My horoscope result

Yesterday after send my Godmother back home, she pass something on my hand.. and is money again.. She say she won 4D, about $300 plus, but she gave me $100.. I return her, but she say keep it la.. Hm.. She always give me money sia, then I will give my mother and she will help me keep, next time can buy gift for my godmother.. Now total save of $200 liao... Before that, when i went taiwan last year, I have mention she gave me $500, and my Bday too, forgot how much liao.. But then I have use up those money liao.. i am really very fortunate to have this godmother, always give me money, always buy thing for me when she go for hoilday.. :) I am Xin Fu...

Just do a feng shui horoscope sent by meiyee.. Haha..Hm.. True or not true, I also dont know... But to me some I agree.. Haha..

My result:
Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back. You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your lovelife is soon to blosoom. The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected. You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

Apple is your best friend. “146164”, this is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

You like adventure. You are spontaneous and like to please people.

Love again...

Is my love kaoyan again.. The fouth guy appear, who is my pri friend.. Hm.. To me i just take it that he is kidding.. yesterday we chat in msn, then in the end, he said that he will be my fouth guy to consider.. Hm.. I replied him whether he is serious or not.. Hm... Before I sleep yesterday night, the 2nd msg he send me is 'when start dating'... I... erm... In my mind is full of, why, how come, too sudden, r he serious, r he kidding, r he playing with me...

Haha, this year look like my tao hua yun.. The first 3 guys are still waiting for me, waiting for me to accept them.. hm.. To me I still treat those as normal.. I dont believe they like me, I am not as gd as what they think, why they choose me.. I
really cant believe guys will like me sia.. REally very the funny...

Who do you choose if you r me? Hm.. for those 4 guys, i dont have any feeling with them yet, if really going to choose, i might choose the fouth guy, but then in my heart i already have another guy who are only normal friend.. choose a guy who like you or a guy you like.. if choose a guy who like you, maybe in the end will have Jie Guo, can be together... But if u choose a guy you like, but the guy dont like you, then dont have any Jie Guo, but still like the feeling of being friend with each other, then which jie guo will you choose???

I still dont have xin li zhun bei, I admit i am afraid, scare to be hurt again, and also I know I dont have Xing Xin in relationship.. I just still cant open out my heart... Argz.. How shd I solve all this thing?

I am so happy, a sms has made my day..

I recieved a msg from Ywlk(W) just now, I was so surprised to see her sms.. She is one of my fav teacher in my sec.. Ywlk(W) is I named her in my Hp, she is Miss Wong... Below showed our sms conversations...

Ywlk(W):
Hi... Heard u changed ur image! What made u cut ur long hair off? Hope u r ok.

Me:
Haha..hm..All my friends and even my mum keep call me fei niu, means ah lian.. hehe.. bec in june thing happening, which make my life so down, n nearly going to end my life.. But don worry now, me ok now, share with u the whole story when i c u.. hehe.. Ur hp got sms? 2 megapi or 1.3? i send u my pic.. :p btw i like my hair style.. is cool.. hehe..

Ywlk(W):
Oh dear... tt's rather worrying. Mustn't do anything silly... Remember we r made of tougher stuff than we think we r! I have mms. But not sure if It's set up properly. U can try to send.

MMS sent..

Me:
I now send a pic liao c if u recieve it.. if too big i send another one.. hehe..

Ywlk(W):
Wow! It's cool! N u lost even more wt! I hope u will get ovr e matter tt upsetted u so much. When e going gets tough, e tough gets going! Take care, ok?

Me:
So u recieve it ar.. hm.. :p miss wong, sorry to let u worry for me.. yea, I agree with wat u say, i think after all these incidents tat happen in june, i have learn and grow, now i more kan kai le.. hope u dont worry anymore, i promise i wont do anymore silly thing. I will become more tougher person.. :p fangxin.. :p u take care too! hope to c u soon.. :p

Ywlk(W):
Glad to hear tt. Take good care of urself...:-)

Hm.. Last week met my another sec teacher, mdm hua to pass her something that she wanted to borrow from me.. She also surprise to see me in short hair.. I think she tell miss wong about it... hehe.. I do miss my sec teachers alot, especially Y and W.. Hai.. still dont know this year what thing do for them for this coming teachers' day.. See see ba...

