Happy Birthday Jie Fu!!!

Today is my JieFu birthday, and we went to near PS there to celebrate his bday.. Quite happy to see my friends again, and hope Jie Fu like the surprise, & birthday Kiss, hehe, but to Jie, sorry ar.. but hope u two happy... :)

My recent happening..

Ever since "He" got my contact number, we have been messaging to each other, and he everyday will call me. On Monday, we have chatted for about 2 hours plus, during the conversation, He said: 你是否会喜欢我？And I reply: 有就有，没有就没有. Then he keep on asking me, but in the end I change the topic. The next day, I replied him in sms saying that 我会喜欢你. Before I went to Malaysia on Tuesday night, he sms me saying that 往后如有要帮忙的地方，一定要开口， 不过说真的我有喜欢你.

During the journey to my uncle house (travel in the bus for at least 10hrs), he sms me again. Below is our sms conversation:

“Him”: 我想问你，你是否有爱过小狮子?
JJ: 我喜欢可爱又搞笑的狮子.
“Him”: 你是否知道小狮子是谁吗?
JJ: 我叫他as Leo.
“Him”: 我问你东，你回我西. 我问你是否有爱过我？
JJ: I like Leo.

The next morning, we reached my uncle place and we went to eat our breadfast. At 7.55am, I received a msg from “Him” again.

“Him”: 那你玩的开心点，要小心顾好自己的身子喔. 现在这边下很大雨，那边行情怎样.
JJ: 天气晴朗.
“Him”: 吃饱了没？
JJ: 吃了. 你呢？
“Him”: 在吃，今天玩得开心吗？对了昨夜你send I like Leo 是什么东东. 我不明白，可否说明白一点，thanks!

Then I told him that he is born in the horoscope of Leo, and he said that I must know quite a lot of Leo guy. But I replied that I only know one guy, and then he congrats him. During the night, he will sms me saying that 今天是否有想念我这位老人家呢. Somemore, calling me 老太婆 whether if I already asleep. I replied him that I do miss him and the Leo guy is him. But he replied that but this small lion don’t like to be control one.. and also 唉，请便误会，我是怕会伤害你. I didn’t reply anything back and I am quite tired liao, so I sleep after the last msg.

On Thursday morning, he msg me again, saying good morning, wake up le ma, brush teeth le ma and etc.. During the night at about 7pm, we reached Singapore airport. I msg telling him that I now in Singapore le.

“Him”: 老太婆， 欢迎你回国，有人去接你们吗？
JJ: 有，uncle来载我们.
“Him”: 回家后记得洗澡喔.
JJ: 老公公，你很罗说.
“Him”:一点点而已吗，那好吧. 我们晚点在谈吧. 对了别忘记吃饭ok, Bye…

At night, he has forward me some msg. Then we continue our conversation…

“Him”: 对了，有些事情我不知该不该告诉你，如告诉你怕小姐你老人家生气，不告诉你怕伤害你老人家的心.
JJ: 你说吧 :p
“Him”: 等时刻到时才讲.
JJ: 可否现在讲，我想知道.
“Him”: 那我问你，你有没有喜欢&爱过我，还是我俩是好朋友.
JJ: 我有喜欢你，自从从台湾回到新加坡.
“Him”: 我无话可说，但愿你喜欢就好，千万别爱知道吗. 我说的是真话.
JJ: 我知道ar… 那你现在可以说了，我已回答了你.
“Him”: 我已经说了，你不知道吗？
“Him”: 我没骗老太婆你，我真的已经说了.
JJ: 我不明白，意识代表什么. 你要说的，就是叫我不要爱你？
“Him”: 你不是讲喜欢我吗，我也很喜欢老太婆，只不过… 老太婆我们不说这些了，时间久了老人家你就会明白，我怎么敢叫小姐你别爱小弟呢?
JJ: 我要知道只不过是什么意识. 我很不明白. 一定要等到时间久了才明白吗？不能讲清楚一点吗？老公公.

The next morning, he sms me 2 forward msg regarding I miss you…
JJ: 早安老公公，祝你工作愉快.
“Him”: 太婆你老人家也一样，请问昨夜几点睡觉，有没有想念老公我呢?
(I think he forgot to put one more 公)
JJ: 我不知道我几点睡，应该一个钟头我们的最后msg, 有想念着你和想着我想知道的事，如果一定要等到日子久了才会明白，那我愿意等.
“Him”: 傻瓜，不要想太多，这样我会心痛的.

