his working environment, involve in animal food, and also bec I have my admired person in mind..

Too tired liao, going to sleep liao...

hai...

Contiune with my I..erm.. argz... Cos i was too tired that day and din type finish..

Today again, my things that I planned to do, still haven do sia... My homework haven done, my religion homework also and yet need to pass up on monday, and worst still, I haven do my storyline of the Hell for this coming wed meeting... How...

Somemore, from next week onwards, somedays start on 8.30am, and also now everyday got sch liao... Going to stress liao.. Going to sleep early liao.. Argz...

Today went to Ktv with my Heng kor, his gf Yanping, my cousin peilin, niece nyssa, and my sis jacey.. Initially dont wish to go one,then last min agree, cos i feel that now go enjoy if not from next week onward, i have other things to do, will be more busy liao...

Hm.. recently i feel quite troubled... hm.. hao fun wor.. Life is quite siansation.. Hai.. I am quite scare that I cant cope with my studies sia, I am also quite scare that I cant cope with my religion activites and also with my life thing..

Life!!! so wu chang... when I am for my mother friend funeral on thus, I kept thinking of my dad, and those thing during dad funeral too... Even though I know the truth, know the law of life... But i still very scare, scare of oneday my close ppl will left me... I rather be selfish, i hope i will left this world first.. I mean it... Argz... hai!!!!!!

Tired......

Just came back home... Very tired... Bring my 3 tcm friends to c my teacher, in the end send them back home, luckily mum din scold me for being so late.. Hm.. actually i was like a bit not happy, bec... Hm.. forget it.. Maybe also bec too tired le...

No matter wat, the happiest thing is i can drive her back home, accompany her for dinner.. I do cherish every single moment with her even though is a short period.. Her presence has made my day, made me happy... She will always be my Kai Xin Guo..

I... Hm... ARGZ...

Going to end soon...

Today suddenly recieve a msg from the 3rd guy.. I am quite surprised... Finally feel that all this can come to the end.. I finally have the courage to tell the 2nd guy and 4th guy.. But no matter what, I am really sorry to them, and really hope that they will find their happiness soon... Below shows our sms conversation..

3RD GUY SMS CONVERSATION

3rd Guy:
Jia I know I cant be wit you.. feeling very down but life goes No… lucky that I tell u how I feel… I really love you.. But also wan you to be happy.. So I give up… I really wan to see u in happiness take care ok.. Hope to meet you to chat again

Me:
Sorry.. Hm.. Thanks for ur love to me, I appreaciate it.. I hope u will find ur happiness onday.. And also hope that we can be gd friend.. :p

3rd Guy:
I think only one guy left… No matter who you wit. You know take I will still care for you. And still loving you.

I finally sms 2nd and 4th guy about What i have decide.. and that is..
Me: hm.. so how r u recently? Hope u doing fine.. hm.. thanks 4 asking me to be ur gf, I have decided not to choose any one.. Hope u will find ur real gal soon.. Jiayou..
Below shows our conversation..

2ND GUY SMS CONVERSATION

2nd guy:
Haha.. I expected u will chose this. I hav to blame myself for being a fool. Nvm,
I chose this way. Forget it. That ur decision.

2nd guy:
since u decided on this decision. There nth I can say or do now.. sighz. Hope u hav gd nite. I dun hav the chance to take of u.. tk care

2nd guy:
After this failure. I suppose I wont be trying again. My heart dead lar. Since I failed again.. nvm, since I destined dun hav tht luck.. tht nth I can say

Me:
Im sorry.. but I hope u dont heart dead. Hope u find ur zhen ming tian niu..

2nd guy:
U by now know wht charc I am. If I hav make up my mind.. tht nth tht will make me change my mind easily. I told u tht u are my last try.. since I had failed.. I dun blame u.

2nd guy:
Finally I knoe tht there nth I can say or do to make u change ur mind!!! I no choice but to accept this failure. I seriously decided on 1 thing.

2nd guy:
I seriously decided on 1 thing. I will just close my heart as from now..

Me: ..Pls dont..

2nd guy:
Ask u something.u wont change ur mind.. am I rite? Both of us the same!! Unless u willing to change ur mind and give both of us a chance. Then I will change mine

2nd guy:
U wont change ur mind & give both of us a chance.. am I rite? Same do I, u may think I’m forcingu.. u remember I used to say tht there nth tht is impossible


4TH GUY SMS CONVERSATION

4th guy:
Haha, ok.. Xie Xie Ni…

Me:
Sorry, U come too late, if not I will choose u.. Time not rite,, Eric, I do enjoy chating with.. will we still be gd friend?

4th guy:
What you mean by too late.. Don’t worry…

Me:
Hm, if thing happen in a year ago, I will agree..
4th guy:
Haha..ok..

4th guy:
But can I know.. why is 1 year ago? Why you will chose me?

I AM SORRY!!!