This afternoon went lunch with leon to our nearby coffee shop.. I like the feeling of our friendship now, and we can chat better compared than in the past.. He is the first guy I like in my life, but the funny thing is whenever we wanna chat, we will go through a 3rd party.. cos we are so timid to chat with each other, and the 3rd party is usually my sis.. Haha, whenever think of the past during primary, is really very funny... Hm. I din know he dont smoke, I have mixed him up with another guy.. Cos he say is glad that now coffee shop has put those sign that cannot smoke.. Then i asked him, you din smoke? He replied you think i smoke meh, and I dont like to smoke and din smoke one.. Hehe, me so paiseh and sorry to him... I feel that we are more open up, can really chat with each other without 3rd party.. Hehe.. He is a good guy, hope he also find his happiness..

Recently really very tired.. Hai!...

Hm.. How?

Just came back from jogging, but this time round A guy, my cousin accompany me.. Tml he say he wanna jog with me again... Hm.. Actually I thought that our this problem have solve, and I also thought tat he has given up on me liao, but it seems like still dragging.. I also told him those citeria that I told S guy, cos I think it would be fair to him too.. But after he knows, he said that he will change for sake of me.. Hm.. I always thought those citeria I set shd be tough for them and hope that they will give up eventually, but in the end, they still willing to change.. Argz.. I really dont wish to change them bec of me.. How? What shd I do? Is this my Kao Yan again, dealing with Love? If they really successfully met my citeria, then how? I dont wish them to change for the sake of me, cos I know i will touch by it in the end.. But.... Hai!...

There is a person I really like in the past, but I dont meant to go stead with him or what... I just like the feeling, feeling of close friends, feeling of care and concern he given to me, and that is enough for me.. Hm.. Izzit if I like a person, then must really be together? For me, I dont think so.. As long as he find his happiness, I will happy liao, and I mean it.. Is not that I Wei Da or what, is just that I easily feel contentment.. So what if I now got someone in my heart who I admire, can say Hao gan ba, then does it mean also need to be together?

I think that I really very scare, scare of touching those BGR again.. No matter is guys like me , or I like him, I just dont wish to get involve in relationship yet, cos no one can confirm me in future thing... I am just not prepared, really scare to get hurt again ba and as I mention earlier on, I will seriously consider my happiness.. SUN QI ZHI RAN...

Jiayou and all the best for my TCM friends!!!

My results:
Wei Shen Wu---92
Fang Ji-------71
Yi Gu Wen-----72
Zhen Jiu------62
Sheng Li Xue--60

Yesterday got back my results.. Hm.. most of it is expected one.. But got one which I thought I will fail, and that is Fang Ji, in the end still manage to pass a bit higher than expectation.. If that day din happen those sad thing, I might have mood to study for the rest of paper, and might do even well.. And now I can be happily go cruise with her liao if I am not get so affected by those thing, if I kan Kai alot.. But Done cannot be undone.. From this, I learn that when thing happen, really need to Fang xia first, and move on to the next one.. For this sem, I din expect for any gd results cos I din put in effort alot and even time, as I busy with other thing.. But from my result, even I am lucky to pass all, and also with the help from my God, I know that Yi Fen Gen Yun, Yi Fen Shou Huo... I spent all time a month for fang ji xue, and I satified with my result, cos I really cannot imagine how I pass it.. No matter wat, I learn from my mistake, I promise I will do even more better for this SEM.. Hm.. For those friends who still need to retake the exam, I wish them all the best, Jiayou, and hope to give my luck to them, hope they will be lucky like me... JIAYOU, Jiayou my dear classmates...

Yesterday night chat with S guy, finally told him what I feel, actually wanna let him to give up on me, but he said that no matter who I choose, he will not give up, and will be happy for me.. I am touched by his words, but I am still very sorry to him cos I know that me and him will not be possible.. Below are the list of citeria I made for my coming 3rd bf, which also will be my last bf in my life...

Filial to parent, do not smoke, do not drink (can drink abit, but dont drunk), do not scold bad words, a pure thinking, must be vegetarian, and also must Xiu Xing with me together..