I didn’t reply as I am too tired and still wanna to continue my sleep (8am)… But in the afternoon, he will msg me asking if I had my lunch not, and also at about 7pm plus, he also called me, but didn’t really chat with him, as I have to go out with my mother. Just now we also chat for at least an hour or so… I know that he treat me quite good.

To me, actually I know that 我们是不可能的. But I still got the 感觉 of him. During the starting of the year, I heard that he is going to marry, I was a bit sad at that time. Wanna asked him if he is married, but still don’t dare to ask. Later, my hp was lost, so I thinking that all this is fate, and is a good thing that we lost contact. But, fated again, as I mentioned in the previous blog, I saw him, I was very surprised, and now we got in contact with each other again. When he say whether wanna told me or not, if told, I will angry, if didn’t told, I will be sad, but to me when I heard that, I think of the married thing.. Till now I am still not sure he is single or married. Actually, I won’t feel sad or angry for now. If it is true, I only hope that he will tell me truly. Because I believe that he won’t want to lie to me and I will wait until he tells me the truth… For some of my friends who knows about this during this starting of the year, they believe that he is purposely lie to me one, and think that he is a bad guy.. But to me I do believe in him, and feel that he don’t purposely wanna cheat me. And all this thing which I know, is only hear from someone, and also not sure whether is true or not.. I know that the person scare 我会被骗, still thanks for the concern.. But anyway, 真相还是会是水落实出..

如果是真的，我很希望你会跟我讲明白，不希望你存心骗我，但愿我们还是好朋友. 我真得很感谢你给于我那么多的关心，和在这几天里逗我开心，谢谢你老公公！

["^U^"]

Today got a call, and when I answered the phone, I realised is "Him".. Quite suprised.. Now then I know is my sister give "Him" my number. He is still the same as before, a funny guy.. ["^U^"]

Finally Dream of my Dad!!

3 days ago, I dreamt of my dad. Inside the dream, my dad seem to know that he is going soon. My dad and maid were sitting on one table, and My mother and my Da Yi were sitting on the other table, discussing on the Guan Cai for my dad. I was sitting in the middle between my DaYi and Mum, then I was very sad, and dont wish to hear about which Guan Cai the best for my dad, so during their discussing, I went toward my dad, and I hug his right hand. I was crying and feel very sad cos knowing that dad will leave me, but my dad then told me not to be sad. After his words, I was awaken up, and I found myself with some tears.. SobSob, I really miss my daddy..

2 days ago, I first time dreamt of "HiM"... In the dream, he told me 3 words, but then I told "Him" if later got time then talk to you. And I din really reply to him and I left. But wherever I go, I will still see him, and he keep saying 'Hi' to me.. I will like to have the continue of the same dream again, cos I know that in reality, we are not possible to be together.. ["^U^"]But I am pleased for now, and I still have those good HuiYi to think of, which I am already very happy... :)

Thanks Apple and Justin

Thanks Apple and Justin for coming to give me support, even though I know that the performance isnt that gd.. But really hope U all have enjoyed.

Too surprise to see "Him" coming for the event. We just smile to each other, but didnt talk. I admit that the Ganjue is still there, but hope that he will live very happy, xing fu kuai le.. Hope that we will be friend...

I miss my Dad alot...

Today will be performing at night near the JE polyclinic. Hope that it will not be raining, if not we will have to perform in a TangZhu House.. I only required to tell everyone why during mother's day, we need to give carnation flower and not other type of flower. Although Mine performance is only 3min to 4min, but to me, when I have to tell this Carnation flower story, I will have alot of GanChu. Cos I will think of my father. This event is a celebration of Belated Mother's day and coming Father's day..

Recently, accompany my mother to settle my dad thing, thus seldom online, and I also compose a song for my dad. Just finish composing the melody, but the lyrics have not. The title of the song is Zai Jian. Got some Lin Gan for the Lyric, for example,
will be saying like, I really do miss you, I am calling you, Did you hear that... Afterall, I can only keep thinking you, and think of the past. I miss your voice, I miss alot of the thing that you do everyday... Daddy, I love you..

This is wat I hope to put into the song, but is hard, still cant think of how use the chinese word for it.. Everytime I think of this, just listen to the song, my tear will just come out. Daddy, do u know I really wanna to see you, why you can let bro and other relatives to dream of you, but till now, I still have dream of you. Daddy I really miss you, even though 2 weeks have pass le, I am still waiting for you to come into my dream.. Daddy!!!