不应该放弃，该放下！

海猪，
我很不了解你！！我在也不想去了解你，也不会去管你了。 全部都是我的错，当初不应该答应你的追求。。就不会搞到这样！！ 我知道是我害了你，害你从一个很会节俭的人，变成一个很会奢侈的人。。 从一个乖巧的孩子，变成会顶嘴的孩子。。 从一个董事的人，变成一个让别人担心的人。。 从一个理智思想的人，变成那么情绪化的人。。 为什么？周围的朋友那么关心你，劝你，而你，却觉得他们一直讲你（So Call 针对你），想要离开这里，去找其他更了解你的新朋友。。 那你以为这样就能解决了吗？你觉得你对， 我们错，是这样的吗？从前，你曾说过在这世上， 没有对或错，那你现在说你根本没有错，是我们错，那不是自相矛盾。

你也说过，is normal to spent money, 那么，乱花父母的钱，都买有用或没有用的东西，这是对的吗？那是爸爸辛苦赚来的血汗钱啊！而且，你现在这个样，让你的父母那么担心你，是对的吗？那不是，无孝！你曾讲过，你以后会做工赚钱养你的父母，对我而言， 你是个非常孝顺的孩子，而现在，你所做的一切，还能称的上是孝顺吗？

你也说过，你那么对朋友多好，但朋友现在都在讲你，而你也不喜欢听，也觉得他们不了解你，所以你要离开学校，要找其他新朋友，找比较了解你的新朋友，但，你有没有想过他们是劝化你，帮你， 那么关心你，只有旁光者清，当局者迷。。 而你却不领情，那不是，无义！

你曾答应你的父亲，你会好好读书，也在几个星期前答应我你会好好读书，但你现在想要Quit Sch, 那不是，无信！

And now, even my brother also know that he need a Uni Cert, so that it will be better to find a good job in future, so now he wanna going to study again.. Then how about you? What can you do for your A level? Sales? You have come to 2nd year liao, and next year if everything go smoothly, we will be graduating soon.. Why give up? Why bec of stress, you choose to avoid too?

Do you know your Problem? Why then there's something happen, you always choose to avoid.. Why you cant face the reality and overcome it.. Why when you are in stress or tired or watever, you always choose to avoid and give up.. Why cant you learn to handle with stress... Everyone got stress and not only you, why others can handle it well and you now choose to avoid? You think you are the only one that dislike having stress? Actually all of us also dont like it.. But we have to take it and learn how to handle it... This is life...

WHY I CHOOSE TO LET GO IN OUR RELATIONSHIP? BEC OF DIFFERENT RELIGION? HAHA, I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO SAY WHEN U REALLY THINK THAT.. BEFORE WE GO TOGETHER AND AFTER, I HAVE ALREADY TOLD YOU.. YOUR BEST FRIEND NORF ALSO COME AND ASK ME , AND I HAVE TOLD HIM, AND ALSO I HAVE TOLD YOU ON THAT DAY LIAO.. BESIDES, I ALSO HAVE WRITTEN ON THE SMALL BOOK, TELLING YOU THAT IF YOU HAVE TRIED, AND YOU STILL FIND THAT YOU WANNA GO YOUR WAY, I AM OK WITH IT.. DIN I? WHEN DID I EVER FORCE YOU? IS YOU YOURSELF WHO THINK TOO MUCH!! YOU ARE A VERY NICE BF, YOU ARE PERFECT BUT EXCEPT ONE THING, WHICH TURN EVERYTHING TO BE LIKE THIS!! ------ UR DEPRESSION, BEC YOU HAVE THINK TOO MUCH.. TOO 胡思乱想！I REALLY CANT STAND IT.. I HAVE GIVEN YOU 3 CHANCES OR MORE, AND YOU HAVE PROMISE ME THAT YOU WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN, WILL NOT HURT ME AGAIN, BUT END UP WAT.. YOU KNOW YOURSELF..

WHEN I FIRST KNOW ABOUT YOUR DEPRESSION, HOW I WISH I CAN HELP YOU OVERCOME YOUR DEPRESSION, TOGEHTER WITH YOU TO OVERCOME YOUR SKIN PROBLEM TOO, AND I TRIED.. BUT I CANT.. I AM NOT SO 伟大， WHO CAN ALWAYS TOLERATE YOU WHENEVER YOU CREATE A PROBLEM OUT OF A SUDDEN.. NOT MANY GIRLS CAN TOLERATE THIS, MAYBE ONLY A FEWS CAN ACCEPT THIS.. I DONT KNOW.. BUT I REALLY DISLIKE YOU TO THINK TOO MUCH.. AND YOU DONT KNOW THE REASON WHY I LEFT YOU, AND YOU KEEP BLAMING ON THE DIFFERENT RELIGION AND ALSO TELLING FRIENDS ABOUT THIS.. AND NOW THOSE FRIENDS COME AND ASK ME.. WAT THE..