Only when all this fulfill, then I might consider my 3rd Bf.. Cos I wanna seriously consider it as I wont touch anymore BGR after this, meaning that there wont be the fouth one.. This is wat I told S guy.. Some of it he can fulfill, and he accept it, but there is one or two I dont think he can make it... especially the pure thinking.. The way his thinking, I really cant accept.. I dont wish he spent so many times on me, but I think i have delay to solve this thing since June.. Hopefully by this week, thing can be solve..

I will seriously consider which happiness I really want in my future, anyway still got 7 years to go.. I am really very sorry to those those guys who I rejected, especially B guy and A guy...

B guy, I know you will always read my blog, wanna say sorry to you as u spent about 5 years plus on me.. But really hope you will let go, and I really hope you will find your true gal, better than me...ok... I am not as gd as what u think...

A guy, hope you also can find a better gf...

So what is happiness means to you all? Have you ever wonder? Let me share with you all a story...

In a past time, there were 4 kings in India who were very good friends, and they always met up, spent times and also chat with each other.. Then one of the king asked what is happiness to you? One king relied that got alot of money, wealth means happiness to him.. Another king replied that if can buy alot of things that you like, such as clothes, jewellery and etc means happiness to him.. THe 3rd king then said that if can spent alot of time with his love one, such as family, relative, friends, then is happiness to him... Lastly, the king who asked this question said that, from the above the 3 kings have mentioned, he feel that is not a happy thing, that is bec, those will be gone one day, as life is Wu Chang, and he feel that the real happiness in life is WU WO DE JING JIE..

So what is your happiness in life? Do you understand it? Hope oneday every of my friends will get enlightenment by it, using your wisdom to think what is your real life of happiness!!!

I have alot of story to share with you guys, but I stop here, next time then share another story... Cos I am still learning, and I hope everyone will Jiayou too....doing well in this life...

["^U^"] I am so lucky!!

On Wed night, I told my mum about my sch thing.. asking whether I pass or not.. Cos i am still so worried that I couldnt sleep.. Then my mother told me that she uses her six sense, and her six sense told her that I will pass, so call me to sleep well.. She saiyang me at the same time.. Haha, then she bet with me... So I also own her a lunch, if I pass my exam...

Then this morning quite early wake up, even though quite late sleep, cos Xin Bu An.. Then couldnt get into sleep liao at 8am plus... Then sms to Ting, asking her whether wanna call Zhou Xiao Jie or not, and her replied is call ba... Then I wake up, use comp for a while, then bath, waiting for time to past so as to meet my jie at dover at 12pm... During the waiting time, I wanna call, but still so scare to call... THen sms to WC tell him about it, then he reply me saying that wanna help you call.. I smile, cos I appreciate his Helpful Thought.. He is really a very helpful, a nice guy.. But in the end I told him that I do myself..

At lakeside, waitng for Mrt to arrive, I finally decide to call the sch.. Then Zhou XIao jie hear the phone, and I asking her about the retake exam, whether I need to retake not.. Then she say, she has already give out all yesterday, and also she quite Zhu Yi Wo (notice me alot), if I got fail or wat, she will of course tell me one.. Then she call me to fang Xin... She is very friendly...

When the moment she say I pass all, I was so happy... But I do the paper personally and know my standard, I know that I will fail my 3 paper one.. I really dont understand how come I can pass..

First paper sick, brain not working, knowing that I got alot of wrong ans.. 2nd paper i only use 25 to 30 hours to study, a day before the exam, cant finish studying all in the end, and 3rd paper, i confirm only know 2 questions from wed teacher well.. I really dont understand why I manage to pass all..

