Afraid n Happy!!!

Today went to Diao Lao Shi Lin Chuang.. My feeling is.. very very afraid, heart beat quite fast during the lunch time.. Cos I am deciding going or not.. if going really quite scare.. But since this Jan attend her Zhen Jiu Practical, I quite like it.. Last week I din go bec all my groupmates din go, and also I haven finished studying my Xi Yi Nei Ke Exam, so in the end din go.. But this week, dont have anything, or exam, so really hope to go.. But then when heard that my grpmates not going again, I abit sian, cos no one accompany me.. And i really really scare scare if i am the only one going..

But in the end I went for the 2pm Prac this afternoon.. I 针 for all the 5 patients, asking them their 主述， and also come out with some of the 穴位... I did told her that some of the words i might forgot how to write for the 主述, and will write in pingying then she said ok, dont worry.. then later Diao Lao Shi also said that my 穴位 is ok, and let me 针 those 穴位 that i think of.. The first time I 针足三里 and 三阴交 for the first patient, is not so accurate, so Diao Lao shi tell me that my 足三里 is abit lower, and my 三阴交 is too far behind the bone, in the end she help me adjust.. Then later, for the 2nd patient, He got ear problem, and 腰痛， and so i suggest to 针听宫， 大肠俞，肾俞，委中.. but in the end i din 针听宫，although i know where the place is, i scare to zhen there, cos i din zhen before.. so i decided to 针大肠俞，肾俞 first.. But the problem is I din zhen those xue wei myself before.. Usually my groupmates will tell me where is the point, or the teacher will point to that specific place, then i will zhen it.. but then this time is i have to find the place myself, luckily I did ask wen during lunch time on how to find the 定位. Then I pray to god, and 针大肠俞，肾俞.. and when teacher come in and check, she said this, 针不错.. then later she continue, haven zhen the ear, then i say yea, so she help me zhen, and i continue with my 委中穴.. o

Overall, today I 针 abt 10 穴位，they are, 足三里，三阴交， 大肠俞，肾俞，委中，太冲， 环跳，昆仑，阴陵泉，内外膝眼。。 in the end she said my 委中穴 is 针得很好。。 she also said that she din comment on my 太冲穴 is bec the position is accurate.. But But But.. she said that my 定位 is correct, but some of my 精准角度 still not very gd, then call me to go home and practice.. Yeap, Thanks Diao Lao Shi.. I am very glad that I did come for the practical, and I did learn alot from her.. And i am very 满意with my performance today, cos i din make very big mistake.. Hehe... ["^U^"] Then I thanks her for teaching me, and she said that as long as i am willing to learn, she will teach me, and also if i have any problem in 针灸, i can come to look for her on every wed.. Yup.. Feeling very gd after today practical!!!

Cant swimming, cant jogging.. Argz!!

This coming sun is Su Shi Yuan You Hui, hopefully watever I had planned in mind, will come true in this sun.. esp 渡人，my gd friend.. I have been waiting for abt 8 years le.. is hard for them to believe me, but no matter wat, I will sincerely and will be patiently to wait for them to believe in whatever i say, really hope them to find back their trueself.. Just only once believing in me will do, but hope when time ripe ba.. Jiayou Jiayou!!!

This coming fri is the Xi Yi Nei Ke exam, hai.. abit sian.. but will try hard studying well.. Today the new 2nd year exam results out again, cos that time they forgot to include one of the subject which is ZHong Yi Shi (history), so to my surprise, my overall percentage drop by abt 1%, but my class position increase by 7.. Really stunned sia.. REally very Man Yi with the 2nd year result le, but again, my more concern is this coming exam, and graduate exam next year.. Just work hard, let my Lao Mu An Bai Wo De Lu..

Sometimes will think back tat, actually initially I am not going for the Ren Cai class, bec really scare that if i too busy, i cant cope with my study, then bec of wat Aihua jiejie, she said that not everytimes will have the chance.. So later I decided to go for the Ren Cai Class, and in my heart, I told myself that that let my god arrange my way ba.. Is true, Lao mu always be there for me.. Xie Xie Lao Mu Niang.. To some of my friends, indeed it seems that i am quite busy all the times, and sometimes cant manage my time well, but I am very enjoyed in every process.. especially the Musical Performance in June Su Shi Hui.. Abit Ke Xi that we dont have the chance to perform again for the Le Lin (those old ages) in the Nov.. But is ok, cos we will always have LiaoYuan chances in future... ["^U^"]

Recently quite sway.. since national day, i have been Gan Mao 3 times till now, then i cant go jogging or swimming.. My teacher call me not to go execrise.. then last week, I feel that I am ok liao, so i went to swimming on Tues and wed.. Long time din swim le, but that day I swim for 20 laps, abt an hour.. After two days of continuously, my knee start to pain as i walk.. then later i c my zhen jiu teacher, he said that my inner part of my left knee ligament (Ren Dai) was injuired bec i swim too much le la.. then my Gu Shang ke teacher also say that my Nei Zhe Ren Dai Shun Shang.. He said that one month later then can fully recover.. When i heard that, really feel so sian.. hai.. dont know when can i go execrise again.. now using the Knee guard, which i brought on last fri, bec teacher say that the ligament injury is not very serious, but if dont take care well, it affect the Ban Yue Ban bone, then it will be very serious, jialat le.. signZ..

Now going home le.. using sch comp.. sian sian sian...

失望！伤心！绝望！

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