ACTUALLY I HAVE TOLD MY MUM, MY BEST FRIENDS, THAT WE MIGHT STILL BE TOGETHER ONEDAY, ONLY WHEN YOU DONT THINK TOO MUCH, WHEN YOUR DEPRESSION CURE.. 在两个星期前，本来很想和你复合，因为你还是对我那么好，心有动摇，但是现在，I WONT... RECENTLY YOU HAVE CHANGED, CHANGE UNTIL NOT LIKE THE PAST YOU ARE, YOUR MIND ARE WEIRD ( MAYBE YOU FEEL THAT IS MY MIND WEIRD), BTW THIS FEW DAYS, IM REALLY DISAPPOINT OF YOU.. WHERE IS YOUR PROMISE? WHERE IS YOUR FILIAL? I HAVE GIVEN UP ON YOU BEC YOU HAVE GIVEN UP ON YOURSELF.. IF YOU THINK YOU LIKE THIS WILL FIND YOUR HAPPINESS, THEN GO AHEAD..

ANYWAY, THIS IS MY LAST ADVICE FOR YOU, WHETHER YOU WANNA LISTEN OR NOT, IS UP TO YOU.. I WONT WANT TO BOTHER YOU AGAIN ABOUT THIS.. TO BE TRUTH, I REALLY FED UP OF YOU.. YOU HAVE CHANGED, AND I NOW CANT RECOGNISE YOU.. ALL THOSE GD CHARACTER ON YOU WHICH ATTRACT ME AT THE FIRST PLACE, AND THEY ARE NOW GONE.. AS A FRIEND, OR AS YOUR EX, I REALLY HOPE THAT YOU WILL FIND THEM BACK ONEDAY, AND ALSO WHENEVER YOU ARE STRESS OR TIRED, PLS DO TRY TO OVERCOME IT, DONT AVOID, AND DONT GIVEUP.. DONT LET UR FRIEND AND ESPECIALLY YOUR PARENT WHO WORRIED FOR U...

TAKE CARE...

Thank You, my dear friends...

Wanna Thanks to all my friends who celebrate my bday, and wishes me as well..

Went out with Amy, Sherry, Sis to watch The Messenger the day before our Bday.. Thanks to Amy for the treat on the ticket, and thanks to Sherry for the Bday Gift.. We chat some, cos long time din meet up le, but our conversation is short.. When Amy bday come, we will meet up again.. :)

Wanna thanks to MeiYee who wishes me first...and also my friends who wishes me through sms.. They are Hui Juan, Kor, Pu Jue, Nyssa Niece, Justin, Apple, Liqing, Jeehoe and Weicheng.. and also my dear WanTing Niece...

Yesterday reach sch on Ten cos really cant wake up... Then Lian Shi brought a cake, and Wen Sen, Ba Sheng, Qiuting, Jinwen, Sally and You Ying celebrate for me.. It is a Mint Cake.. Quite Nice... REally very appreaciated.. Cos other than Ting, Wen and sally, who very close to me, those 长辈们 actually celebrate for me.. And also Wen Sen brought me a Chocolate Gift..

Then later during the lunch time, after I had finished the lunch, out of sudden a chocolate cake was bought infront of me.. Wow, I am shocked.. Cos it was so unexpected.. In the end, Liqing, Huanying, Huimin, Nan hui, Daniel, Ryan, Ting, Wen, and also Ting's friend Xian Hui celebrate for me..

Thanks to Ting, Wen, Sally, and Wenling for the Bday gifts too.. Hm... I really appreaciated..

Thanks Guys... Really is a memorable day... :)

Lastly, also Thanks to my family, my mum, my bro and sis... :)

And also my biggest Present is I got my Kitten.. "Tiger"... He really very Cute.. But very Naughty too cos keep urine on me... He still dont know how to play, cos he is only a baby kitten..
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Anyway, I am excited and very 盼望 the day come... Which day? Hehe, that is this coming Sat, cos is my poly gathering... And also Next sat.. Cos will be meeting up with my Dear Best Friend Apple... :)



Tired le... Tata...