I strongly believe that is my God (Lao Mu Niang) who always help me in my studies since young.. I really very busy during exam period, as I have rehearsal, performance, and dujing exam, Dujing graduate Dian Li, I already spent much of my time and effort in my religion thing, and use very little time for exam.. And exam period got thing Happening at the same time, I already no mood to study.. I really cant believe I can pass all.. I really so so so LUCKY.. I also know that my friends will give me blessing, hoping me pass too, Thank you very much... And also thank you to my dearest Yun, cos I know that when she chanting Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo, in the end she will always pray for me, pray that I will pass my exam, pray that I will get my happiness.. Really thankful to her.. Everytime her pray for me, I really recieve it and can sense it strongly.. Whenever she pray for me, let me remind me of my fav teacher Miss Wong, the first time Miss Wong pray for me for my O level result.. :)Will be in my heart, I am really Gan En those ppl who pray for me... :)

But I learn my lesson, I will manage my time well for now.. I cant always depend on lucky and my dearest Lao Mu Niang, I need to depend on myself liao.. I will jiayou, and do even well for this sem.. I will still try my best..

Besides, now I also bet lost to Yun.. Haha... will treat her dinner liao... and also my jie too..

Today went to meet Amy, happy to see her feeling gd... Happy to see LiJIng and her relationship is so stable... :) Amy, I will still tell you that Friendships are forever, I strong believe that... REally very touch and appreciate when you tell me that Zhi Ji can be the only one, and I am your Zhi Ji in your life and that is enough.. Xie Xie Ni.. I am really surprise you tell me that, and WO ZHEN DE HEN GAN DONG... ["^u^"] Of cos I will always be there for you when you need me, no matter is serious or not.. Perhaps we also went through quite a lot of hardship in the past, those quarrel, those tears, but I feel that is meaningful, and I still treasure alot in our friendship.. But of cos I do hope you can find more friends, and those are real friends who also treat you very very very gd.. Cos that is also another kind of happiness... You know... :)

There are two type of LOVE -- Small Love and Big Love! Small Love is BGR Love, love for only one person.. But I do prefer Big Love, can give all my love to everyone, family, friends, as long as everyone is happy, can liao... That is also my happiness way... To all My dear friends, so care and concern of my happiness thing, I know u guys wanna me to find my happiness, hm.. so call real happiness, I really do appreaciate it much, thanks alot.. See see ba, But i strong believe that if it yours, is yours... ok... :) And also more strong believe of fate!!! hehe...

["^U^"]

My Worry Day!!!

Today is the result for whether pass or fail of our tcm exam.. Yesterday dreamt that I fail very jialat of my 3 papers... Then I told Sally and ting abt it, they said shd be reverse one, call me not to be so worry... Then at about 9plus, I heard that those who fail has already recieve the call from Zhou Xiao Jie.. Then I became to feel quite Uneasy, and very afraid, heart beat is damed fast, and also not really listening to class.. All my mind is whether recieve the call or not... Then Sally, TIng, wen and me then went to have our breadfast.. We are discussing about it..

As long as dont see the Call, might be quite safe ba... So we pray that dont see this TCM college number... However, when we came back, Zhou Xiao Jie call one of my friend.. That friend know that sure TIo liao... But actually this friend din receieve any call leh.. SO i wondering when will be my turn, then I ask Zhou Xiao JIe how is mine? Got ma? She replied that she haven doing finish, when I recieve a call, then come to see her.. At that point of time, I already so afraid, then I in the end din really listen to Zhen Jiu liao... More Jin Zhang, scary sia...

After sch, I have to go back to my SIngapore Poly, for today have this poly 50 event.. I kept on seeing the Hp, whether it got rings not.. I waited until the Poly 50 start.. In the end I give up.. I pass my hp to my friend.. THen concentrate in running liao...

This year poly 50, I think i din run well, cos really cant run fast.. Cos din train much... But I really very enjoyed it, enjoyed every moment with my friends... THen after we finished, I immediately find back my Hp.. Yet, haven see any miss call from TCM.. I feel strange, very worry.. Wondering why I wait till now still have recieve the call...

Cos i know that I might fail 3 papers.. Cos first paper I sick, brain cant work... Knowing that I remember those thing, and head abit pain.. Alot of wrong ans... Then 2nd paper, I only start studying the day before the exam, and I din finish studying, and during the exam, alot of those xue wei dont know, then one Q&A dont know, then the explanation only know 2 out of 5... As for MCQ, I did do the Xiti, hopefully that can score well ba, cos i got home check, still got alot wrong... As for 3rd paper, I only know 2 questions well.. Other 3 question i just anyhow do, cos i din study at all.. Just that use a bit of common sense, then listen to that topic before.. might fail too... That why i dont understand why i din receive any call from Zhou Xiao Jie... Jialat... LEt me worry for whole day... They say that if today din receive sure pass liao, but i still not fangxin.. Scacely tml get a call from them.. Hai! REsult me a bit happy not recieving the call, but also let me so scare for whole day...

If i ever pass, I know is God help me one, and also cos they got moderate the result... If i fail, I already expected one... I bet with Yun, if i by luck pass, i will treat her eat the dinner at quality hotel, but if i fail, she will treat me... Haha... Suan liao, see tml liao...

Anyway, today, i still consider very happy, enjoyed in poly 50, but very tired... It is really my memorable day that Four of us get together---Alan, Irene, Apple and Me, and try our best to finish the race.. Even though we are not the fast group, at least we complete the event..Hehe... ["^U^"]

Tired tired tired... Go sleep liao...

I am happy this few days!

My first worry shd be gone liao, my 2nd worry shd be ok ba and my last worry shd also be gone and ok ba... At least I am more Fang Xin now...

Recently quite busy, and thus very tired, but feel very happy, and quite Zhi De... But start to scare of my retake paper liao, haven study, last week mention must study on tues, but now, ARGZ, a week past, tml tues really need to study some liao.. Tml also need to go cut my hair again, cos infront too long liao...

On last week sat, amy msn to me, she is in china now.. So envy.. Hehe, But hope she enjoy well.. Amy say she miss singapore and miss me, hehe.. I also miss her alot eversince her bday april till now.. Plan to meet up with her on my holiday, but she not in singapore.. No choice, so we change to Aug liao.. Then she call me to bring my next half go during our meet up.. Haha.. I know all my friends wanna be to find my happiness, and I appreaciate it... But, sun qi zhi ran.. Knowing that she and LJ now is also loving, feel very happy for her too.. ["^U^"]

This few days start to miss my dad again.. ARGZ... My mind keep flashing what my aunt had said to me, she said that now I have cut short my hair, I look more alike to my dad.. And also last year, aunt also said that the way I drive car, same as my dad style... I have slowly cant remember my dad voice liao, miss the way he speak, and those quarrel time and also the way he saiyang me.. Hai... Daddy, I love you...

I also being to afraid that the day my mum going to left me.. I still have 4 years of study, I really do pray and hope that my mum can live at least 10 years or more longer.. This goes to the same for all my friends, I rather to be a selfish person, cos I rather left this world first than seeing my friends left me oneday... Again life is Wu Chang, really hard to say one, But i will still Nu Li, Jiayou in doing what I shd do in this world and most importantly my mission...

Today went to Tian Hui, happen to see this pri 2 girl again, cos on sun went to teach those kids mooncake.. Seeing those kids really let me feel so happy.. Then this girl call Xin Ye (I think so), she asked me why I cut my hair so short.. She said she saw me before, and my sis too.. She saw us at taiwan, but i am not sure whether is last year or 2 year ago.. Cos she remember that I have long hair.. Hm.. Then I told her that Bec I am sad then cut my hair lor.. Hm.. from her expression, she still dont understand why.. She is so cute, and so tian Zhen ke Ai.. THen she said where is my tail, as she saw it during sun, then i told her I keep it inside my shirt.. Haha, I fail to be a responsible tutor (Jiao Dao Yuan), scare later will teach them bad.. Hm.. Still dont wish and still bu se de to cut away my tail leh, but knowing that I shd cut it oneday, if not I will not be a Gd Mo Fan Sheng...

Still deciding wanna change to Qing Shao Nian Ban, being a tutor for those sec teenager next year, or still continue my Du jing for those less than 12 year old kids.. Going teenager grp confirm will learn alot of thing.. But seeing those kids, really make me go back to my childhood time.. Hai! Still got about 5 months to decide sia...

Stop here liao, cos is already 1.08am.. Lastly before end, Hope Yun will feel everyday happiness, Hope Jie also feel happiness and forget those saddness thing, then hope all my friend stay happy every sec, and finally, gd luck for my tcm friends for the coming results.. Jiayou!!! ["^U^"]

My 3 Worries

Argz...What happen? Now got 3 things make me so worry.. Abit Xie(Evil) Men sia...
Yesterday went to petrol at SPF (not sure the spelling), cos car no petrol liao, then was at pump 4.. When reach Tampinese Mall, I press level 5, and the lift stop at level 4.. And it din move liao.. I got a bit stunned.. thinking that dont tell me the lift not working.. Then I quickly press level 3.. Luckily it move again... Then when go home, no petrol again, so went to mobil.. Again, pump 4...

On the way home, wondering how come three of 4 appear continuosly... Wondering izzit giving me any hint or not...

My first worry is Yun.. Hope sway thing will away from her, hope she will Xiao Xin in future, cos she kanna tio the chemical thing... Hope she overcome recent problem she facing now... I already Jing Li Le...

My next worry is Jie, knowing that she face her family problem.. Agree to meet her up at 11.30pm, but Until now 1.18am I still unable to go look for her, bec mum car haven back home... Wanna be there for her when she is down, but now, ARGZ... I also helpess.. ArgZ... I really wanna to accompany her, share her thing.. Wat shd I do now? Help!!!

My last worry for now is my mum.. Since at 10pm, have been calling her hp till now 1.30am , she din ans the phone.. More than 20 calls, and really so fed up... Argz.. This is the first time so late that she haven back home.. Usually after her work, she will reach home at the earlier 10plus, or latest before 12.30am... Why she din ans the phone? Why she so late haven back home? What she doing now? ARGZ...

I am now like those ant on the hot pot ar... I cant do anything, I am so helpess.. My head so pain.. ARGZ.....

God, please help me, hope everything will be fine, help my first two worry to overcome their problem, hope for their happiness.. Hope my mum quickly back home.. Hope nothing happen to my mum... Give me the strength to go through with them!!!!!!! [Xie Xie Lao Mu Chi Bei]

Today Start sch liao...

Hm.. Today wakeup late, then bo biao, steal my mother car, but on the way to sch, there was a heavy traffic on pie.. Hai! late for abt 10 min again... Today lesson still ok, Bing Li Xue... Abit afraid to attend wed lesson, cos is Zhen Jiu lesson, dont know how to face the same teacher again... cos knowing that I will do badly in the first Zhen Jiu paper... Time really fly fast, now 2nd year liao.. Today new classmates join us, anyway still quite like my class.. They are really the best...

Really hope my exam wont fail so jialat... Tml need to study again liao.. Is must.. Tml mother stall there will be cook alot of dishes, by her worker, call us to go and eat eat.. Haha.. That why cant lose weight.. Argz...

Next week poly 50 liao, abit scare sia.. I only last week then start jogging back, scare that during poly 50 no stamina to complete sia... Hai! Very grateful to my Lao Mu Niang, cos my practical didnt crash with this coming poly 50.. :) This semester will learn to manage my time well, if not will die like last semester.. Mo Fan Ban going to end soon, really very excited to finish it soon.. But haven do the homework sia.. Maybe this weekend then do ba...

["^U^"]

Tml Start sch liao...

Argz.. Really the siansation sia... Haven enjoy my holiday sia... Hai! No mood...

Yesterday went to Da Zhong Ban, after the class, was about to left, then saw a guy look like ZQ, wondering he also coming not.. But then, Suddenly He walk pass me, I just stunned.. like Shuo Cao Cao, Cao Cao Dao... Hm.. Then I just smile and say Hi to him.. He also do the same as me.. Then I walk toward the gate, he again suddenly walk behind me and say Ni Shou Hen Duo Le, hm.. Then I just smile and reply Hai Hao la.. He start to ask me how am I and how is my studies.. Hm.. In respect, I ask him how is he too.. Then he told me he has moved near my house here... Then I say Oh.. Ok... Our conversation is quite short.. To me, I am really surprise to see him again.. We already didnt contact each other for a long time liao.. Anyway hope he still doing fine.. He will always in my heart, all those thing he do for me, I appreaciate it and will also keep in my heart cos I admit I do like him in the past.. Can only say that I met him too late... You Yuan Wu Fen!